Disclaimer: For those of you who don't know, I don't own Final Fantasy IX…I'm only 13...
A/N: Yaay! This is my second fic! My first in Garnet's POV! Just one thing, I'm writing this at the same time as another fic (My story Secrets…check it out if you haven't already), so updates probably won't be super fast…DON'T KILL MEEE!
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Only in My Dreams
I watched from the airship as his form shrunk into the horizen along with that of the Lifa Tree.
That's when I felt it…the crushing blow to my heart…I knew he was…that something had…
"NOOOO!" I screamed as I fell to the ground in tears, "ZIDANE! DON'T LEAVE MEEE! PLEASE! I LOVE YOU! YOU CAN'T GO!"
I ignored the people trying to help me up and console me. No matter what they said…I knew what I'd felt…
"Please…" I whimpered, "When I'm in trouble…who will kidnap me…? DID YOU EVER THINK OF THAT?"
"P-Please, Dagger," said Eiko on the verge of tears herself, "don't…don't say things like that…Zidane is…He is coming back!"
I looked up at her. I wanted to believe her, but…I just…
I turned away. I couldn't bear to look her in the eye.
I ran off to one of Invincible's the bedrooms. I lay down on the bed and closed my eyes.
At least in my dreams…I was free of pain and tears…
It was dark…then…he appeared…though…he looked different…kind of…sad…
He gave me a half-hearted smile and began to walk towards me with hands outstretched, "Dagger."
I stepped back shaking my head, "D-Don't tease me! You mean the world to me…but…in a few minutes, or even seconds, you'll be gone…again…"
He stopped and his smile vanished…I wished it hadn't…
"I got a little delayed, Dagger." he said calmly, "Just a short delay…So wait for me, Dagger, okay?"
I shook my head…He just…couldn't be real…it was just a dream…
Zidane seemed even more hurt.
"Just sing your song, Dagger," he continued, "and know that I'm singing with you…"
I opened my eyes. I could hear whispers through the door.
"Steiner, let he be…She needs to be alone right now."
"But the castle is in view, Beatrix!"
"Well then, we'll just have to tell her when we're there…Though I can't say this is the kind of thing one ever wants to tell anyone."
I didn't bother to listen anymore…I knew they must have been talking about Zidane…
How could I go on? Without Zidane, what could give me the strength to rule?
"Zidane," I whispered, "how could you leave like that? I'm all alone…"
I thought about my song…he told me to sing it…
I thought about my true mother…about what she had told me about the song…When our families' old chocobo died. I had cried for so long until my mother spoke to me.
"Come, now," she had said, "don't cry. When you lose something precious to you…think of our song."
She closed her eyes and sang, "Anata ga kureta omoide o kokoro o iyasu uta ni shite"
She looked at me, "Do you know what that section means?"
I shook my head.
"It means, 'making the memories you gave to me into a song to heal my heart'. So instead of crying, turn your memories into lyrics to your own tune or your favorite tune. I promise it'll truly heal your heart."
I walked to a window and stared ahead. The Alexandria Castle really had come into view…the castle I had secretly wished to share with him…
I felt warm tears come to my eyes, " I…never told you that…I loved you did I?…Will you…Will you still sing with me…?"
I wiped my eyes and walked out the door. Steiner snapped to attention.
I paused, "…I'll talk to no one…no one but Zidane…We'll make him a shrine…A shrine for Gaia's truest hero…"
Steiner was horrified, "But, Your Highness!"
I felt the tears coming back to my face and I knew I had said too much. Just talking about him made me…
I looked at Steiner and turned away without a word.
He said he was just delayed…maybe…just maybe…it wasn't a dream…
As soon as I got into the castle, I went straight to the princess's quarters. I sat calmly by the chair I had always kept by the window. The view of Alexandria had always soothed me…
I was right here on that day…the day he kidnapped me…
A song to heal my heart…
I moved my desk in front of the window, pulled out pen, ink, and paper, and began to write down notes and words.
…Memories…a song to heal my heart…can anything?
Zidane…my love…will you sing this with me?
…Or are you only in my dreams…?
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A/N: So waddaya think? I think it's my best work ever, but I can't even write about Zidane dying. I nearly cried when I had Garnet talking about making him a shrine. Just for your information, I was listening to the song "Terra" as Iwrote. You know, the song played when your chasing Mikoto on Terra.
Anyways, R&R!…please?