Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Saiyuki characters. They respectfully belong to Kazuya Minekura

Kiroku Asato, Akitsume Mikashi, Yuuki Akegawa and Tetsuno Kashiyo are my own characters! Ü Ü Ü

Chapter One

"It has been and a half since that tragic day. Dreams and nightmares haunt me every time I go to sleep. Your face, I know I wouldn't be able to touch nor feel again. If I could just go back and prevent that, I could've saved you.

If I wasn't so careless, you're still right here beside me.

If wasn't so cocky, you couldn't have died.

If I weren't there, this would have never happened.

I never had the chance to apologize. 'I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, Sanzo'. "

-Kiroku Asato

"Is she still sleeping?" Inochi asked Aki, who just came downstairs.

"I think so." Aki replied," She's always awake most of the night."

Inochi nodded slowly, " I see. She's still having a hard time."

"It's just not the same without Sanzo." Goku said, eating pretzels.

"Monkey boy's right." Goyjo agreed, "If we all feel sad for the monk, then the pain would be much much more for Kiro."

"Sou desu ne. It is hard when one passes away. But, Kiro's still blaming herself for something she didn't do." Hakkai explained. Just then, Tetsu and Yuuki entered the room.

"Can't you lower down your voices?" Tetsu scolded, " What if Kiro hears you? She'll lock herself in her room again and forget to eat! ! K'sou, she has never gone outside since then!"

"Even if I don't really eat that much, Kiro should start eating her food. Hell, she looks so damn pathetic!" Yuuki remarked, face frowning at the thought.

Inochi clapped her hands, "Discussion is over. Breakfast is almost ready. Would anyone care to take Kiro's food upstairs?"

Hakkai raised his hand, "It's my turn now."

Inochi and the rest went to the Dining room. The others then began eating while Hakkai and Inochi went to the kitchen.

"Really. She shouldn't mope around. She's being too depressed." Inochi muttered, handing over the tray to Hakkai.

"If you do remember, she never did really cry. And her eyes should be puffy if she does cry during the night." Hakkai answered.

"She should go outdoors." Inochi suggested, "I'll call Ken Kazutawa and see if he can take Kiro somewhere."

Hakkai just smiled, " Please do that. I'm going to take Kiro's food upstairs now. Ganbatte Kudasai!"

With that, he left Inochi who started looking for Ken's number in their directory.

Author's note: Please make a review so I know if the story I did was okay and if I should continue it ! ! ! Ü thanks a lot, minna ! ! !