Loves' Choice
It was one of those boring days. As I sit at my desk staring at the old photograph of a youthful girl, in her early twenties. Hair as black as ebony, covering most of her back like a curtain so straight. In the picture with her was a guy in the same age bracket, with a beautiful smile across his lips. So finely curved and shining like red apple.
Then it started to come back, that day so many years ago…... "It's just two years, we'll keep in touch no matter what, I'll be back". Those words keep ringing in my ears. It has been thirty long years. Where had the time gone? Where did he go? How, did this happen I said to the girl in the mirror.
Yes, thirty years of waiting, longing but I had stopped. Stopped wanting gave up hope of those words …. That lost their meaning. As I look at myself…. It seems like a year has passed no visible change can be seen. Still I can't deny my calendar age has advanced, yet not physically. How lucky of me. Is it a gift or a curse? All those years of giving advice and yet I have none to offer myself.
With the millennium came lots of changes. Fashion, music even the people have changed! They are more open with their gender preferences daring and expressing themselves. Having gone this far thru the years, the third genders of male are more approachable, happy and outgoing companions. I had friends of such gender and enjoyed their company. Being with them I was surrounded by men even straight men. Also it seems that was all they were interested in.
My girl pal were always interested in keeping their men and focused on their kid, so I barely had time to spend with them. "Why haven't you married one asked me?" Well, I believed in Love than marriage, but that was something I seemed to have lost in my vocabulary. I had lost the spark a long time ago …. My heart had decided to eradicate the feeling of LOVE, romantic love Suitors came and went none seemed to reach my heart.
I had been happy and contented being single, no strings attached. Seeing my friends weep, hope , be disappointed and betrayed by their chosen love made me think twice even a hundred times over. That emotion of pain… and hurt, do I want to take that risk of going thru it again. Nope, I can do without it I told myself. So I continued with no regret.
"Hi, done with your advice for this Evenings paper?" Asked my lovely spinster boss Madelyn.
"Yes, I even have tomorrows' advice too!" I replied. She looked at me, and I felt it wasn't really the question she wanted to ask. I followed behind to her office.
" Dee, need advice? I'm in the mood" I joked. Madelyn looked around and quickly closed the door when I was in the room.
"Oh, Abbie … can I, ask you something? It is too late for me to find happiness? I was taken by surprise. Of all people Dee! I never realized that being single was affecting her.
"Of course, everyone is entitled to their happiness, at the right time and place! Why have you met him?" I asked. In my mind it never came across about seeing my Boss as a couple …. It seems she was always happy and contented going out with the girls, and other officemates. I waited for her response. It took an eternity before she parted her lips to speak.