Hey guys. :) So... I just found this story in my computer. It's an old story from a FanFiction author that used to be my friend. Her pen name is btrstories. Actually, I think she still is an author here, just not for Big Time Rush anymore. Anyway, before she stopped writing for BTR, she asked me to take over this story for her. Well, it's been a long time since she asked me that, so I guess I'll just start now.

The prologue and the first chapter were written by her. Just so you all know. :) ENJOY!

Sometimes we lose what we loved the most. Whether it is someone human or just an important object. But in this case...it's a human being.

We can lose that special someone in a couple of ways. Whether it's because they left or moved out. Got kidnapped or lost. Or worse... they... passed away.

Well then they passed away for a reason. Maybe it was an accident. But then again...maybe it wasn't. You can kill yourself. You can have a car accident or something and just die like that. You can get a very bad illness and die from it.

But death shouldn't even be crossing your mind right now.

You should be happy that your still alive.

And you should remember that that important person in your life who is gone, is in a better place now.

Whether it's in heaven, and God took them there way too quickly. Or whether it's in a different country or state. Because they left for a reason...and you just keep thinking that they hate you, but in reality they still love you with all their heart.

And you should remember that that person is always with you everywhere you go. No matter what.

Now, what if all of this...started out with one little promise? Because sometimes, people make promises that they can't keep. Sometimes, they know they can't keep it. But a lot of the times, they don't know it. And once that promise is broken...you start to feel bad and do every bit of thing that you could possibly do, so that person can forgive you.

Apologies won't always work though. So you can say it all you want, but that person might never forgive you. And if that person never forgives you, then that would just break your heart. You don't want them to keep hating every bit of you. You don't want them to ignore you every time you talk. You don't want them to pretend that your invisible when you clearly aren't.

If that actually happens, then you must've messed up. Big time.

You feel like there's no going back. You can't change the past. You can't forget about the past.

But what if something much, much worse happens in the future that you never expected?...Well then that would definitely shatter you into pieces. But mostly your heart.

You won't be able to sleep. Terrible nightmares would keep you awake all night.

You won't be able to eat. You'd feel like throwing up afterwords.

You won't be able to think straight. All of those memories will just keep circling around your head and never leave you alone. They'll just keep haunting you.

You'll sob or cry all day and night and you won't be able to stop.

You keep thinking to yourself 'Why couldn't I keep my promise?' or 'I wish there was somehow a way...to go back in time to prevent any of this from happening.' Even though you know that there is NO way back.

You can't do anything. The past is gone. The future remains.

But you just can't forget the past. No matter how hard you try...and no matter how sad it might've been.

You just have to move on. Let it go. Because if you keep thinking about it, then it would just keep ruining your life.

I'm not really sure where this story will go, but hopefully it will go in a good path and I won't disappoint anyone. Please review and let me know what you think. :) Thank you for reading! And if you haven't done so, go check out btrstories' stories! You won't regret it! ^^

~ BigTimeRush-BTR