Diary,
Love. One word. Four letters. A single syllable. All around me people are professing their love for one another. It comes in many different forms, parental, sibling, friendly, 'true love'. Everywhere I turn people are falling in love, staring into each others eyes, smiling big goofy smiles.
I'd never had that, I was always the third wheel, or moving from one meaningless relationship to the next. Never finding that connection and passion that everyone always describes in relation to their lover. I don't know why. Was I broken? Had my conception tainted me? Made me incapable of love? I used to think the answer was yes...
That is until she glided into my life. I'll never forget the first time she strode into the precinct, everyone looked up at the now signature sound of her heels. When she walked through that door I was a goner. In that moment I saw nothing but her, total tunnel vision. Her long legs that seemed to go on for days; her gorgeous, shimmering golden hair; the skirt suit that fit her curves like a glove; her natural beauty. Just everything about her screamed elegance and beauty, everything I'm not nor ever will be. When our eyes locked for the first time something happened, there was this instant connection, I just felt this need to get to know her. Opposites really did attract for us.
In the beginning, I'll admit, we had our fair share of very passionate arguments. At the time she just seemed so cold against the victims, very much by the book law. I'm the exact opposite, anything to get justice for the victims.
I'll never forget the first time I entered Alex's office to find her softly crying, she tried to hide it of course, she had to keep up her 'ice princess' facade. But I'd seen it. Seen that compassionate, loving, human side of her. From then on, I made more effort with her, and before long we were the best of friends. That earlier connection grows stronger by the day. I can't do anything about this though no matter how much I just want to take her in my arms and kiss her. The mere thought of her rejection and loss of friendship breaks my heart in a way I've never before felt...