Preface:
What if in new moon Edward never came back? What do the legends say about a double imprint? What will happen when something they thought impossible occurs?
I stared out the window the rain that seemed to fall constantly matched my mood. The continuous pain I felt was my fault. I wasn't good enough; I will never be good enough. I have found that if you open your heart to people, it causes the pain. And because I did that, I gave him a chance. He had my heart all along, but I was the one that gave him the power to break me. And he did, he broke me beyond repair. And I thought there was no happiness
Jake has been helping to repair the hole in my chest but I haven't seen him lately. Billy says he has mono and he won't let me come over. I paced back and forth in my room. I had to see him. I grabbed my jacket and headed to Jakes.
Pulling up to the familiar red house I could see a familiar figure trudging through the cold rain. It was Jake. I jumped out of truck slamming the door. I walked up to Jake who had stopped, hearing the roar of my old Chevy. He turned to face me just as I reached him.
"Bella." he whispered. "I thought you were sick Jake, I thought you couldn't come outside. You didn't even pick up the phone when I called." "Bella Please go." "What? What's wrong with you why haven't you called?" I was soaked by now trying not to shiver as rain poured down around us. He looked away not meeting my eyes. "Jacob what happed? Was it Sam, is that it?" he finally turned his head to look at me. In his eyes I saw anger. "No that's not it, Sam is trying to help me don't you dare blame him. It's not Sam or the pack but if you want someone to blame. Blame those filthy blood suckers. They did this." "I don't understand, what are you talking about?" he took a deep breath obviously trying to stay calm "you exactly what I'm talking about. Go ahead Bella keep their secret and lie to everyone but you're not lying to me, not anymore Bella." and with that he turned and left running towards the woods.
"Jake." I whispered before turning and walking to my truck no longer caring about the rain. But feeling the familiar ache where my heart was.
When I got home Charlie was on the couch watching a game. I quickly walked up the stars before Charlie could ask and so I could get out of these wet clothes. I took a shower and although the water was warm it had no affect my skin I still felt cold so I gave up. I went to bed that night after emailing my mom telling her I was fine. But I can't lie to myself; the hole in my chest has gotten bigger.
When I woke up I felt strange, I felt lost. I got dress and decided to visit La push beach. I needed time to walk around and think. And most of all I needed to talk with Sam.