I love him, but I must go now
I cannot ask for more.
I know he'd give his life for me,
But now this is my war.
I know he'll always care for me,
But he's far too hurt just now
For me to expect anything,
Though my life to him I forever vow.
From the day I first met him,
I knew for him I'd dare to Fall,
And now I wait out in the dark;
His name, all I can call.
I wish I could make things right,
For I might see him nevermore.
I just hope he'll forgive me someday,
Wish he'd grow to love me once more.
And maybe we'll soon meet again,
Or perhaps light years away.
My heart will still call for him,
Ever-pining for that day.
Even in the face of death, even in my very last breath,
I'll dwell on his memory,
Perhaps he'll someday hear of that,
And for all my sins, forgiveth me.
How I wish I could right my wrongs,
If I could go back in time,
Back to before, when I was his,
And him... Forever mine.
I truly now regret how I digressed,
But I swear I meant only well.
My sole desire was to save the man I love,
But I suppose even that could pave the road to Hell.
In my actions I became like him, insouciant,
Acting solely on inflated pride, thinking I couldn't be consequenced.
I should have told him all of this, he would stand by me,
He would've defended me to the death, my pride he would have fenced.
Regardless, now, it is too late.
What is done is done.
All that is left is to fight for my love,
By Light, this battle must be won.
And Dean, I will return someday,
Back to your embrace,
When I'm alive and good once more,
If that should be the case.
If you will have me back, I swear,
Our love will never die.
We can be together forevermore,
Love reflecting in our eyes.
I hope you know I love you Dean,
More than you could know.
I've always loved you and always will;
This I should have mentioned long ago.
I know you boys would have helped me out,
And I know that you are strong,
But I've already asked so much of you,
You've been fighting my battles far too long.
One day, Dean, I will come back
Under a triumphant sky,
And then we can be family again,
Never will my lips utter one more lie.
Time is dwindling now,
And I simply must go,
But just once more, I love you Dean,
And if anything, that is what I'd have you know.