Disclaimer: I don't own Orange is the New Black, if so Alex and Piper never would have broken up.
A/N: So this is a retry at my first Orange is the New Black fanfiction. Just so y'all know this is going to be an AU kind of fiction so Larry is going to be evil. This is your warning up to you if you choose to heed it or not. Anyway let me know what you think.
Piper's P.O.V.
Depressed, miserable, terrible, loveless, fearful, pathetic, worthless, the list seems to go on and on. These are all words that I could use to describe me and my sorry excuse of a life for the past three years. Every single day since I abandoned the love of my life in a hotel room, crying her heart out over the death of her mom. That was the last time I ever had the pleasure of laying eyes of the most breath-taking and gorgeous human being to ever walk the face of the Earth. Alex Vause...that was the day I was forever forced out of her life.
I live with the guilt every single day and honestly I deserve too. She gave me everything I could possibly need and want, took me on trips all over the world, and loved me to the best of her ability. Was it the perfect relationship? Of course not, but I wouldn't have changed it for the world because I knew every day that I was loved and cherished.
In the end what did I give her in return? Absolutely nothing, I was a pathetic excuse for a girlfriend, but by leaving her like I did I thought I was making her life better by making sure she was alive to have one. I realize that it wasn't the perfect plan, but it was my only option.
"Piper! You will fucking look at me when I am talking to you!" Larry shouts as he slaps me across the face. It's sad to say that I'm used to it by now. Almost a year after I left Alex I was terrified to leave my apartment by myself. That's when my best friend Polly introduced me to Larry Bloom. Everything was okay at first I guess. I honestly tried to move on with Larry, but I couldn't even feel a fraction from him of what I felt and still feel for Alex. I tried to let him down easy and that's when the abuse started. It took a few beatings before Larry got cocky and admitted that he was working for the man that completely ruined my life.
"Do your worst it's going to be the last one for the next 15 months anyway." My past with Alex seems to have finally caught up to me. A warrant had been issued for my arrest and I was more than happy to turn myself in if it got me away from Larry. I was sentenced to 15 months in Litchfield's Female Penitentiary.
"Don't talk to me as if we're equals! Don't act like I won't be waiting for you when you get back out. There's no escaping me Piper." Larry says as he punches me hard enough to knock me onto the ground. That's when he starts kicking me right in the ribs. I try to hold back my pain filled sobs because I learned the hard way early on that it will just make him kick me harder.
I swear times like this make me wish that Kubra would just let Larry kill me because then I would finally be able to match how I've felt on the inside since I left Alex. Since Polly is now engaged and no longer has time for me so I haven't talked to her for almost 2-3 weeks. My brother Cal lives in the woods with his wife, my mother and I aren't are speaking terms since I started 'dating' Larry, and my dad and I talk maybe once a month if that.
Ever since the fateful day I had to leave Alex my life has gone from bad to worse to basically a living hell. I can't even bring myself to even try to fight against Larry when he kicks me in the ribs, it's not like I feel the pain anymore. Death at this point couldn't be any worse than my life right now. I don't even know how long Larry continued to beat me while yell at me to look at him before I passed out from the pain in my ribs and stomach.
When I woke up the next morning Larry was sitting at the kitchen table reading the paper on his iPad and drinking coffee like he didn't beat me until I blacked out. I force myself to sit up ignoring the burning pain I feel. It's several attempts to stand up before I can limp my way to the bathroom. Larry must have gotten carried away again and moved his way down from my stomach to my leg. I strip as I carefully step into the shower and turn on the water. I try and power through the pain, but I just can't as I slide down to the floor as the steaming water falls onto my aching limbs.
"Piper, hurry up we're going to be late dropping you off. Wouldn't want them issuing another warrant for your arrest would we?" Larry shouts as he starts banging on the bathroom door. I swear my hate for this man grows every single day.
"I'm...I'm coming." I say as I stand up as quickly as I can washing away yesterday's dirt off of myself. I quickly use the bathroom as I limp out wrapped in a towel. I hobble to my closet and gently slide on a loose pair of jeans and a button up shirt. It's too hard for me to even try and lift my arms right now when I don't have too. I slide on a pair of Toms to also avoid having to bend over.
I slowly limp out of the bedroom and meet Larry by the front door where I keep my wallet and ID. "Are you not going to eat something before we leave?" I can see the fake concern shining in his eyes. He gets enjoyment out of pretending like he cares about me when we both know he doesn't, but it's just part of his act.
"I'm not really hungry." I mumble as I unlock the door and walk out waiting for him to follow behind me. I can feel myself on autopilot as I continue my journey to the car feeling Larry close behind me. I luckily don't have to wait long for him to unlock the car door. I collapse into the seat and finally take the weight off my throbbing leg. Once I'm buckled in I lean my head against the window and close my eyes.
We are an hour into our 3 hour drive to Litchfield when Larry decides to finally say something. "When you get to prison don't even bother trying to make friends. Let's be realistic though who would want to be your friend? Also if anybody asks you're my fiancé as I will find out if you say otherwise. Got it?" He asks never taking his eyes off the road.
"Okay," I'm so used to him controlling every single thing I do and insulting while doing it. At this point nothing he does fazes me I've just learned to accept that my life is a living hell.
"I will come visit you as often as I can thankfully I don't have to watch your sorry ass all the time anymore. Maybe I'll even be nice and bring Polly with me sometimes if you behave." I roll my eyes as I turn to look at the scenery outside trying to enjoy it as much as I can. We couldn't get to Litchfield soon enough in my opinion. I can't wait to be away from Larry for a few months. Ever since he entered my life I've felt like a servant, a punching bag, a rag doll and a dog all rolled into one miserable package.
"Okay," I say again as I continue to look out the window. I've learned over time that it's best to agree to whatever he says as short and as sweet as possible. It limits my room for error and my chances of being hit again.
He grunts and lucky for me that's the end of the conversation until we finally arrive. I slowly climb out of the car as I feel the leg that Larry damaged almost give out. I was able to stabilize myself at the last minute before I face planted the ground. I sigh as I start my slow track to the Welcome to Litchfield entrance. As we get closer and closer to the door and the temporary end to my freedom in the outside world, it's also the beginning of my freedom from Larry and the man who ruined my life. Of course I'm not stupid enough to believe that he can't get to me while I'm in here especially if he could get to me from the other side of the world.
As we reach the entrance Larry holds the door open for me. Simply putting on a show for anybody who might be watching; I walk to the front desk and sign in. After I'm done I slowly walk over to Larry trying hard to hide my limp.
I didn't even have time to consider sitting down before they were calling me back. I feel Larry grab my arm and force me into an unbearable hug. He whispers in my ear too soft for anybody around us to her," remember what I said in the car Piper. You'll never be free from us even if you are behind bars." He says before he pecks me on the lips and pushes me towards the guard.
After I walk away I don't even know what happened from that point on. Nothing the guards said really registered in my mind, but I did whatever they asked regardless. I went through my mugshots, giving them all of the possessions I had on me including my clothes, showering, inspection, and finally I'm given the standard orange jumpsuit to change into. I'm glad nobody asked me about any of my bruises. I'm too exhausted to even bother trying to come up with a somewhat believable lie.
Before I know it I'm sitting in the back of a van next to a guard with another one prisoner sitting in the drivers sit. "Well hello there cutie I'm Lorna Morello. What's your name?" I look into the rearview mirror and see a woman with bright red lipstick wearing a beige uniform. She must be an inmate too.
"Piper Chapman," I say as I turn to look about out the window.
"Well Piper Chapman you're going to enjoy Litchfield. I mean it is prison, but hey it could be a whole lot worse. We have a pretty good library, and all the girls are really nice as long as you don't do or say anything to insult them. Also heads up no matter what never talk back about the food. Red will take great offense to it." She keeps rambling on and on for the rest of the drive which lucky for me was only about 10 minutes.
The guard waits for the van to come to a stop before she opens the door and hops out and waits for me to follow. Before I know it I'm standing next to Lorna as we walk into Litchfield. She's quick to show me where I'm going to temporarily be sleeping until I get a more permanent sleeping quarters. I don't bother saying anything to the rest of the girls I simply put all of my stuff on my bunk as I slowly and gently as I climb up to lie down.
I lie there for a few minutes before I hear everybody in my room get up and leave. I don't bother moving to see where they're going. I again don't bother moving when I hear footsteps approaching me. "Are you coming to lunch?" Lorna asks me. I don't have to turn around to know it's her after her rambling I would recognize her nasally voice anywhere.
"I'm not hungry." I say still facing the wall.
"I'm sure you must be hungry by now. Also I bought you a toothbrush and some toothpaste. There's also a few other toiletries to help you get through the first few days." I feel her place it on the bunk next to the rest of my stuff.
"I'm not hungry." I say repeating myself. I'm really hoping she gets the hint that I'm not interested in leaving where I am right now.
"Please? I promise if you come eat now I'll leave you alone for the rest of the day." I can already tell that she's going to be a problem while I say here. She doesn't seem like the type of girl that takes no for an answer.
I sigh as I sit up slowly and look at her. "Fine," I slowly swing my legs over the side and look down. Getting down is going to hurt more than it did getting up.
I take a deep breath as I hop down as try and soften the fall as much as I can. I land on all four which wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't felt my shirt ride up and expose all my bruises. I could have fooled myself into believing that Lorna hadn't seen them if I hadn't heard her gasp. "Are you okay, Chapman?" She says as she rushes to my side.
"I'm fine," I say through grit teeth. The last thing I need is for her to start worrying about me. That'll make keeping her away that much harder.
"You should go to the infirmary and have somebody check you out. What if something's broken or you're bleeding on the inside." I have to cut her off there as I stand up and dust off my hands.
"I said I'm fine Morella! Can we just go to lunch so you can hold up to your end of the deal?" I ask as I start to slowly walk towards the cafeteria. It doesn't take long for Morella too caught up to me.
"Chapman, you should really have that checked out." She says even though she should know by now that it will fall on deaf ears.
"Leave it." I say as we finally arrive in the cafeteria.
"Okay, if you're sure." She says as she heads over to a table with filled with people who must be her friends. There's a girl with bushy brown hair. She looks like she's done drugs before. I move to the woman sitting across from her. She looks really burly with random tattoos going down one of her arms. Then next to her is a woman with jet black hair that curls at the ends like Alex's used too.
I don't know how long I'm standing there staring at the woman before I feel eyes on me and see that the rest of the table is looking at me. I look at the mystery woman with black and see the same stunning green eyes that captured my heart so many years ago. I feel all the breath leave my body as we both continue to stare each other down. Only when she makes a move to stand up to I remember why I left all those years ago.
As quick as I can I turn and rush out of the cafeteria not even sparing a second glance. I would like to amend what I said earlier. Being in prison is going to be far worse than being on the outside with Larry.
A/N 2: I'll be going through the chapters redoing them before I start uploading new chapters. Let me know what y'all think of the edits.