I'll Be Your Strength

by Hannah-Dixon

TW Fanfic again , Jay has his heart broken as his girlfriend cheat's on him, his best friend steps in, how does Jay really feel about her? And how do the rest of the band cope with this?

1. Chapter 1

Part 1: Jays POV

I can't believe I had to see
The girl of my dreams cheating on me
The pain you caused has left me dead inside
I'm gonna make sure you regret that night

'I CAN'T BELIVE YOU'D TREAT ME LIKE THIS SASHA!' I cried as the blonde girl in front of me seemed to shrink against my anger. I knew this day had been coming for a long while, she'd been cheating on me, and with some random guy she'd met at a club a few months back. I thought something had been different, we'd been together for 2 years but in the last 6 months she'd been so secretive with me, hiding away from me, never there for me, not like Hannah was.

Hannah was my best friend, she was gorgeous, she was always just there, even if you didn't realise you needed her at that particular moment, she was just there, lurking in the shadows around you and when you needed her, she was there. She had cropped, Chestnut coloured hair, which she bored of easily, a week ago it had been dark blue, but who knows now. She had a very different way of dressing, slightly punky to be a dancer for a boy band, but that's why she was my best friend, and had been since we moved in next door to her family 10 years ago, when she was 8 and I was 12.

Me? I'm 22; I'm in a band called The Wanted with 4 other amazing guys. My name; James McGuiness, but I'm referred to as Jay, which was again down to Hannah. I'd been with my girlfriend Sasha for 2 years, she had beautiful, long blonde hair and a stunning figure. Me? I was a geeky, curly haired, lanky guy who loved nothing more than curling up with my best friend on the sofa and watching Avatar, ordering pizza (vegetarian of course); or standing on stage with my band, singing my heart out. Anyway, back to the argument with Sasha.

'Jay, look, I'm sorry...' she started, taking a step forwards to hug me but I flinched back, away from her.

'Don't feed me any more of your bull shit stories,' I whispered, 'I don't want excuses, I just want you out.' I finished, nodding to the suitcase at her feet.

She seemed to understand, bending at the knees and picking up her stuff, opening the apartment door and going downstairs to the car I knew would be waiting. She got halfway downstairs before turning back and whispering,

'Jay, I've always loved you, and I always will, there's just something about Tyler that just made me realise that I didn't love you in the right way, and I'm not going to lead you on anymore.' Then she turned and walked away. I heard the main building door close and I let out a shaky breath. My anger turned to sadness and a deep wave of depression washed over me.

I stumbled back in to my apartment and just managed to get the door shut before I sank to the floor, huge, wrenching sobs escaped me and I pulled my blackberry out my pocket. I opened the contacts and scrolled down till I found Hannah's number. I pressed 'Call' and waited while it dialled.

She answered on the 2nd ring; I knew it wouldn't take her long; her phone is permanently attached to her hand.

'Hey babes,' she said, I could almost see her smile from here.

'Hannah...' I sobbed down the phone and her tone changed.

'Jay, babe what's happened' he voice seemed to comfort me, 'It's Sasha isn't it, she was cheating on you...' she whispered and I could hear her footsteps on a tiled floor on the end of the phone.

'Mmm...' I sobbed.

'Right, I'm at the dance studio and I've got the bike, so I'll pick up a couple pizzas and be right over, we'll have a chat like we used to babes.' She said and I heard her footsteps speed up followed by the sound of her Harley Davidson roaring to life as she called, 'HALF AN HOUR TOPS, LOVE YOU!' down the phone before hanging up.

Part 2: Hannah's POV

And it's dark in a cold December,

but I've got ya to keep me warm,
and if you're broke I'll mend ya,

and keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on.

I hated seeing Jay upset, I roared down the road on my Harley and pulled up outside the pizza place. I jumped off the bike and dashed inside, I'd already phoned up making my orders: Two large Vegetarian pizzas. I raced in a chucked some £10 notes across the counter grabbing the pizzas.

'MISS YOU FORGOT YOUR CHANGE!' The man called as I raced back to the door.

'KEEP IT!' I called back, pushing the pizza boxes under the seat before jumping back on the bike and speeding towards Jay, Max and Siva's flat. I hoped to God I'd left some clothes there from 3 weeks ago, or at least Nareesha or Michelle had left something decent I could wear there. But neither of them wore joggers, which I really wanted right now.

What I loved about Jay was that I could be a complete and utter slob around him and he'd still look at me the same way. I loved him, but not in the best friend/brotherly way that he thought I did, I loved him in a way that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I loved him in a way that I never wanted to lose him; I never wanted anyone to hurt him. I just couldn't, I could be myself, his protector, his personal soldier, and he wouldn't ever realise it.

I tried to cover it up with a stream of boyfriends, my most recent relationship had last almost as long as Jay's, I got with himabout a month before Jay and Sasha got together, and it had lasted a year and a bit, before I realised that it was Jay I really wanted, and Matt just, wasn't good enough, so I stopped leading him on.

I shook my head slightly as I pulled in outside Jay's apartment. I turned off the engine and grabbed the pizzas before running over to the door and tapping in to the code and running up the stairs, taking them 2 at a time. I reached Jay's door and tapped on his door gently,

'Jay, babe open up, it's me.' I called, standing back for a moment when I heard his footsteps the other side of the door.

He opened the door slowly and I looked up at his 6ft 2inch frame, and his beautiful blue eyes, surrounded by red from crying. I felt tears prick at the corner of my eyes and I pushed him gently back in to the flat, handing him the pizza boxes as I went. I nudged him gently out my way, wiping my eyes on my sleeve as I padded in to the living room. I flicked on the TV; I pulled Avatar off the DVD shelf and slot it in the DVD player at side of the TV.

I padded back towards Jay, grabbing his elbow and guiding him towards the sofa, where I stopped him and flipped out the bottom and pulled out the sofa bed. As I walked back past Jay I stopped in front of him, reaching up one hand and resting it on his cheek, where he leant in to my hand slightly, like a cat. I leaned up and planted a soft, quick kiss on his cheek before letting go and going to find clothes.

I returned moments later, dressed in a pair of Nathan's (one of the band members) tracksuit bottoms and a stretchy black vest top I'd got from Primark months ago. I'd also rooted through Michelle's drawers and borrowed a thick pair of purple, fluffy socks. Jay was curled up in the furthest corner of the sofa bed, tears streaking down his cheeks, flattening some of the curls on his cheeks. I felt my heart rip out and get crushed on the floor. He looked so broken.

I padded silently across the floor in Chelle's socks and pulled a blanket out the cupboard. I crept over to Jay, hitting play on the DVD player as I went past, the title screen of Avatar vanished and for a moment the room was dark. I went and sat next to Jay, throwing the blanket over us both and pulling the pizza towards us, Jay smiled painfully at me before picking apart a slice of pizza.

He leaned sideways and rested his head on my shoulder and I gently pushed a bit of pizza towards his mouth.

'I love you Hannah, you know that right?' He mumbled, taking a bite of the pizza. I ran my hand through his curls and whispered back,

'I love you too Jay, don't you ever forget that.' He nodded and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me close to his chest and pulling me close to him. I snuggled down slightly and he rested his cheek on the top of my head.

I sat there and hugged Jay, cuddling in to his chest so he wouldn't see how upset I was seeing him so upset and broken like this. That bitch Sasha, she'd ruined my best friend, the man I loved. I felt tears prick at the corner of my eyes again and buried my face deeply in to his chest where I mumbled,

'Jay?' I felt him hum in return.

'You know I'm always here for you right?' I whispered, 'I'm always here, even when I'm not, I'm here, I need you Jay, you're my solid rock when I'm depressed, my smile when I'm down...' I sniffed suddenly and a sob escaped me, 'Jay I need you back...' I whispered.

'Hannah, you know even just having you here makes me feel better,' he whispered back, 'You know, if you ever need me I'll be there. If anyone breaks you, I'll mend you...' he whispered before pulling my head away from his chest and looking me in the eyes. I looked up at him, and even in the dark I could see sudden decision cross across his face and he started to bend his face down towards mine. He hesitated, his lips about 2 inches from mine, where he murmured,

'I've waited such a long time to do this, 3 years to be exact...' And then he quickly closed the distance, pressing his soft lips over mine in a gentle and brief kiss before he pulled back to see my reaction.

Part 3:

Whenyourlipstouchmine,
It'sthekissoflife,
Iknow,Iknowthatit'salittlebitfrightening,
Wemightaswellbeplayingwithlightning,

My heart seemed to just jump in my mouth when Jay's lips touched mine, I felt it banging hard in my throat, and then it seemed to stop. I'd waited for this moment for 6 years, his soft lips moved in perfect sync with mine, in a way that covered my lips completely, as though to say, 'I'm here, protecting you, always.'

Too soon he pulled away and looked at me, a faint blush creeping up hi s pale, but beautiful face.

'I'm sorry Hannah, I just couldn't resist, you just look so beautiful...' I cut him off, placing my hand tightly over his mouth.

'Don't apologise Jay...' I whispered, smiling a half, shy smile at him.

'Hannah, I honestly don't know what came over me and I'm so incredibly sorry...' I rolled my eyes at him, typical that the moment I least wanted it; the gentleman in him came out. At the moment all I wanted him to do was to grab me by the waist, shoving me back in to the wall, attacking every inch of me with his beautifully soft lips...

I shook my head and rolled my eyes at him again, he was still apologising. I shoved my hand over his mouth again and he looked at me questioningly, although continuing to speak.

'Jay. Stop apologising you daft sod...' I giggled and he stopped talking. I took my hand away from his mouth and he just looked at me before murmuring,

'Well what do you want me to do?' I blushed slightly as he raised his right hand and brushed some stray hair out my face,

'Iwantyoutokissmeagain...' I said so fast and so quickly that he let out a small giggle.

'You want me to do what again?' He whispered, leaning towards me slowly, his hand sliding round and gripping in to the back of my hair gently, pulling me gently back towards him. I whimpered slightly as I felt his breath on my lips,

'You want me do this?' He whispered, just before pressing his lips to mine again.

This time I was ready for it, something inside me seemed to come alive when he kissed me this time. It was like his kiss was giving me life...I knelt upright, wrapping one arm around his neck and winding his curs around my hand, pulling his lips harder against mine, only increasing the ferocity in which his lips were attacking mine. I never knew he could be so animalistic, well I suppose that under ever guy, no matter how sweet and kind, they all want the same thing. I felt his hand slide down my back, gripping my right hip, his left hand glided round my body to match his right hand. He pulled on my hips, dragging my whole body closer to him. I slowly slid my right leg out from under me, sliding it up and over his lap so that my foot hooked behind his back, then I used my leg strength to pull myself in to his lap where the kiss got deeper.

Eventually, we both had to breathe. We broke apart and I tried to pull away, but Jay held me in his lap, resting his fore-head against mine, looking deeply in to my witchy green eyes with his electric blue eyes.

'Jesus McGuiness...' I gasped, laughing slightly, 'never knew you had it in ya...' He giggled, smiling his adorable half smile, which I hardly ever saw anymore, making my heart melt.

'Well, I have been waiting for 3 years to do that. But you were with Matt, which made it immoral.' He stated matter of factly, making me smile. I tried to stifle a yawn but it slipped out, proving to myself and Jay just how tired I actually was. I had had a busy week and now it was late Friday night, I had plans with Nathan Sykes and Tom Parker the night after, two of Jay's band mates, had to be on top form or they'd out drink me again.

Jay made to lift me up and carry me somewhere, presumably his bed where he'd leave me to sleep, like a gentleman, but I wriggled off his lap and pushed his chest until he was lying down. I arranged myself so that my head was resting on his chest and his right arm was around my waist,

'Don't think so...' I murmured, getting comfortable and I felt Jay laugh lightly.

'Sleeping here are we babe?' He whispered, and I nodded, 'Let's just hope the boys say nothing when they get home then...' He murmured as I drifted off to sleep.

Part 4:

Cause I can't forget you,

Lose or reject you now,

That I've found our love is real,

I'll try to accept you, love and protect you,

That is the way that I feel.

I slept right through the night, I didn't even wake when my alarm raged the next morning, blaring 'I'm Sexy And I know It' off my hone at 7am. I only woke when someone jumped on the bed. I shot upright and shrieked as a pair of startlingly blue eyes bore in to mine, that were definitely not Jay's.

'Morning darlin'' a voice chuckled and I squealed out loud, flinging my arms around the lads neck with such force that he fell backwards, pulling me on top of him.

I hugged him hard, which he returned, before propping myself upright and looking down in to the face of Nathan Sykes. Nathan was the same age as me, 18, but he was slightly older, by quite a few months. He had a similar hairstyle to me, with the fringe and all, except his was a beautiful golden-brown colour. He was the youngest member of the band, me not being included, as I didn't exactly sing, I was like a groupie as Tom put it.

I leaned down and planted a kiss on Nathan's nose before propping myself up with my arms rested on his chest and my chin propped on my arms. Nathan laughed and I scrunched my face up at him, sticking my tongue out at him.

'So Hans, how've you been?' He asked, but before I could answer he continued, 'And how come when myself and the boys arrived home last night, you were asleep in Jay's arms and he was kissing your head, whispering how much he loves you, how much you mean to him, and how he never wants to lose you, he'll protect you with his life. Answer me that darlin'.' He interrogated, winking at me. I turned my head and looked behind me to see Jay, just beginning to stir under the covers.

I turned back to Nathan and saw the wide, crooked smile spread across his face, he winked again as Tom, Max and Siva joined us in the living room,

'It's about bloody time though with the pair of you,' he joked and I kissed his nose again. Tom groaned and mumbled,

'Get a room the pair of you.' Nathan tipped his head backwards and looked at Tom upside-down.

'You needa get ya eyes tested Parker, I'm Nathan not Bird!' He complained indignantly. Tom shook his head and let his eyes focus, a guilty expression on his face.

'Ahh sorreh mate, just assumed it would be Jay Hannah were lying on, not you.' He laughed, smirking at something behind my head. I didn't have tie to turn and look before Jay pounced on me, tickling my ribs until I was shrieking and breathless. I tried to roll away from him, but Nathan still had his arms wrapped tightly round my back, and we were rather close to the edge of the bed. As I rolled away, Nathan came with me, and trapped Jay's hand between Nathan and myself, all three of us plunging down, as if in slow motion, towards the floor.

I heard Jay gasp and Tom yelled,

'NO!' before I realised that I was underneath the both of them, and their combined weight was guna hurt. I hit the floor, knocking the wind out of me, Nathan hit me and Jay came shortly afterwards, unable to save himself he dropped straight on top of me and Nathan, all his struggling bought the duvet down on top of all of us. I heard 3 sets of frantic feet and the duvet was ripped away, I couldn't see, my eyes must have been shut from something, I felt the weight on top of me decrease, then Tom's face was in front of mine, waving in front of my eyes.

'Hannah!' I heard Jay yell from the other side of the room,

'I'm fine,' I whispered as Tom grabbed my waist, hauling me upright and off my feet in to his arms. It wasn't until my feet were on the floor and I had my whole body weigh down that the pain hit. I cried out, screaming like I was being murdered, and fell to the floor, tears streaking down my cheeks. I heard startled gasps and frantic voices, then Jay's voice, right next to me,

'Hannah, what's wrong?' He said, sounding panicked, 'Is it your stomach, your leg, ankle, ribs, what?'

'My hip,' I managed to gasp out before another wave of pain hit me and I cried out again.

'Hannah, I won't let anything hurt you,' Jay said suddenly as I heard a phone conversation in the background.

'No, not hospital, Jay, PLEASE!' I screamed as pain washed over me again.