Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach in anyway but am inspired by the work created by Tite Kubo
Chapter 1: Tragic Memories
(Orihime's P.O.V)
Six am. I look over at my alarm clock. Ugh! It feels like I just went to sleep. I guess that is what happens when someone has a restless sleep. Well such is life. I can't complain. I won't complain. I roll over and he is still snoring away with not a care in the world. Well since I am up might as well get breakfast started and get ready for the day. Have to be finished by the time he goes to his barracks and I go to my squad which, surprisingly to my friends, is fourth division.
Making breakfast is always a quiet thing. No one else is awake, just me. He always sleeps in. Hell he'd sleep the day away if he could. But I can't complain since he doesn't sleep as much as he use to. What was I saying? Oh yes breakfast is a quiet affair, so to me it's a time to reflect about my life now, here in this moment. About death as well, my human death, which lead to my life as a new soul in Soul Society. So much has changed for me in a little over a year. I am sure for him too. Just months after the Winter War ended my life changed, along with the lives of the people around me and closest to me. My name is Orihime Inoue and I wish to tell you how I became to be living in Soul Society. This is my version, what I remember up to four months ago. Now, he may wish to tell you his side, but that's if he feels chatty. It all started thirteen months ago…
(Third p.o.v 13 months ago)
Waking up in cold sweat Orihime panted and looked around her as she gasped for air. Once she realized she was in the bedroom of her apartment she calmed down. Looking at her alarm clock caused her to sigh; it was time to get up anyway for school. Rising she made her way to the bathroom to take a shower. After dressing for the day she headed to the kitchen to make breakfast and prepare her bento box using leftovers from dinner the night before. Looking at the calendar made her sigh a happy contented sigh: the weekend was starting the next day but it was even better because it marked the beginning of spring break meaning there would be no school for three weeks after that day.
The best part of the coming vacation was that Renji and Rukia would be coming to escort her and their friends (Ichigo, Chad, and Uryuu) to Soul Society for a victory celebration, one that had to be put on hold until everything was fixed after of the Winter War. Many wounded needed to heal and the many fallen buried with proper respects. Now though Captain Kyoraku of the eighth divison is heading this celebration party and according to Rangiku he knows how to throw a great party. All Orihime knows is that he was nice to her. He and Ukitake-san.
Once Orihime arrived to school she found all her friends there already. Chad stood by stoically as Uryuu talks to Ichigo. More like he is arguing with Ichigo and Chad plays referee. Tatsuki and Keigo are just laughing, talking together until he says something stupid and she whacks him on his head. When Chizuru noticed Orihime she bellowed waving in greeting as she walked over to them causing the rest of the group to turn their attention to her. She waved enthusiastically in return plastering a fake smile on her face for her friends' benefit. She doesn't want them to know about her problems, her fears or her nightmares. So she fakes it. As the saying goes: "You fake it, till you make it." In this case for her it's "You fake it, to save it."
When Chizuru came over to her princess and gropes her from behind Orihime stiffened and her body shook in disgust. Quickly disengaging herself from Chizuru, the lesbian not realizing how Orihime is feeling, she gently pulled away all while trying not to hurt the other girl's feelings.
Orihime continued the school day in this fashion. Short conversations, fake smiles, and when asked a question she gave short uncomplicated answers. When the end of school rolled around she quickly gathered up her books and papers shoving it all in her backpack. She rushed out without even noticing her friends leaving all of them with the same look of confusion on her their faces.
By the time Rukia and Renji showed up into Karakura town Orihime was sobbing on the floor in her closet. She jumped suddenly at a knock on the door and stumbled to get up. Arriving at the door she heard both Rukia and Rangiku talking. Orihime took a moment to try to calm down and dry her tears as best as she could. In the end, however, she gives up and simply opened the door.
Rukia and Rangiku are shocked to see her puffy eyes with tear stains down the girl's cheeks. Rukia thought Orihime was doing better, taking it one day at a time and all. As she looked at her dearest friend, the only other person she felt so close to other than Renji, thoughts bore down in her head.
"This war has changed so many. But war changes everyone. So many have died and so many have seen the light, realizing their mistakes. Nii-sama has started to change his demeanor towards me and towards Renji as well. It's part of life that things must change when something of this magnitude has happened. But Orihime seems to believe it's her fault. I wish I could make her see that it's not her fault. She only did what she thought was best for her nakama, her friends." Rukia sighed as she looked at her friend, feelings sadness and pity welling up inside of her so much that she felt she was choking.
Rangiku was in a similar state as the soul reaper beside her. She wished she could heal Orihime from her pains and sadness. She wished she understood what the young woman, not even a child anymore, was going through. She has taken on the role of big sister to Orihime and wished she knew how to help.
Rangiku sighed thinking to herself, "It's not like Hueco Mundo is a vacation spot and Orihime just wanted to go to. She was taken, coerced into it to protect her friends who she would walk through the fires of hell for. She'd give her life for them. I just wish I could do something for her. I know I am still getting over losing Gin, but I have friends who understand, are willing to give me time, but Orihime probably never told her friends what she went through. Hell what she told me and probably Rukia wasn't the whole thing that happened. She only skimmed the surface telling the Head Captain what happened while she was there. But I can tell there is more to it. She is breaking inside, and her friends, though they care and love her their own way, they can't help with this. I just wish she'd open up to someone. Poor Orihime, carrying the weight of your burdens on your shoulders even when none of these burdens are yours to bare, let alone your fault."
Not being able to think of anything to really say Rangiku pulled Orihime into her arms, in a warm embrace of love, compassion and understanding. Rukia came over and hugged Orihime from the side. Orihime felt protected and safe with these two women who had become family to her and she let the dam break and the tears flow. She sobbed uncontrollably, her whole body shaking. Rangiku and Rukia put their arms around her to guide her to the couch and eased her down as they held her while she cried.
After a good cry that lasted for over a half hour Rangiku and Rukia made tea and something to eat, betting that Orihime had not eaten much that morning. Once they had set the food in front of her Orihime took a moment to collect her emotions and thoughts, before sighing and opening her mouth to begin her explanations.
But before she could say anything Rukia growled out, "What did that idiot say to you that has you so upset?"
Rangiku caught Rukia's intention to make Orihime small and nodded, a slight smirk on her lips, adding, "Yeah, that's right what did Ichigo say that made you so upset? You know I may be a pretty face and body but I've got no problem beating some sense into him. If you don't want us to, I'm sure we can get Renji to do it!" Rangiku looked at Rukia who grinned.
"Yep I can get Renji to do it, I am sure he would. If not Captain Zaraki would do it for no other reason than to fight Ichigo."
Orihime giggled softly, a first real laugh in three months, and smiled at her friends knowing what they were trying to do. She waved her hands frantically and smiled more, "No, no! Kurosaki-kun didn't do anything wrong. I haven't seen much of him other than in school. But I do need to tell you two something. Something I haven't told Tatsuki because I am scared to. I am worried that if I told anyone else they'd look at me differently. My friends here won't understand what I went through, though you two may not fully understand, you might be able to understand better than they could. First though Rangiku, I'm sorry, I kinda ruined your top. I completely soaked it."
Rangiku laughed softly and squeezed Orihime's hand, smiling more, "Just a good reason to go shopping after this. Yes?" Orihime laughed and rolled her eyes. Rukia cleared her throat.
"Okay Orihime, if it's not because of Ichigo or the others, and you can't tell the others please tell us what's wrong. Whatever you have to say will not leave this room until you are ready for it to alright?" Rukia had her serious expression that she used for battles firmly set on her face. Orihime felt relieved at Rukia's words and felt strong enough to tell them.
"Well remember how I told Head Captain Yammamoto what happened while I was there? Everything I said was the truth but I didn't go into details, I didn't want to with it so fresh in my mind. I thought that if I didn't talk about it maybe it would go away. But now when I sleep it's still there. So I think it would be better to tell you all of it." She'd paused to take a breath, knowing the next part of her story would take a lot of time and energy to speak about.
Taking a deep breath she continued, "It's probably no surprise to you that I was tortured. The mental tortue came from Aizen. He would fill me with hope just to have Ulquiorra break me down with depair.. Well the eighth Espada, Szaeyel Aporro Granz, tortured me physically. It was under Aizen's orders but I knew he enjoyed it, he wanted to see that the human body could do. Then I heard from Szaeyel thah Aizen wanted a hybrid created, a creature like Kurosaki-kun. I didn't understand what he meant then, I was too naïve I guess. Szaeyel would strap me to a table and inject me with different toxins then their antidotes. He poked, prodded and gagged me so I couldn't scream. He…he touched me," here she trailed off again, the shame she felt overwhelming her ability to speak.
Breaking the silence Rangiku questioned in a hesitant breath, "Where exactly did he touch you?" Part of her didn't want to know the answer because it was too horrifying but she knew Orihime had to get this out of her. Orihime sighed and pointed to her chest, her stomach, and between her legs.
A few tears escaped as she continued, "He said my rejection powers were getting on his last nerves and that if I'd behave myself the process would be over sooner. But then he said he liked a challenge and put a needle inside my heart to slow my heart beat hoping it would slow my powers of rejection which it did. He then inserted a needle in my stomach and injected something in me. Next he moved a needle between my legs and you can guess where that one was going." She shuddered at the memory of the pain and Rukia squeezed her hand.
Orihime closed her eyes for a moment and then opened them to continue with her story, "Any way, shockingly that wasn't the worst part of my stay. Yes, it was bad but I survived it. The absolute worst thing happened after the last procedure of the day. I always passed out during the testing process because the pain would make me black out. I woke up in my room to a shadow looming over me. It was Nnoitra Gilga the fifth Espada. For while he had been trying to get to me and slipped into my room while I was sleeping. Whether he broke in or sneaked in with help I don't know but either way he was there and…he raped me."
The two women gasped, mouths hanging open and their eyes filled with horror. Orhime proceeded to go into grave detail of what happened that day.
After Szaeyel had completed the tests order on Orihime by Aizen her unconscious form was taken and left in her room. Upon waking and finding Nnoitra looming over her Orihime scrambled off her couch, not caring that she was half dressed, and rushed straight for the door. Forgetting that it locked on the outside only she spun around and found Nnoitra towering over her with a sick smile on his face that rivaled the maniacal smirk on Grimmjow's face. For some reason Grimmjow's countenance never really scary to her. But this look on Nnoitra's face terrified her. He grabbed her by the throat and pinned her to the wall. He chuckled softly, but there was too much glee in his tone and too much leering in his eyes for her to find any humor in what he thought may be funny.
"Hello pet-sama, so you're finally awake. Oh look you are already, ready for me.. good pet. Since that procedure was your last one, and you're willing to give Aizen-sama what he wants, you can damn well give me what I want."
Orihime gasped in her struggle to breathe. Her lips moved but no sound is came out. She clawed at his arms to no avail. Nnoitra realized she is was trying to talk and he let her go, watching as she dropped to the cold hard floor. She caught her breath, gasping out she pants, "Last.. procedure? Szaeyel-sama said.. I had to go back to.." Nnoitra laughed loudly and Orihime shook in fear.
"Nope it's the last procedure. Someone destroyed Szaeyel's lab. Hell someone almost killed Szaeyel. He was definitely fucked up when I saw him get carried away and out of the rubble that WAS his lab. So as I was saying. No more procedures. So you're all mine. Time to get started."
Without wasting time he lunged at her. She scrambled back but she fell over the couch hitting her head off the cold floor. Nnoitra tackled her and when she opened her eyes he was in his released form.
With his first set of arms he grabbed her throat with the left and her chest with the right. He grinned as he felt her large breast, chuckling softly when he saw the fear in her eyes.
The second set of arms held her arms above her head as she screamed trying to struggle to get free.
The last set of his arms took their time moving down her body, lifting her skirt above her hips, and ripping her panties off.
Orihime was panting loudly and her throat felt like it was about to close because of all her screaming. Gripping her legs, Nnoitra spread them wide, putting his knee on her right leg to hole it down and using his free hand to move between her legs played with her slightly. Her squirming and soft cries caused him to grin.
Looking up at her he whispered darkly, "Ohhh pet-sama don't stop now! The screams were really getting me hard. Keep them coming." He slowly released himself and slid into her.
Through his sick grin he said, "Don't worry princess I'll go slow." With those whispered words he roughly shoved himself in, breaking her barrier that told any man she was a virgin. He continued with the rough and frantic thrusts, grunting and panting, cursing in her ear as she struggled. When she started to black out he freed one hand to slap her across the face and continuing moving, watching her fearful face with glee..
"I am gonna cum, wait for it," he grunted and released himself inside of her. Pulling out he let her go, staring down at her now used and abused body, smirking. As he stood up he grinned more as he thought about taking her again not caring that she finally blacked out. As he moved to get on top of her again a cero blast obliterated the door and knocked him hard and fast into the wall. Nnoitra stood up ready to deal with Ulquiorra. But this wasn't the fourth espada, Mr. Grumpy himself. It was worse than that. Nnoitra prepared for a fight but before he could even get his bearings together Orihime is gone.
The next morning Orihime woke up in her room fully clothed. The room had been cleaned and the door fixed. Initially Orihime thought Ulquiorra had a hand in all of it but she had no idea he wasn't even in Las Noches, and that she had been rescued, guarded over till her room got fixed.
Rangiku and Rukia were shocked. They didn't really know what to say or do so they just hugged her tightly. Orihime smiled at both of them, appreciative of their listening ears and not being judgmental. Once they had all three recover themselves they packed Orihime's stuff for their trip to Soul Society.
Right before meeting up with the boys who were heading to her apartment Orihime looked at the girls and smiled, "Thank you both for listening. There is one more thing I need to tell you. Something was the outcome of all that happened in Hueco Mundo. I was too scared to tell the Head Captain. I... " Orihime suddenly halted her words. Rukia was watching her friend she sensed all the guys heading up the stairs. Rangiku, tactful as ever, held up the pregnancy box and stick looking at Orihime.
"Orihime is this what you wanted to say?" Rangiku shocked. Rukia tried to figure out how to stall the boys in the hall. Orihime looked defeated, but she in the end nodded her head.
"Yes that's it. I didn't say anything because I don't know if it's Nnoitra's or something Szaeyel created inside of me. I just don't know."
The women nod and Rangiku smiles, "As we agreed nothing gets said until you are ready. Got it? Come on before those apes break down your door." They all greeted the boys and soon Renji opened a senekimon in her living room and they all went through. "I hope no one else finds out the truth," Orihime thought as they landed in the thirteenth division of Soul Society.