Thank you for all those who read my other stories ( on profile) it means so much to me. I am currently working on another story "My Little Angel", and I know it is going to be hard to update two stories. But I will try. Sorry if the updates for this story are a little slow, I have the first 2 chapters written, but from then on I am running out of ideas. So if you have any please feel free to tell me. Also I am looking for a beta for this story. Please tell me if you are interested.
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight or any of the characters. SM does.
Chapter 1:
Bella POV:
It felt so good to have Edward back. It just wasn't the same without him. It felt like he tool part of me with him. I understand why he left, he just wanted me to be safe, so now it's a time we both don't mention unless necessary. During those unmentionable times I took it really hard. It just hurt to bad to do anything. The first couple of months were the worst, according to Charlie I was a zombie. Even with Edward back I'm not as complete as I was before he left. I'm afraid for the next time something happens that puts my life at risk, he might leave. He reassures me quite often that he will never leave again. There are some things that haven't gone back to normal since he's been back, I still have nightmares (but mostly when he is gone), and I still can't eat that much. Its not that I think I'm fat, cause I'm not, its just that food is not that appetizing anymore. But Edward can't know or he'll force me to eat and get better.
I know I have lost some weight, I used to be 110 now I'm 87, but that's only a little.
Nothing is wrong with me, I'm just not that hungry, but Edward would not understand that. He would overreact like he always does, and probably watch me like a hawk, or force feed me if it came down to it. Its so ridiculous how he makes everything a big deal. For instance, if I trip, we have to go see Carlisle incase I have any internal damage. And since I'm very clumsy we have made that trip a lot. I bet if Edward was still human he would have major worry lines. It was cute and nice at first, but now its kind of annoying.
Right now, I'm laying in my angel's arms, feeling content. The unmentionable times are locked away testing the barrier I've created. Waiting to break thru, whenever I was alone. Edward was softly humming my lullaby. His arms were getting close to the danger zone (a/n: her stomach) and a red flag went off in my mind. I grabbed his arms and shot up. He immediately let me go; worry in his eyes.
"Is everything ok, love?" he questioned
"I need a human moment," I said a little to quickly. I could sense that he knew I was lieing, but he wasn't about to comment. I booked it to the bathroom and turned the faucet on and broke down into tears.
After about 7 minutes, Edward was on the other side of the bathroom door, softly knocking.
"Bella, sweetheart, can I come in?" When I didn't respond he opened the door and quietly walked to my side. He knelt down and scooped me up in his arms bridal style. He carried me back to my bedroom; I was the first one to break the silence.
"I'm sorry," I mumbled, barely audiable.
"Love is everything alright?" Edward asked.
"Yes, of course, why would something be wrong?" I asked, trying to sound innocent.
"Your so jumpy lately, please tell me what's wrong. I want to help," he pleaded.
Hope you guys liked it so far. Next chapter Edward finds out. What will he do? Guess you will just have to wait…lol…Tell me what you think.
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