Oh God…these people…they've done so much for me. I shot them down so many times, I was too petrified by fear and the notion that I might have to serve Arlong forever was slowly starting to feel like reality. They were the best things to happen to me other than the people in my village and I almost completely ran them out to dry. Oh god…I'm a bitch, I'm a whore, I'm a harlot, I'm a wench, I'm a moron, I'm a slut, I'm a no-good goddamn cunt! Yet, through it all, they still welcomed me like nothing happened.
I had this dream last night, I was ten again. This rich man shows up in a carriage, his face was shadowed by the top hat he was wearing, and I run up to him and point a knife at him. The man just picks me up tries to carry me like a baby, saying things like "That kind of life shouldn't be for you." All I could do was to scream and stab and slash him repeatedly, but he didn't seem to be affected by it. Eventually he carried me to this luxurious mansion and just said that it was now mine and all problems I had will be taken care of. It made no sense why this random man, who was just enduring me trying to stab him, would give me everything. I look at the man again, it's Luffy. He just smiled at me and said "Everything's going to be alright." All I could do was cry and embrace him.
And I just said the magic word. Sorry log, there are going to be some wet spots on you. All I wanted to do tonight was to go to my new nakama and just give them a big thank you, but right now I'm just going to bawl. I'm just gonna cry my eyes out until I feel good enough to talk to them all. I think it'll be a good thing, since I'm pretty sure once I see Luffy again I'll go hysterical.
Luffy, Zoro, Usopp, Sanji, thank you so very very much.