What Are You Doing?
By elderwitty
A/N: Trying to keep juices flowing while working on something longer. Pre-pilot.
Disclaimer: I own nothing but the two cats who own me...and 86 folding fans.
Waiting
Waiting for spirits to show, silver to cool in bullet molds, for wounds to heal. For Sam or Dad to come to his senses and…not apologize 'cause that won't happen, but maybe compromise. Not likely either. Waiting for something to make sense.
Wanting
Wanting this to last forever. To call Dean and share, but the gulf is routine now. To not fumble the ring when I ask. Wanting both worlds on my terms and knowing it will never happen.
Watching
Sammy's smile is bright and wide and keen as the blade of a great knife. It cuts deep and doesn't hurt - but then it does because I haven't seen it in so long and I realize he had to leave us to find it again.
Willing
Willing to slip away and ignore Dean's increasingly anxious voicemails. To do what it takes to break Sam away from false security. They'll only be safe together.