A/n: Harry/MJ oneshot. Because I love them! Please review and tell me what you thought!
Things I'll Never Say
I watch her stand there, waiting for him. Giving him everything she has, giving him- her.
I watch him walk away, turn her down, turn around. It's written all over her face, she's questioning 'what do I do now?'
I watch her wait for him to change his mind, reassure her he was wrong- he doesn't, he just turns around.
If I had only told her
If I had only showed her
If I had loved her
Maybe she wouldn't be crying now
Maybe she wouldn't be waiting
Maybe she wouldn't be hurting right now
I saw the looks between them, the slight touches
I saw their hands tightly held together
I saw the love struck glances they gave each other
I made a mistake by taking his side
Where has it gotten me now?
Alone, empty, cold
If only I could've showed how I loved her
How I needed her
I always tried to buy her
She'd always refuse
The only method I knew, I abused
For so long I hadn't seen her
For so long I hadn't heard her
The laugh, the smile
I missed her
I loved her
I lost her
And at her wedding day, I watched her run away
Past the church, past the isles
I waited for her to return, she never looked back
I knew where she was headed, to someone who possessed what I lacked
If I had told her
If I had showed her
If I had held her
Would she still be here today?
At night I'm tortured
Faces, sounds, voices echoing off empty, vacant walls
All I hear
All I see
Anger, hate, betrayal, fate
I live in darkness
Away from her light
Her shining hair, her delight
Why did I let her go?
I watch her pause in the elevator
Watch her wonder
Why she's come
What she's done
What he'll think
I distract her, rewarded by a smile
She's nervous
I'm nervous
This is the first time we've been together, alone
I listen to her
I hear her
I comfort her
I'm there for her
And when she turns to leave, I call
Running after her
She's gone before I know
The door closing
What have I done?
Why did I let her go?
Could she have loved me?
Would she have ever let it show?
I love her
I want her
I need her
My words whispers
My voice mute
She's gone back to him
I miss her every day
I blame myself for the things I'll never say…