Disclaimer: When pigs fly, I'll own Sonny with a Chance. And… we had Swine Flu! Yeah, but no, I still don't own Sonny with a Chance. I don't even own that lame joke, sadly.

I've thought of a bunch of ideas for oneshots, so I'm finally putting this one in! Hope you like it!

Letting Her Go

We would have been the perfect couple. Too bad she never saw that. I would have woken up every day and made sure she was fine. I loved her. In fact, I still loved her.

We met when we were both still 15. It was four years ago. Four years ago to this very day. Since then, we had grown into great friends. It all started when we learned that we both played guitar. Our friendship had grown from there. She had been sweet, and I had been egotistical. So it's not a surprise she chose him.

She says I'm her best friend, but then why is she leaving on our four year friendiversary? I had these great dinner reservations; it would have been perfect. But then he called her. Devon called her. Yep, my own castmate stabbed me in the back. But can you blame him? I mean, she is Sonny. How can you not fall for her?

She had fallen for him, too. So when he called her and told her that he needed help running lines, she left. And he picked her up in his truck, in the pouring rain, while I just sat in my car like an idiot.

A year ago, I had told her how I felt about her. It was when she had first started to date him. She told me she only saw me as a friend. She knew how I felt, said she loved him. Said she loved me, too, but not the same way she loved him.

She knew how much she was hurting me, and occasionally I would see the hurt in her eyes, because we both knew how much she hated to hurt me. So I suffered in silence. It wasn't worth losing her friendship.

Even though he had told me he was just using her in the beginning, that he didn't really love her, I saw now that he had fallen. He had fallen for her. And though he didn't love her nearly as much as I did, it was something we never shared with her. Because she was too innocent to be a part of this. And neither one of us wanted to be the one to make her choose.

So now, as she apologizes profusely for leaving and tries to kiss me on the cheek, I pull away. I tell her it's fine, but that I can't. She understands, understands how much it hurts me, and understands how sometimes I get like this, just so she can't break my heart more. Because she doesn't like breaking my heart. She didn't choose for that to happen. And she leaves. Because Devon had said it was urgent.

The next day she runs up to me at lunch and shows me her ring. She says he proposed to her last night. She says she's never been happier. And she asks me to be her best man. And, of course, I have to tell her I can't.

But this time it's different. This time, when I tell her I can't, I mean that I can't be friends with her anymore. And, though I know that this time I'm the one hurting her, I can't bring myself to regret the decision. Because for once, I felt happier.

So I go to my dressing room and pick up the ring I had for her, before this all started. And I sigh, and throw it out the window. Because even if I fall in love again, that ring was meant for her. And I'm not willing to give it to anyone else.

Now, without her in my life, I feel the heartbreak. But I also feel the relief. Because this is a new beginning. And this time, she can't hurt me.

That was really sad. I think we know who was talking the whole time. I'm not sure if I like this, because of how sad it is, but everyone needs to be sad every once in a while. And I guess, sometimes this is reality, and things don't work out. So here is the outcome. And Chad still loves Sonny, he just can't take the pain anymore. Tell me what you think! SMILES!

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