I do not own Hetalia- Axis Powers

I woke up at 6 am again. I have no idea why, but I did. I've waking up early for a week now. What could possibly be keeping me up like this? Perhaps it's my nightmares. Yeah, that's it. I've been having the same one every night. It's painful... really painful. I haven't had nightmares like this since I was a child, still depending on Lukas. They used to be about monsters from old Icelandic fairy tales, but this one was different. It involved Kaoru, my best friend.

At first, it's just me and him. We're walking around his neighborhood around mid-afternoon. I can't help but take glances at him with my peripheral vision. He is so handsome, with his soft brown hair, his glowing brown eyes, and his breath taking mischevious smile. He's talking about some fireworks he made with his brother, Yao, and how they looked like the dragons from New Year's festivals. I'm smiling, thinking about the beautiful design and colors as he describes them in complete detail. The way his eyes light up is all it takes for me to be entraced. He's my best friend, but I feel more than that. I think I love him, not that I'd say anything to Kaoru. That would just inflate his ego. Instead, I listen intensely.

We enter this park and sit under a tree. He's so close to me, my heart is racing. His face is just inches away from mine as he talks to me directly. The moment is perfect. I have to say something. I have to tell him. I just hope to Odin he doesn't laugh and make a scene.

"H-hey, Kaoru," I can feel my blush coming just thinking about what might happen. I'm hoping for the best.

He was gazing up into the tree's canopy when he turns his gaze to me once more. I would've kissed him if I was brave enough.

"What's up, Icey?" His eyes pierce into my soul. He uses such silly names for me.

"I-I want to tell you something." He raises a bushy eyebrow. "Something really important." I stare down at my hands, feeling like my face is on fire. "I..." I don't know if I can do it. Dammit this is no time to be a coward like you usually are, get it togther Emil. "I really like you!" I blurt out.

I look up to see his reaction. He's looking right at me. He knows exactly what I mean.

"Bummer."

I look at him in shock. "What do you mean, bummer?!" I have absolutely no idea what's happening.

"I hate to be a heartbreaker." Kaoru says, turning his face away and sighing. "But I guess I have to be one now."

You could hear by heart shatter. It's louder than thunder. I have no response.

"You obviously don't get it, Emil." He stands up, like is overpowering me. Everything around me is suddenly blackness. A hole in the floor opens, and I almost fall in. I grasp on to the edge with my hands, suddenly unable to pull myself up. "You see..." He walks over to me. "A person like you, or should I say a freak like you, should feel lucky enough just to have me be your friend." He steps on my hand and it falls to my side, throbbing.

"Kaoru, please! Help me!" I feel like I could fall any minute as my hand gets sweaty.

"But there is no way on Earth that I could possibly, even remotely consider you dateable." He raises his foot up. "I don't even know why I agreed to be your friend in the first place." He lowers it a little. Slowly, quietly, and with the most evil tone I have ever heard, he says "I will never love you. You will die alone, because you are not worth my love."

He steps on my remaining hand, and I fall into the black abyss below me.

"Kaoru!" I scream, eyes welling up with tears.

And just like that, I wake up at 6 am, soaked in my own sweat and shivering as though I were sleeping outside in the snow.