A/N: Well. I don't know what else to say but Harutakas ruined me so.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Kagerou Project.
It's cold.
So…
She wears warm socks, and she realizes how ridiculous she looks with them, so she wonders if he'll laugh, and so she begins to take them off.
When he sees her fumbling with these long, warm socks, he gives her a smile and chuckles at her.
She's flustered, and the only thing she wants to do is hit him.
"They look nice on you."
She stays quiet.
Sometimes, looking stupid is okay, she guesses.
But she wears these warm socks now days, because now that he's on a hospital bed, she's not sure if she's cold because of the weather outside or because her light source is dying.
And he's dying, and she knows he's dying, so why does he keep fighting and fighting? She doesn't want to see him suffer anymore – not for her sake or anyone else's.
She wants him to die.
So, she takes off her socks, puts on her headphones, and ignores his body that lies on the hospital bed.
Because, in the end, if he can ignore her cursing his name every night and if he can not respond every time she finds herself clutching his hand, whispering, "Come back. Come back, please," then she can shut him out.
She can be dead inside, without being in a hospital, right?
But every day, as it gets colder and colder, and the as the sky cries and cold water falls on her, she misses him.
She sits in that empty, empty classroom, and its dark.
It's dark and cold, and she misses those socks.
She misses the socks that kept her warm, that made her feel loved, that made her feel something other than coldness and confusion.
And as she sits in that desk, she laughs at herself, tears brimming her eye lids, Coldness warming up to her, Sadness caressing her, Darkness welcoming her.
She was too late, however, and as she runs and runs, she knows it's too late to escape the deep pit of depression and loneliness.
And she wants to reach out to her only light source, and she wants to wear those socks because he liked those socks.
He liked those socks, and it made her happy.
He made her happy.
He was happiness.
And as she's running, running faster than ever, she falls.
Falls and keeps falling, and hits the ground, and its blurry, and she didn't reach her socks, and she didn't tell him.
"I…love you, Haruka."