Love me cancerously- 1

God, this class is boring as hell. I hate mondays. I have to keep waking myself, or well has to. When will we even need spanish. Whatever. Or Lo que in words. Ugh. Next im going to be sitting in a classroom filled with my ex prego gf, my ex best friend, a gay kid who is madly in love with me , two lesbian cheerios, goth girl, ghetto girl, nerd boy, and two other kids . Then I have to watch the girl I think im in love with suck face with her douchebag of a boyfriend. I wanna puked just thinking about it. But this is the things I get myself into, glee club.

I just can't seem to think straight anymore. My love and sex life suck. What's to live for besides my maybe sports scholarship, and or singing career. Oh I just shivered. Good I think I was falling asleep again. So much for sleep. I don't get any at night. I mean after the whole kurt watching me sleep thing stopped, and I got used to him being bunkmates. I just feel something missing. I litterally stare into the darkness of there – I mean our kitchen while drinking pepsi. I need to stop that.

" Finn!" I jumped at the sound of Mr. Shue's voice.

" Uh, yeah." Shit im fumbling with words.

" Class ended. 10 minutes ago." He walked over to my desk as I gathered up my notebooks. " Finn what's going on? Your not yourself." I shrugged.

" I don't know Mr. Shue, i'm just tired." I lied walking out the door. Awkward is he still looking at me . -Glances back-. Yup.

Xxxxxx

Well im in glee. Rachel and jesse are singing some stupid broadway duet and im doodling. Yup, i'll be a professional artist by the time her and jesse are done. I could hear santana and brittany's texting and quinns and pucks bickering next to me. Bordem has officialy set in.

" that was great guys. Awsome okay whos got something else for us? Finn?" I looked up and shook my head.

" Nope." One worded answers will always satisfy them.

" ReallY?"

" Yup." Or not. Mr shue frowned. Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Two dudes from the LPD were motioning for . Weird. He didn't strike me as the badass. His head turned in my direction with a shocked expression. Peoples whispering started up. Seriously, I could hear you guys.

" Finn, Can we talk?" He sounded upset. Why? I nodded. " Finn, your mom...is in the hospital. She was just in a car accident." I didn't give him time to explain as I ran out of the room, my feet hit the hallway marble hard. I skidded and fumbled for my keys. Jumping in the car I flew out of the parking lot.

Xxxxx

I stood out of my mom's room where she was talking quietly to kurts dad. The doctor was telling me how she was bruised up but there keeping her for a week for testing, I nodded to everything. My mind was on my mother, not on there bullshit dr. talk. She looked weak. My heart broke. I opened the door. And walked to her bedside. She put her hand on mine.

" Im gonna be fine sweetheart. Im a trooper like your dad." Something he probably taught her before he passed away. I nodded. Im not convinced. But I wasn't the dr. I had no right to be telling her if was ok or not.

It had been hours. Kurts dad was asleep his head on my moms bed. I sat in the recliner my hand on my mouth. Once again starring into the unknown. Kurt stopped by but had to leave after an hour. He said the glee club wishes my mom the best of luck. All I could do was nod. I wasn't sane enough to form words. I sighed getting up and leaving the room.

Xxxx

What the fuck am I doing? Where am I going in my life, I sipped my hott chocolate. Dr.s' and nurses passed by me , starring at me like I was sickly. I wondered down every wing. I felt sick. My mom. My girl. My dad, My friends. My future. Uh oh. Not good. I think im gonna-

I ran into a room and grabbed a bed pan. I puked up almost everything my stomach. Wich was a lot. Bing eating and drinking at night could be costly. I wretched until all that was left were dry heaves. I coughed. I fell against something sturdy. Everything was spining and white. I wanted to just die. I never had been this week.

Suddenly I felt something cold on my forehead. I took deep breaths.

" shh. It's okay." The voice said .I grabbed there hand gently. It was soft and womenly. I slowly opened my eyes. I was in heaven.