It's heartbreaking watching the one I love to marry someone else. It's like a hot knife slicing through my heart like butter on a hot day.
I don't know what to do with yourself, so I just continue with caring for my farm.
Maybe one day I could love someone else. Yet, I just wanted Gray.
Gray may have been mean to me when we first met, but he turned out to be the nicest person in the world. It hurt when Mary got to him before I could ask him to be mine. I would visit him every single day. I made him his favorite.
Baked corn.
I didn't want to give him the same thing every day. I changed it every once in awhile. Although the baked corn, I made sure was a tradition every Thursday. He was off from work at the Blacksmith. It was a little treat to reward him, for a job well done. He worked hard, and he knew I was proud of him. So the other gifts I gave him were random. It always consisted of the things he loved; branches, bread, cheese, corn, eggs, large fish, fried buckwheat noodles, mayonnaise, pizza, rice cakes, scrambled eggs, tomatoes, and wine. I would visit him as soon as he was done with work, that was usually around after I finished up on Rosebud Farm.
It was a bad habit, but after having long talks with him on the phone, walking along the beach in the summer it just felt right. My missing piece.
That was years ago. Mary and Gray have been married. We still talk, but the gifts slowed to a stop.
I go to the Inn, just to get drunk because the pain is too much.
The night is fuzzy, but I remember feeling close to someone.
A closeness I wished was with Gray.
That was a month ago.
Doctor as informed me that I am pregnant.
I may be the wealthiest person in Mineral Town, but could I really care for a baby?
I don't know the father of the baby. How can I not know?
I have to care for Rosebud farm. It's one of the most thriving farms in town. Everyone knows this.
My baby will come first. That is for sure.