I slowly opened my eyes, unsure if I am done with sleeping, then quickly closed them again trying to push away memory of the last two days. I glanced at the clock. It seemed too bright for 4am. The curtains were closed, but the sun was crawling underneath them. I must have slept through the day.

I was in Bed & Breakfast in Greenwich in the middle of nowhere. I didn't go to my parents on day we came back from Mauritius. I needed to be away from Will, his family, from all of this, whatever it was or became, job, challenge, defeat, disappointment, failure, love, heartbreak..

I did not want my parents to be part of this. I needed to be alone. It pained so much, I didn't want to exist..

My mouth felt dry and I needed to drink. I forced myself out of the bed, but felt a bit dizzy when I stumbled over to bathroom. My body was demanding food.

When I appeared at the reception, the lady there seems genially relived on my sight.

'Oh girl, you are alive' – she exclaimed. Rather interesting choice of word I thought. – 'Have you left the room at all yesterday or did you actually slept that long?'

'I know I am sorry. I am usually an early bird. I needed some sleep I guess. What do you mean by yesterday?' – I stammered –'I only arrived yesterday late evening, didn't I? What day is today?' – I wouldn't sleep through the whole day and half, would I? No one was interested were I was? Oh, right my phone has no battery and for some reason the plug upstairs didn't seem to work.

'Honey you arrived on Saturday. It is Monday, 530pm to be exact. Unfortunately we are still out of power. Since Saturday night, can you believe it? But look at you; you probably could do with some food. I can make you some eggs and coffee. Lucky we have gas cooker. Come with me'- she said looking eager and I followed her to the kitchen.

'I am sorry do you have a phone or… my phone is dead' – again this word. In two more days Will be dead too. Strong pain shot through my chest. I closed my eyes and took a dip breath.

'Sorry darling we are in the same boat'- she giggled- 'My phone isn't working either. Lets hope this won't last long. They've got to fix it eventually' – she turned around to face me. – 'Oh, maybe you better sit down, you look a bit pale. Give me a minute, food is coming. '