I can remember the first time I cried.
"I never could let myself cry after that... until he died... he was the first one to look through my hard shell and see the pain inside" Gaz's POV surprise ship
I can remember the very first time I cried. It was when my mom died. Standing at her grave... I could do nothing but cry. At that moment I then wiped my tears and buried my pain deep inside my heart. I vowed to myself I would never cry again. When dad had no time for me I didn't cry. When dad was in a coma for 2 months I refused to cry. When I broke my arm I didn't cry but that all changed when he died.
Sure he was crazy, slightly out of whack but what can I say I loved him more then anything. It's hard to imagine that for years I ignored him. For years I could care less about him. He was my brothers obsession, his every waking moment. I can't tell you how many times I went to the bathroom at 4 am and saw Dib staring blankly looking for anything he could find.
All of my buried pain built up throughout the years, it caused me to be externally hateful and angry.. he was the fist and only one to look through my hard shell and see the pain i held inside. I could throw up any wall I could against him and all it did was draw him closer to me. Which made me love him even more.
He was the most brilliant Irken I had ever met he had brains; he was not ruled fully by his pak he was able to think for himself. He was the only person I could ever love.
When he died a part of me died with him.
Tallest Red will remain forever in my heart
He He told you it was a surprise. Maybe a longer fan fiction later idk tell me what you think.