Bianca was at home alone, walking around her house, trying to find things to do. She groaned as she took a drink from her cup. She couldn't remember what she had put in the cup but after a while, she stopped caring. She sat down in front of her computer as a message popped up. It was from Drew. She blinked a few times and just let herself breathe. She missed him and thought he'd never speak to her again. She read his message asking her to come over. She looked in a mirror on the wall next to her and cringed, she looked terrible. She could still walk in a straight line…. kind of so she said she'd be right over. She fixed her make up and changed her clothes, hoping she wouldn't smell of alcohol. She looked at herself once more in the mirror, "Bianca, whatever he wants or has to say, just accept it. Be happy that you get to see him again. Just breathe." She told herself this a couple times more than walked out her door and over to Drew's. It was cold out and the cold hit her like a ton of bricks as she walked down the street. She hoped the cold would help her sober up a bit. She breathed in the fresh air and repeated what she had said to herself earlier, in her head. She still couldn't believe he wanted to see her.
Drew was at home resting when he sent the message to Bianca. He had thought about her since they had broken up. The problem was he couldn't stop thinking about her. He had to face that he actually did miss her and was still in love with her. His mom wasn't home so he thought it would be the perfect chance to invite Bianca over. He was excited and nervous. He didn't look so good, all beaten up but he tried to look presentable. He had on sweatpants and a v-neck. He did his hair like always and waited for Bianca.
Bianca was so nervous she hadn't even realized she had been standing outside Drew's house for the last 5 minutes. She took a deep breath, she had to go in soon or he'd think she wasn't coming. She took one more look at the house before she walked around the house to the sliding door in the back. She thought about walking right in, but she wasn't his girlfriend anymore, it felt weird just barging in. She knocked on the glass and waited for Drew. She watched as he walked to the door with his head down, he seemed nervous. As he opened the door, they made eye contact and Bianca gave him a hesitant smile but Drew just moved out of the way so she could enter the house. She walked in, shivering. "It's freezing outside." She was feeling awkward, not knowing what to say. Drew closed the door to keep the cold out. Bianca stood still, with her arms crossed, looking at the ground and fidgeting a little. "Ya, its pretty cold" Drew's voice was like music to Bianca's ears, she hadn't heard it in so long. She took a chance and looked up at him, he was across the room staring at her. His face was bruised and it made Bianca want to burst into tears. She questioned why she had come, it killed her to see him in general, but to see him all bruised because of her made her wish she had stayed home and kept drinking her sorrows away. She tried to loosen up by taking over her leather jacket to show her purple flowing shirt that was made of a soft fabric that calmed Bianca when she played with the soft hem. She looked away from him and down at her fingers. They had stood in silence with several feet of space between them for a couple minutes when Bianca finally spoke, "Are…. are you in a lot of pain?" She didn't know what else to say, she didn't even know why he had invited her there.
Drew sighed and looked down at Bianca's question. He could see she was on the verge of tears. He wanted to just hold her and tell her everything was okay. She had always said she had felt the safest in his arms. Finally after a pause he looked up. "Yeah….But it could be a lot worse. I could be….dead." He Frowned.
Bianca cringed at the word dead. She bit her lip and took a deep breath. "Well, you're not. And I really thought what I did for Vince would make him and his friends leave you alone. I swear. But I'll keep trying, I'll talk to Vince again. Maybe he has something else I can do…. All I want is for you to be safe, I hope you know that." Bianca had let one tear slide down her face and she wiped it away quickly and put on her tough face, forcing the tears to stop. She had been wanting to explain herself but thought it'd be no use. She didn't think it do anything now either but he was right in front of her and she thought she'd fill the silence somehow. She was choking back tears and could barely talk without sounding shaky. "I never meant for any of this to happen. I really wanted…. us to last."
Drew took a step closer to her. "No. I don't want you doing anything more for Vince. I'm sorry you had to….go through with that. If you would have told me I would have stopped you." He sighed "And I thought we were gonna last too….guess…guess I was wrong." He looked down trying not to make eye contact with her because it hurt too much.
Bianca held her head high, "I did what I thought I had to do and I'll do what I have to do to keep you safe. I brought you into this and I have to protect you." Bianca swallowed against the tears. "No matter what. Whether we're together or apart, I will protect you. Until Vince moves on." Bianca gave him a small smile as she looked at him looking at the floor. Bianca took a small step towards him, causing him to look up and twitch a little so she didn't move any closer than that. She looked around the room for a couple seconds before she finally spit out the question she'd been wondering all night, "Why'd you invite me over here?" She looked right at him as she asked this.
Drew sat down on the couch. He didn't wanna say why. He did know why. It's because he missed her. But if he said that it would make him seem weak, needy. All the things Drew hated to feel. He sighed, he realized he had to tell the truth. He looked up from the floor to Bianca and said "Because….I missed you."
Bianca just nodded her head and let it sink in. He missed her and she missed him, but they couldn't be together. It wasn't right. "Well…. I missed you too. But this is what you wanted." She thought about sitting next to him on the couch. Against her better judgement, she walked over and sat next to him on the couch. They were close enough to touch but not touching. She just wanted to wrap her arms around him and sink into him and cry. She's never felt so vulnerable before. She swallowed and said, "Well…. We can still be there for each other without being…. together…" She didn't know what she was saying and couldn't believe the words she had just spoken but if she couldn't be with him maybe she could still stay in contact with him at least.
Drew hated seeing Bianca like this. After all she had been through….after all that they had been through together. He couldn't stand it one more second. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around Bianca hugging her. He couldn't help himself. He finally broke.
Bianca stared at him, watched as his arms began to envelope her in warmth and safety. She slowly wrapped her arms around his waist. He twitched and cringed as she laid her head on his shoulder, her head snug under his chin. "Oh I'm sorry did I hurt you?" She asked, concerned. He shook his head, "I'm fine." She gently rubbed his side as she sank into him. "I know this doesn't mean we're back together, but it's nice." She smiled and closed her eyes, listening to him breathe.
He couldn't help but smile. "Yeah it is. I really needed this. Everyone just….doesn't get it." He continued hugging her and began to stroke her hair.
Bianca breathed him in, his scent was so…. Drew and she never wanted to forget it. She hadn't even noticed she had started crying. She wanted to hold him tighter but knew she would just cause him physical pain. She noticed his shirt had slid up slightly and saw part of a huge bruise on his stomache. She slowly moved her hand to gently run her finger over it. Through tears she whispered shakily, "I'm so sorry, Drew." as she stared at the bruise.
Drew cringed for a moment then relaxed when she touched his bruise. Then he noticed she was crying, it broke his heart inside. "No…No it's not your fault. The only person to blame for all this is Vince and Anson." Drew tried to wipe away Bianca's tears with his thumb.
Bianca stroked his bruise with her thumb. "I know but I got you into all this. I hate seeing you hurt, I really do. I wish…." Bianca didn't know if she should let Drew in on her deepest secret, on a thought that had haunted her for weeks. She took a shaky breath as Drew caught her tears and wiped them away. In the most quiet voice she had she said, "I wish I had let Anson rape me so you had never gotten involved, then you would be safe and healthy." She kept crying, thinking how pathetic she looked and sounded.
Drew said softly. "No don't say that. I wouldn't want you to go through that." He hugged her tighter the more she cried rubbing circles on her back trying to calm her down.
Bianca was nearly sobbing in his arms now, she couldn't control all the emotions she had kept inside for so long. "But you've gone through so much and still are and don't deserve this. If I had just let it happen, everything would be fine." She held his waist tighter without thinking and he cringed and groaned. She loosened her grip and pulled away slightly. "Oh I'm so sorry. See? You wouldn't cringe and be in pain if I had just let him…." She looked into his eyes. She probably looked like a crazy person.
Drew pulled her closer after she said that. "Shhh….Shhh….It's okay. It was just a unfortunate thing. That happened to us. It's not our fault." He said in a calming voice.
Bianca tried to focus on Drew's voice but her thoughts were so loud. She snuggled up against Drew, listening to his steady heartbeat and breathing. She calmed down, but silent tears still streamed down her face. She enjoyed the silence for a minute before she spoke again. "You deserve someone better than me. I truly hope you find her someday and never go through anything like this again. Maybe we'll be friends by then." Bianca smiled through her tears.
"You know what I believe? People who are meant to be together always end up with each other in the end." Drew smiled to himself and kissed the top of Bianca's head.
Bianca gave a small smile, "Very deep, Torres." She closed her eyes at the feel of his lips on her head. She looked outside, "It's kind of late and I really don't want to walk home in the dark. Can I stay here for the night? I can sleep on your floor and be gone before you or any of your family wakes up." She cuddled with him, hoping he still felt kind enough to let her stay.
"Yeah of course….but you don't have to sleep on the floor. You could sleep in my bed with me….Theres enough room…I won't touch you I promise." Drew's face turned a bit red.
Bianca smiled widely now. "Oh Torres, calm down." She laughed, watching him turn red. "You can if you want." They looked into each other's eyes before Bianca got up. Drew took her hand and led her upstairs to his room. Bianca washed her face before getting in bed with Drew. She sat up and looked at him. "I miss falling asleep in your arms. Just… once more tonight? Unless that would hurt or make you uncomfortable."
Drew didn't even hesitate. "Sure." He turned the lights off and got under the covers with Bianca. Then he gently and slowly moved closer to her body and wrapped his arms around her. This felt so right.
Bianca smiled as Drew wasted no time. She cuddled up next to him, resting her head on his chest. She gently slid her hand under his shirt and rubbed his chest and stomach in a soothing motion, trying not to hurt him. She knew this was where she belonged, at least for the night. She didn't even want to think of waking up and having to leave him. Without thinking, she gave him a goodnight kiss on the lips.
Drew was a bit shocked by the kiss at first but kissed back for a few seconds then pulled himself away. "Goodnight." He whispered. Drew barley moved because about everything hurt. He just kept her close, comfortable, and safe in his arms. This started to bring back memories for drew about his and Bianca's good and bad times. He never had thought that they would end up like this.
Bianca let one tear escape, she knew that'd be their last kiss. She kept rubbing his chest, hoping to comfort his pain as they both drifted off to sleep. Bianca was thinking how this may never happen again. She memorized everything she was feeling at that moment, cause it would soon be gone. She was just glad she got one more night to fall asleep in his arms before reality set in again.
So what did you guys think? This is my First I continue this or leave it a one shot? Thanks for reading :D