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Jealous
Chapter 1
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My mouth dropped. I couldn't tear my eyes off of the large screen before me as Geoff scribbled on the image, drawing Duncan and Gwen's lips together.
That back stabbing two timing ogre! Neanderthal... C-cretin!!
The way he pinned her... the way they smirked at eachother. (Of course the smirks faded but it HAPPENED!) It was funny how the warm happiness spread throughout my system when he asked if I might have been looking at the stars iced over! Actually, no, it wasn't funny! I bared my teeth and shot the nastiest glare that I was capable of at Gwen, feeling my anger boil over. Gwen's mouth was also parted, and she snapped at the party blonde, geoff, "Ugh! We're just--"
"Uh oh! Watch what you say!" Geoff taunted, pointing at the weight being held high over Gwen's glared at it for a moment, and continued, "FRIENDS!" That was it. I couldn't TAKE it anymore! I stood up, stamping my foot and yelling, "That is it! I am so calling my lawyer! Humph!" I turned and began to walk off the stage, bringing the phone to my ear after typing a number. I ignored Gwen trying to explain herself, and her voice was eventually drowned out when I stomped out of the backstage door, slamming it behind me. I threw my phone to the floor, watching it bounce.
I didn't actually get my lawyer on the phone, of course. If I did, I would snap and cry and sob and embarress myself on the phone. I tried keeping my lips clamped together as hard as I could, I really did, but eventually sobs spilled from my lips. As did hot tears.
"d-damn you stu-st-stupid Duncan!" I cried, rubbing my eyes. I felt like I had been crushed by a thick concrete wall! My chest was tight and my throat was clogged by a ball of sadness.
I had never been so jealous in my life!
Why didn't I realize it? Gwen was better for him... look wise, personality wise... they had everything in common, and worst of all?
Duncan and I weren't even dating.
Why was a getting so jealous over a guy I wasn't even going out with?
I tugged at the end of my shirt and rubbed my eyes roughly. My chest was still tight and my stomach was still in knots as I stumbled over to my phone, slipping it into my pocket, not even checking it to see if it was cracked. I took a few deep breaths, and headed for the exit of the building. I was going to call my mother and have her pick me up. I was done with Total drama Action, and Chris and Gwen, and Duncan and my stupid lawsuit... why would I made such a fuss over something so silly like being in a show? I pursed my lips when the last thing I remembered flew into my mind.
"Fine. Enjoy and peanut butter-less life."
"Fine..."
It was my first kiss. His lips had this chapped, jagged edge that just made it better... it only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like an etenity.
My throat clogged again and I froze at the door. Of course, I was lying to myself. I wasn't done. It hurt to watch my friends go through hell, and watch Gwen and Duncan get closer then we ever really were... My bottom lip trembled and tears glazed over my eyes again, "Oh, who am I kidding..." I mumbled, sobbing. My shoulders shook with my sobs as I realized how much I wanted to see him again. How much I wanted him to pin ME to the ground and go star Gazing with ME. Why did she have to be so perfect for him? Why did I need him so badly?
Why did I love him so damn much??
THIS IS UTTER SHIT. XD