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Hi! So, this is my first fanfic. Rewival left me with many reflectoins about Rory and her story so i decided to fix it and start writing. In other fandoms i saw a lot of timetravel fics but no one in GG. This fic will be a kinda of timetravel. And the last: i'm not native english speaker and don't have beta yet. So if you are beta and you like this story and want to edit it plz send me PM.
-Yes, right there - Logan lowers his hands, sadly smiles and leaves behind the boys. Rory looks after him, as if extending the picture from a mental farewell, and then looks round the foyer and smiles sadly. Yes, right there the picture of this Logan's departure feels final, but doesn't become less sad. Sitting on the windowsill and admiring the coming dawn, she talked for a long time with herself why it should be done, why it would be right for the two of them. The decision to leave seemed the most logical and reasonable, prolonging this agony seemed to hurt them and other people involved in this mess even more. But, now having done this, saying goodbye to him, seeing how he leaves it the second time, it no longer seems the best way out. Rory sadly looks back for the last time to the place where she for the second time in her life said goodbye to the love of her life and goes to the door.
The taxi already waits for her and having confirmed to the driver the destination Rory continues her reflections. Disobedient memory, as if in an old film shows her moments with Logan: starting from the first meeting at the coffee stand, where he seemed to her a spoiled idiot, their argument before the door of her hostel, where he defended his right to be a snob, the event of Life and Death Brigade, where she jumped with him from the scaffold, don't know him well, but already trusting him, their dance on renewing the vows of her grandparents, the moments of their short but happy life together, and finally, the way he looked at her by pronouncing his proposal, and then persuading her to accept, jump with him again. Why did she say no? Ten years ago, before her graduation, after refusing to NYT, she felt insecure, not knowing what would happen next, moving without a plan. The idea of a wide open future and a lot of doors in front of her at the same time attracted and frightened her. It seemed that adding to this equation marriage would bring only chaos and closing the most exciting options forever. Rory smiles bitterly, watching the speeding outside views. She is immensely sorry that she didn't think that without Logan, his love and faith in her, all these opportunities become uninteresting. Ten years later, sitting in a taxi after parting, she can honestly admit this to herself. And then there's Lorelai. A few years after the offer and refusal, when her mother felt that the wounds were already healing, she told Rory how Logan came to ask her to bless her for a marriage. Considering all this a matter of a profound past, she was not shy in expressions, not realizing how painful it was for her daughter. The knowledge that Logan, in spite of, to put it mildly, had a difficult relationship with her mother knew her enough, in order to understand how important it would be for her to receive the blessing from her mother and came and wasn't afraid to come straight to the lion's den to get it brought a new wave of pain, love for him, and regrets. Rory remembers how unpleasantly she was then struck by Lorelai's attitude toward this: with that disparaging face she was telling about this and how in the end she repeated with a satisfied smile that she made the right decision when she said no. She knows that her mother has a long and difficult relationship with the higher society from which she escaped and despite all the words she said years ago about the fact that for her daughter she will try to unite the worlds she has never been able to eradicate the negative attitude towards her world parents and Logan. Years ago, Rory seemed that it wasn't too important, and her mother's diligent efforts didn't upset her, but after the grandfather's funeral and the outbreak in the cemetery this summer, the depth of anger that her mother had carried through the years unpleasantly stung her. Rory knew from the beginning that Lorelai doesn't like Logan, although she never made an attempt to recognize him, to see the man behind the facade of the self-assured boy he showed. None of her boyfriend didn't cause her mother such rejection as Logan. God even had a relationship with Dean 3.0 received more approval than her relationship, and then a joint life with Logan.
Finding out in a few years that Lorelai knew what Logan was going to offer, Rory remembered and reassessed some of her mother's words a week before her end and fiasco offer. Unfortunately, this could not change anything.
Faced with Logan in Hamburg and proposing this stupid Vegas agreement, Rory deliberately didn't say anything to her mother, knowing exactly what kind of reaction and consequence it would cause. Despite the fact that Lorelai Gilmore vehemently denied any of her similarities with Emily Gilmore in treachery and hidden manipulation, she was the true daughter of her mother, and sometimes surpassed her. Not wanting to face the condemnation of her mother, Rory remained silent about her meeting and about all the subsequent ones.
Sitting in a taxi, Rory sadly sighs and shakes his head. All these reflections will not change anything. Logan marries a French heiress and will carry out a dynastic plan, and she will return to Stars Hollow and will write her book and try to forget about him. Suddenly, the driver starts screaming and turning the steering wheel. Falling Rory sees as they continue to carry a clearly lost control car and hear the sound of a blow. That's all- she thinks- how stupid my life ends. If everything could be changed ... She feels a sharp pain and her consciousness fades.