You lie

{ Chapter 1}

I,Doctor Spencer Reid,am not so great with people. Yeah, sure I can step back and see things that others missed, Detailed events in every crime scene. But talking to people,it's not my strongest point.I am socially awkward. I keep to myself and stay inside my own mind.I have my problems,my weaknesses, and my strengths. But, I am lonely and I can't take it anymore.

It was a dreary, rainy day in Quantico,Virginia as Spencer woke up for work. It was a monday morning, and he had barely got any sleep the night before. He mostly stayed up and read books or wrote down his thought's in a notebook. His mind was racing for days. He couldn't keep up with himself anymore.

He dressed himself, grabbed his bag, locked his front door and headed off to work. He didn't make eye contact with anyone on the way to work. He didn't know why he was acting this way. Maybe I'm paranoid...maybe now i'm becoming my mom...what if i did something and my brain doesn't want me to remember it, maybe that's why I'm feeling like this.

[It's because you're alone, because you have nobody.]

Spencer's head snapped up from his gaze at his feet moving against the pavement. He could have sworn someone was whispering in his ears,he darted his eyes left to right. Before he knew it we was walking through the door's of the BAU. He walked to the break room and poured himself some coffee.

"Reid!"He heard someone yell and just assumed it was the voice he was hearing again.

He felt a hand on his shoulder and he jumped, almost dropping his cup. He turned to see Derek.

"Derk, don't do that," He growled.

"Well, someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed." Derek said as he grabbed a cup for himself. Spencer continued to reach for the coffee pot and poured himself some coffee. He then realized he was shaking. "You ok, Reid?"

"Yeah," Spencer said in a hush tone. "I didn't have any breakfast, so I'm a little shaky." Spencer was still facing the counter as he watched Derek. Derek nodded as he poured himself some coffee as well..

"Well then bud, you better eat something okay?" Derek said. Spencer sharply breathed in and turned his head away from Derek as Derek patted his back, took a sip of coffee and walked out of the room.

[Everyone here treats you like a child.}

Spencer shook his head,this voice was like a parasite, it was going to suck him dry. Spencer took a huge sip of coffee, placed his cup in the sink and walked out of the break room. He quickly set his bag at his desk as he swiftly walked to the hall.

"Reid! Meeting room!" Derek yelled from the other side of the room.

"Bathroom!" He yelled back.

"What the hell was that about?" J.J said, she was at the doorway of the meeting room.

Derek leaned against the wall and said," I have no idea, he's acting weird," J.J shot him a glance. "Okay, weirder than usual."

Spencer made his way through the hallway to the men's bathroom. He busted open the door and walked to a sink. He turned on the faucet and splashed his face with water. I'm losing it. I'm sinking into a state of mental instability. It's like I'm so smart that my brain is advancing ahead of me before I can catch up to it. I'm becoming a monster.Spencer looked at himself in the mirror. Water was still dripping from his face. He didn't even recognize his own face anymore. Spencer grabbed a paper towel and wiped off his fixed his clothes and walked to the meeting room.

A/N- this is kind of a rough draft... im still trying to develop the story (obviously since it's only the first chapter :P). And this is not my first story, i have another account,AmberAshley but i couldn't remember my password and my email password...sooooooo yeah