Forbidden Love?
Chapter 1
It was a day like everyday.
We had band practice now but I can't concentrate on the songs.
I only was looking at him and when I sing it feels like I sing only for him but ... he don't realice that.
How could he?
I doesn't ever told him how I feel. I can't even talk to him because every time he is near me I'm so nervous and my stomach hurts like there where thousands of butterflys in it but ...
it's a good feeling.
Today it was my turn that all band members would come to my apartment.
I want to be alone but ... I can't tell them.
I can't tell them that I don't want to be with HIM anymore 'cause in a way it makes me unhappy to be in love with him 'cause I know that he would never feel the same.
HE'S A GUY!
How can I love him or he me? We can't be together!
We were always such good friend since we were young and now I felt in love with him?
That can't be!
But it is as it is. I must take it.
'How is with going out today?' Kouyou always want to go to bars and parties.
Although I doesn't feel like going out I agree and the others too.
It was more a random that I sit next to Akira but it feels good although I'm depressed anywhere so I want to drink till I can't thinking anymore.
It seems like Akira was looking worried at me.
'Is anything wrong Taka-chan?'
I like it when he call me that.
'No it's nothing.'
'Are you sure you haven't drink too much?'
'No I'm only tired so please don't worry about me. I think I should go home.'
'I'm leaving too.'
I want to stand up but I was really too drunk so I stumble and was going to fall.
Luckily Akira stands up too and I felt into him.
I was so close to him! It was like the time is passing slower when I was lying in his arms. It feels so good and I think I'm blush what ashamed me a bit.
Akira help me up.
'I don't think you're okay anymore. I take you home.'
It doesn't worth to discuss with him so I should just follow.
His car smells so good. It smells like him.
Ater all I can't look him in the eyes so I just look out the window.
We say nothing and I want to break the scilence but I don't know what to say.
'If you want to talk about anything just tell me. You know you can always call me.'
I'm glad he was the one who was breaking the scilence.
'You are always so nice to me Akira-chan.'
''cause it's natural for me. You're my friend.'
Yes I'm your friend. If I only could be more for you.
I want to tell him so bad but I don't want to ruin our friendship.
'Do you want to come to my place for a while?'
Yes of course I want!
But I only can answer a quiet 'yes'.
Damn his arpartment is so jovial! Now I'm glad he doesn't see mine. It's so messy.
'Please sit down. Do you want to drink something?'
'No thanks. I'm fine.'
'Awww you always say you're fine but you can't lie to me. I know you so long now.
Do you really think I doesn't see if something's wrong with you?'
But I can't answer I'm only thinking:
Wow now I'm sitting next to him on his couch in his flat and wer're alone!
'Taka-chan! You're bleeding! Why don't you say. Wait I'm back soon!'
WHAT I'M BLEEDING? Oh yeah on my ankle. But I don't feel pain.
Maybe that's because I'm drunk or that I don't realized it before.
It must happened while I'm stumbled.
Akira came back whit a bandage.
Now when he bandage it it feels so much like it's on fire but he is very gentle.
'Ah uh!'
'Sorry does it hurt?'
'You don't have to apologize it's my own fault. I shouldn't had drink so much.'
'It doesn't matter. It happaned after all.'
'Yes maybe you're right.'
'Want some water?'
'Yeah ... please.'
It's so good to talk to him alone.
We haven't done this a long time.
We talk so long that I don't realize when I felt asleep.
I woke up lying on the couch with a blaket on me. He must take it over me.
I wonder where he is.
I here noises coming out of the kitchen.
Wow Akira is cooking!
'Ohaio gozaimasu.'
'Ohaio! Did you sleep well? I've made breakefast. Want something?'
'Yeah. Sorry for falling asleep.'
'It's okay. I don't mind.'
'I don't know you can cook.'
'Yuta-chan was showing me.'
'Haha! Then I guess it must taste well.'
'Hahaha! Yeah I hope so and I'm glad that you're in a better mood today.'
End
of chapter 1