Written By: Rage of BlackMist
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing nor any of it's characters. Gundam Wing belongs to the property of the Sotsu Agency, Sunrise and Fuji TV, NOT ME. Though, I do wish is does.
Author's Note: Hilde is the voice of the story.
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"The biggest regrets in life are the chances you never take."
-Hilde
Life hit me, a strike directly targeted towards my heart, with every bolt of lightening the magnanimous Zeus could bare to spare from his secret holding. A thousand times to the max I wondered why it just now decided to lay the cards down face up flat, as if the cards dared to form a new shape. Those same cards baring the hidden message that everything is going to change rather it be a real life situation involving my life or one played by actors who hold my friends' names. The message driving towards a hint that in this lifetime, my life is going to shatter into a million microscopic pieces invisible to the human eye.
In spite of everything, why this feeling of loneliness, this feeling of scarce happiness decided to creep into my very being remains a mystery. I was happy, for the time being since no one that I've crossed paths with has ever stayed or remained happy. It is a blunt fact, not an absurd notion to be forgotten. Of course, you do not have to believe me on that one. Hell, I don't even believe myself, for all you have to do is stroll out of your housing and view witness to the statement; That you can with hold happiness as long as him or her, he in my case, with hold's happiness as well.
Hence, this fraud declaration of obtaining happiness and locking it with in your soul is what urges me to write about the happenings the night of July 30 and morning of July 31. Trust me on this when I challenge to say that on that morning was when Zeus glared down at me through seething orbs and declared to Aphrodite that I had and forever will remain with no heart. What a depressing realization that was when it hit me. I recall even being thrown off balanced too, perhaps the wind was knocked out of me?
However, be that as it may, I regained my sense's that mythological Greek gods and goddesses are not real, furthermore squaring my shoulders while I stared open mouthed as everything that I lingered alive for walked out on me. It was a very quiet and chilly moment with the exception of the rain that fought its way into my house. I managed to hold back my flood of tears until the door shut with a thud, than fell helplessly to the floor, weak and defeated. A feeling I did not and still do not deserve.
Nonetheless, to get the genuine perception of how my life crumbled those last two days of July lost to me so recently, one must hear the full story...