Would you kill to save a life?

A/N: So I know I said I wouldn't write a Twilight story ever again. I lied. But Really I just hate Whiny Bella and That nasty douche Edward (sorry to those that like him but I just don't like him or Rob. Stalker is not my cup of man) I do on the other hand LOVE me some Texan vamp. Jasper can fit with Alice or Bella though for me (and I do love Alice, hell most of my Twilight fan friends tell me I remind them of her) any story I write for Jasper and Bella will have Alice as a bitch.

Warning: This story will have BDSM themes. It will have Bondage, spanking, flogging. If you find ANY of this offensive then turn back now! This is a Dom!Jasper/Major story. Bella will not be weak but she will be SUBMISSIVE TO THE MAJOR! You have been warned.

Disclaimer: I own nothing. SM owns most all I just took Jasper out of his box and toyed with him a bit.

Pulling me Under

Chapter 1

Bella's POV

"I don't want you"

I don't want you

Don't want you

Don't want you

I stood there for what seemed like hours. The rain had already soaked me even through my heavy jacket, though it had only stayed at a drizzle. Edward's words ran through my mind on a loop. How could he do this? How could he push me aside so easily , as though I was a broken toy. A pet that was no longer of use to him.

Because he never loved you.

'Shut up' I told the voice that whispered through my brain. It wasn't real. He did love me. He had loved me. Hadn't he?

I could feel the chill now and I shivered. It was enough to break me from my thoughts and I looked around. Edward was gone. He had left with just a kiss to my head , his lips chilling and there was no tenderness to that kiss. I remembered that now. His touch had been icy, not because of his marble skin but because there had been no emotion to it.

He really didn't love me.

"Bella? BELLA? ISABELLA!"

I turned to look behind me and I could see Charlie walking towards me. I could see the fear in his eyes and then a flash of worry. "Bella I've been calling for you for an hour. What are you doing standing out here? Jesus you're soaked"

'He's gone…" My voice sounded wrong in my ears. Broken and detached. My heart stopped as it sank in. Edward was gone. He was gone and he had taken my family, HIS family with him.

"What? Who's gone? Bella?" Charlie's face showed his confusion and I looked back to the spot the HE had been standing in.

"Edward…He's gone…he left me"

"He…Left…." I could hear the confusion in my dad's voice then anger as he spoke again "He broke up with you and left you out here? Alone!"

I felt a weight on my arm and I looked down as if in a daze. My body felt like it was in a fog as I tried to make out that it was Charlie's hand on my arm. My eyes flicked up to look him in the face and my vision blurred slightly, making it hard for me to tell what look he wore. "Bella come on , let's get you inside and then I'm calling Doctor Cullen."

He pulled me with me but I stopped in my tracks at the name of my second father. Carlisle. The head of the vampire family I had falling in love with. "They're all gone…They all left. He said it was better that way."

Charlie let out what sounded like a growl and I snapped my head up to look at him in shock. "Shit," He muttered before pulling on my arm once more "Bella let's go inside and you can warm up and get out of those wet clothes. We can talk about this when we aren't in the rain."

I let him pull me inside. I didn't care about the chill. I only knew that I was alone.

A few hours later I was curled up on my left side in my bed staring at the wall. I could hear voices down stairs but could only make out a few words.

"Catatonic….Won't talk….Billy….Do I do now?"

My dad must be talking to Billy Black. My brain was trying to get me to focus, to understand what was going on around me but I couldn't shake the fog.

Stop this! You're better than this! Why mourn for him when he left you! He gave you up! It's his loss not yours!

I pushed the voice aside and shut my eyes, squeezing them as if that would drown everything out. I just wanted to let myself drift away and forget. Forget that Edward was gone. That they were all gone and that I had been left behind. That I was unwanted by them.

I let myself drift into the blackness.

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Knock knock

"Bells? Bella you need to get up and eat."

I laid there not blink as my eyes stayed glued to the rocking chair in the corner. Edward had sat there at night. I thought if I stared hard enough I could see him. I could almost hear his voice and see his crooked smile.

"Bella come on. You need to eat." My Charlie…that was his voice I was hearing. I tried to will my body to work but still the fog wouldn't lift. I could tell my dad was started to get angry with me but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't find the will to keep going.

"Damnit Bella. You need to pull out of this. I know you loved the boy but you can't just lie around in bed all day and let yourself waste away!" I heard the door shut and I let out a sigh, closing my eyes and letting the darkness pull me under again.

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A/N: So this my first time writing Jasper/Bella. I've always loved these to , even when I first read the books. Do not worry , Bella will not stay in the depressed mode to long. Like I said before, I can't stand whiny Bella. But right now she is at the stage where she just lost her first love. I already have chapter two done and will post it next week. So…

-Shoves Jasper in front of her- He will be giving out back rubs and he has cookies waiting (made by Esme of course) for those that review