Title: Her Motive
Author: Riley Green
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Pairing: Martin/Sam Eventually
Rating: PG-13
Summary: She needs to save them all.
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My mother is a hero.
Sure, not in the traditional sense of the word. At least not the kind of hero I remember from the cartoons we used to watch on Saturday mornings.
She can't fly, she doesn't have X-ray vision, she's certainly not super-human but she is a hero all the same.
She saves people.
Sometimes from their own family, sometimes from complete strangers and sometimes even from themselves.
I watch her with a sense of pride, an aching delight that bursts from inside me when all signs point to a dead end and she gets that look on her face that I know so well.
It's a look that promises this is not the end.
She has not given up.
She never does.
And sometimes she wins, rewarded with a resolution that lets her go home at night and smile, sleep peacefully.
Other times there's no end, an open book, an unfinished story that leaves her angry that she doesn't have the power to do more, find them all.
The worst is death. A resolution that leaves neither a sense of relief nor a sense of hope. It's a slammed door, the final credits, and a sworn promise written on her own heart that tomorrow she's going to find the next one alive.
I wish then that there's someone to save her. Her own knight in shining armor to kiss away her tears and promise her brighter tomorrows.
Who knows, maybe one day there will be. Right now, she's all alone though. But it won't be long.
I wonder sometimes what compelled her to do this.
It's something I never asked but I wish I had.
What pushed her to put her life on the line, to unravel the webs of stranger's lives, to discover their secrets?
Especially when she's harboring so many of her own.
In my heart I believe I know why she does it all.
Why she chose the job, why she invests so much in every single case, why when it all seems to be falling apart she can't give up, won't give up.
Who is she doing all this for really? Is it all for the victims and their families? Is helping complete strangers what it's all about? She's compassionate but I know there's more to it.
Is it just a job that pays the bills and gives her a sense of purpose? She had to do something with her life right?
Maybe it's a way of proving to all those disbelievers that Samantha Spade has amounted to so much more than anyone ever thought she would. She has, but she's never been one to live her life trying to make other people happy.
Perhaps it is really for her.
Is she trying to escape the demons of her past by making a difference in the future? Is she trying to save every family she meets, the agony she knows only too well herself?
That's what it's really all about for my mother.
She needs to save them all.
Because in the end…she couldn't save me.