A/N: Yes, I've been a Cloud/Sephiroth addict for a long time. But have I ever contributed
anything
to the C/S world? Noooooooo.. Therefore, I bring you this songfic.
Angst anyone? *blinks* Anyone?
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Empty Spaces
by Trunks
song by: Fuel
Mister could you maybe lend a hand
To help a drowning, starving, soulless man
Whose eyes are blind and feelings all but numb
Whose ears are all so deaf and mouth is dumb
[ You are with me.
As I sleep, or try to, my eyes fill with the beautiful pictures of you.
I can almost feel you holding onto me, but then I realize it's nothing but
my imagination.
Once, I swore I heard you speak, but then I woke up.
A horrible nightmare, that's what I had always hoped it was. I always hoped
that I would wake up and you would be there, next to me, not lying on the
ground, dead.
But that wasn't you I killed, was it? No, you died long before that. It
wasn't you, it was Jenova. She only looked like you, moved like you, spoke
like you...Fought like you.
No, my Sephiroth died a long time ago, replaced with that monster that
tried to destroy us all.
But, Gods, Sephiroth, I miss you.
Don't think I ever forgot about you. Every day, every moment I'm alive, I
always remember your stoic face.
Your silver hair and mako green eyes..]
This is the way, is the way
I fill your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces
[ "Cloud?" Tifa asked, placing a hand on my shoulder, concern filling her
eyes.
I almost winced.
She sat down next to me, sitting her drink down on the table. "What's wrong, Cloud?"
I know what she thinks. She knows I've changed since the fight with Sephiroth, but she
just
thinks it is because I miss Aeris.
Oh yes, of course I do. Aeris was my friend. But, that wasn't the reason.
But how did you tell someone that you were in love with Sephiroth? Tifa doesn't know
what
he was like before Jenova got hold of him. I do.
I hate to think what would happen if she found out. Would she think I had gone insane?
Yes, probably.
"Nothing." I answer, though I know it is useless to answer. None of my answers will
satisfy
her curiosity and concern. Why? I think she can see right through me, most of the time.
"Cloud, I know you miss Aeris-"
Here it comes...
"-but you cannot mourn forever. You are sliding downhill, Cloud. I mean, when was the
last time
you smiled?"
The last time I smiled? Or does she mean the last time I pasted a smile on my face for the
sake
of my friends?
I would have asked her that, but I didn't care to explain myself.]
Night is day and day is night again
And all that's eating bites with toothy grins
The pages of my memory torn in twain
Where reconstructing lies could not contain
[ One would think that death would have been filled with more torture and agony. No,
they simply
put me in this void of the dead.
Quite interesting.
Death isn't what I had expected. I had expected it to be long and painful, but it wasn't.
I knew Jenova would never win.
She had assumed she was such an all powerful being, or
some untouchable goddess, but she was wrong, ne?
She also thought she could use me, but she was wrong again.
If she had ever thought I would kill Cloud, she was sadly mistaken.
Jenova might have been able to control my body, but that was all.
I would have rather died than hurt Cloud anymore.
Which is exactly what I did.
And it was worth it. ]
This is the way, is the way
I feel your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces
[ I could hear them talking from where I stood outside. Tifa had used my name a couple of
times,
but I wasn't sure if their entire conversation was about me.
It really wouldn't have mattered to me anyway. My mind was far away.
I let my eyes rest on the sky, almost irritated by the stars.
They could shine so brightly, yet I felt as if my brightness had faded away a long time ago.
But basking in sorrow is not my idea of a life.
Even if Jenova and Hojo are dead, there is no doubt in my mind that there will, some day,
be
another war.
And, of course, my friends are all sure that 'good' will always triumph.
I suppose all I live for anymore is to fight. There isn't any other reason, beyond my friends.
Yet all my nights of restless slumber are filled with images of Sephiroth, my one-winged
angel..]
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The song, "Empty Spaces", belongs to Fuel. Final Fantasy belongs to Squaresoft.
anything
to the C/S world? Noooooooo.. Therefore, I bring you this songfic.
Angst anyone? *blinks* Anyone?
__________________________________
Empty Spaces
by Trunks
song by: Fuel
Mister could you maybe lend a hand
To help a drowning, starving, soulless man
Whose eyes are blind and feelings all but numb
Whose ears are all so deaf and mouth is dumb
[ You are with me.
As I sleep, or try to, my eyes fill with the beautiful pictures of you.
I can almost feel you holding onto me, but then I realize it's nothing but
my imagination.
Once, I swore I heard you speak, but then I woke up.
A horrible nightmare, that's what I had always hoped it was. I always hoped
that I would wake up and you would be there, next to me, not lying on the
ground, dead.
But that wasn't you I killed, was it? No, you died long before that. It
wasn't you, it was Jenova. She only looked like you, moved like you, spoke
like you...Fought like you.
No, my Sephiroth died a long time ago, replaced with that monster that
tried to destroy us all.
But, Gods, Sephiroth, I miss you.
Don't think I ever forgot about you. Every day, every moment I'm alive, I
always remember your stoic face.
Your silver hair and mako green eyes..]
This is the way, is the way
I fill your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces
[ "Cloud?" Tifa asked, placing a hand on my shoulder, concern filling her
eyes.
I almost winced.
She sat down next to me, sitting her drink down on the table. "What's wrong, Cloud?"
I know what she thinks. She knows I've changed since the fight with Sephiroth, but she
just
thinks it is because I miss Aeris.
Oh yes, of course I do. Aeris was my friend. But, that wasn't the reason.
But how did you tell someone that you were in love with Sephiroth? Tifa doesn't know
what
he was like before Jenova got hold of him. I do.
I hate to think what would happen if she found out. Would she think I had gone insane?
Yes, probably.
"Nothing." I answer, though I know it is useless to answer. None of my answers will
satisfy
her curiosity and concern. Why? I think she can see right through me, most of the time.
"Cloud, I know you miss Aeris-"
Here it comes...
"-but you cannot mourn forever. You are sliding downhill, Cloud. I mean, when was the
last time
you smiled?"
The last time I smiled? Or does she mean the last time I pasted a smile on my face for the
sake
of my friends?
I would have asked her that, but I didn't care to explain myself.]
Night is day and day is night again
And all that's eating bites with toothy grins
The pages of my memory torn in twain
Where reconstructing lies could not contain
[ One would think that death would have been filled with more torture and agony. No,
they simply
put me in this void of the dead.
Quite interesting.
Death isn't what I had expected. I had expected it to be long and painful, but it wasn't.
I knew Jenova would never win.
She had assumed she was such an all powerful being, or
some untouchable goddess, but she was wrong, ne?
She also thought she could use me, but she was wrong again.
If she had ever thought I would kill Cloud, she was sadly mistaken.
Jenova might have been able to control my body, but that was all.
I would have rather died than hurt Cloud anymore.
Which is exactly what I did.
And it was worth it. ]
This is the way, is the way
I feel your spaces now
It's the way, it's the way
Cause all that's been left for me
Is to fight to fill these empty spaces
[ I could hear them talking from where I stood outside. Tifa had used my name a couple of
times,
but I wasn't sure if their entire conversation was about me.
It really wouldn't have mattered to me anyway. My mind was far away.
I let my eyes rest on the sky, almost irritated by the stars.
They could shine so brightly, yet I felt as if my brightness had faded away a long time ago.
But basking in sorrow is not my idea of a life.
Even if Jenova and Hojo are dead, there is no doubt in my mind that there will, some day,
be
another war.
And, of course, my friends are all sure that 'good' will always triumph.
I suppose all I live for anymore is to fight. There isn't any other reason, beyond my friends.
Yet all my nights of restless slumber are filled with images of Sephiroth, my one-winged
angel..]
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The song, "Empty Spaces", belongs to Fuel. Final Fantasy belongs to Squaresoft.