Sorry for the mistakes. Not good in both speaking and writing in English.
Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach or any of its wonderful characters.
It was suppose to be a day of moving on, forgetting and letting go, but it all turned out to be the opposite.
I've decided, yes, I would completely erase him in my mind. I will forget all the things that remind me of him. I will move on for the good even if it means that I will move to another place and hide there for the rest of my life or worse even if it means to forget all of my friends.
This is the day, the day that I will say goodbye; the day that will end all this crazy thoughts of mine; the day that I will set him free; the day that I don't know if I can bear.
Let him go- why should I let him go if he isn't mine in the first place? You cannot let a person go if he isn't yours, only the person who owns his heart has the right which is obviously not me. Rukia owns him, Ichigo is all hers.
I really envy her. I hope for just one time I can be like her. She can make Ichigo happy by doing nothing. I think if Ichigo will choose between a picture of me in the loveliest dress and a picture of Rukia in her most embarrassing moment, I think Ichigo will prefer Rukia's. Anything with Rukia will make him happy, will make him smile.
His smile, it is the most beautiful picture that my eyes have perceived, it is the picture that takes my breath away. Unfortunately, I'm not the reason of it. It is hers. Me, I'm just a friend, no right to be jealous and of course no right to be the reason of his smile.
This morning, I gave him a letter.
"Uhmm, Ichigo," I said while playing with my fingers.
"What is it Orihime? Is something wrong?" he asked.
"Please accept this!" I cried, handing him the letter.
"Uh, okay."
I never looked at Ichigo. I kept my eyes off him. I don't want to see his expression, what I'm doing now is so humiliating. He would think that I'm courting him or whatsoever! But his voice, I could tell that there is suspicion in it. Suspicion? But why? Ohh! This is so bad! Calm down Orihime, calm down, you're just paranoid.
Nonsense things occupied my mind on that moment. I cannot think normally, all I knew was I should do this task for myself. I should think of myself because this past few months all I think about is him. I'm not a strong person. I'm this sensitive girl whose heart is so fragile and and, and I'm not like Rukia.
I took a deep breath and looked at him, I don't know where I got the courage to stare at him but maybe it's when I argued with myself.
"I'll go now, I'm going to meet Tatsuki at the bookstore, she'll be angry if I didn't come on time." I made the most selfish excuse of all, I only think of myself and what's worse is that I got Tatsuki involved in this craziness of mine. I pretended to run but I was surprised when I felt a hand stopped me. When I looked back I saw Ichigo looking at me seriously. I never saw him looked at me like that, his eyes were full of… determination.
"Orihime," he said, his eyes fixated at me.
"Y-e-s." I was so damn nervous. I can't stand to be like this with him. Eye to eye with his hand still touching mine. If I could only make the time stop I'll surely do it now and would never make it run again. Ichigo grinned and said
"That's not the way to the bookstore."
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