It was the night before 'the big day'. All in the family were about to prepare for tomorrow. Tomorrow would my little girl no longer be Renesmee Cullen, she'll be Renesmee Black. I couldn't understand how this day could come this soon. It feels like yesterday I held her in my arms the first time. But if I consider how long I've been on earth and that she was born only eight years ago, it was yesterday. But I have also known that this day would come in eight years, so it surprised me how bad it really feels. Tonight will be the last time Nessie sleeps at home with us, in her own bed, in her own room. Last time me and Bella may stop on her and kiss her good night. I don't know what to do after tomorrow, when I'm not a dad the same way anymore. Tomorrow when I've left her to Jacob Black.
"What are you thinking, Edward?"
Bella stood by my side and took my hand.
"Nothing special"
I looked down to my feet, afraid to meet Bellas glance.
"Edward, don't be silly. I know you better than that. And please, stop thinking that way. We'll don't lose her"
I shook my head and didn't know what to say.
"You know that Jacob is able to take care of her and he will. She'll be just fine"
I signed.
"I know"
I hugged Bella tight. We would at least have each other, even if our lifes will be empty without Ness with us.
"It's gettin' late"
I nodded and turned around to call for Nessie.
"RENESMEE! It's time to go home"
Only a few seconds later she came and stood in front of us. We said goodbye to the rest of the family and walked out through the door. Then we started running to our cottage in the forest.
"Time for bed"
We walked with her to her room.
"I'll be right back"
We nodded and Nessie turned away to her bathroom to change clothes and brush her teeth.
"I will miss this. All those nights. All those fairytales"
It felt like I would die tomorrow.
"Me too"
How could Bella take this so good? It's her daughter to and we'll lose her! No, don't think that way Edward. You will not lose your daughter. Ever.
"You look like you are in deadly pain, Edward"
I am.
"It's not that bad"
Bella looked at me.
"Are you sure?"
I nodded.
"Whats the matter daddy?"
Renesmee stood by my side. She had changed to her pajamas. She was beautiful and I smiled at her.
"It's nothing"
Renesmee looked at me and I could see that she didn't believed me.
"Time for bed, honey"
Bella interrupted us and grabbed Nessies hand. They walked towards the bed and I followed them.
"Goodnight sweetie"
Bella tucked her into the bed and kissed her forehead while I was sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I'm waiting for you in the living room"
I nodded and Bella left the room and closed the door behind her.
"Daddy, whats wrong?"
Renesmee looked up at me with her big chocolate brown eyes.
"My little girl has grown too fast"
I stroked her cheek with my hand.
"You're not my little girl anymore"
"I'll always be your little girl"
I smiled.
"I'm glad to hear it. But it'll never become as it were. Tomorrow you'll belong to Jacob"
She shooked her head.
"I'll always belong to you and momma. You're my parents. Without you I wouldn't be here. You're the best parents in the whole world and I'll always love you more than everything else"
My beautiful Renesmee. How could a person love someone this much? I'll crack of all the love I feel for my girls. Bella and Renesmee, my everything.
"I love you more than you ever could love me"
I saw in her face that she wanted to protest but I interrupted her before she even got a chance to start.
"Do you remember last year when you and Jacob started dating?"
She nodded.
"You were really angry"
"I hope you know that it was only because I love you too much and are so afraid to lose you"
"You'll never lose me, daddy"
We both smiled.
"Do you remember half a year ago, when you came home and told me that you would get married?"
She nodded.
"You took it better then expected"
I laughed.
"That night you wanted me to learn you how to dance"
"And you did. Now I can dance almost as good as you"
She smiled and I could feel my heart melt.
"Daddy?"
She sat up in bed and I looked at her. Bella had taught her to conceal her thoughts to me so I couldn't hear what she was thinking. She stood up and looked at me with a huge smile. Then she stretched out one hand to me.
"May I have one dance, Mr Cullen?"
I smiled and grabbed her hand.
"Of course, Miss Cullen"
I stood up and put my second hand on her waist and began to dance around with her.
She spins and she sways to whatever song plays,
Without a care in the world.
And I'm sittin' here wearin' the weight of the world on my shoulders.
It's been a long day and there's still work to do,
She's pulling at me saying "Dad I need you!
There's a ball at the castle and I've been invited and I need to practice my dancin'"
"Oh please, daddy, please!"
"It doesn't feel like so long time ago you were little and I danced around with you while you was standing on my feets"
"It was fun. You've always been and will always be the best daddy in the world"
So I'll dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Oh I'll dance with Cinderella
I don't wanna miss even one song,
Cuz all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone
"It's an honor to be your daddy"
"It's an honor to be your daughter"
She says he's a nice guy and I'd be impressed
She wants to know if I approve of the dress
She says "Dad, the prom is just one week away,
And I need to practice my dancin'"
"Oh please, daddy, please!"
"Did you had to grow so fast?"
"It's not my fault, daddy"
I love when she calls me it. Daddy.
So I'll dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Ohh-oh ohh-oh, I'll dance with Cinderella
I don't wanna miss even one song,
Cuz all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone
She will be gone
"You know you're the best thing that ever happened to me"
"To be your and mommas daughter is the best thing that ever happened to me"
Well, she came home today
With a ring on her hand
Just glowin' and tellin' us all they had planned
She says "Dad, the wedding's still six months away
but I need to practice my dancin'"
"Oh please, daddy please!"
"I love you Ness"
"I love you dad"
So I'll dance with Cinderella
While she is here in my arms
'Cause I know something the prince never knew
Ohh-oh ohh-oh, I'll dance with Cinderella
I don't wanna miss even one song,
(even one song)
Cuz all too soon the clock will strike midnight
And she'll be gone
I finished the dance and lifted her up instead and carried her to her bed.
"Daddy, I can walk on my own"
She giggled.
"I'm not a little girl anymore"
I ignored her and tucked her into the bed.
"Goodnight, my cinderella"
I kissed her forehead.
"Goodnight daddy"
She gawk.
"I love you"
"I love you too"
I picked her cheek one last time and started walking towards the door. I had just turned off the light and was going out the door when I heard her voice.
"Daddy?"
I turned around to the bed where my daughter was.
"Yes?"
"I will always be you little girl"
If I had a few tears, they had flowed down from my cheeks right now.
Song: Cinderella - Steven Curtis Chapman
