A/N: So I haven't done any fanfiction in quite some time and this chapters probably a bit rusty but go easy. I hope you enjoy it. depending on how many reviews i get, chapter two may be up shortly.
My first few months at Dartmouth were sort of a drag. Sure I was happy, I spent ninety-five percent of my days with Edward and I'd never wanted it to change.
But something had been seriously bugging me.
I was homesick.
I missed Charlie and Renee and most importantly-Jacob Black.
My best friend and my other love. My pleasure and my pain.
He was in each and every thought I had. I always thought that all I needed to be happy was Edward but I was wrong.
I never realized or even thought of how much I would miss Jacob when I moved, and when I was no longer human.
I couldn't even bare to stand the thought of what my immortality would do to Jacob…
I knew it would hurt, but the problem was that I didn't have the strength to let him go, I couldn't say goodbye.
I thought about the promise Carlisle had made me.
He asked me if I was ready and I had said "no" emotionless.
This made Edward happy and if he could read my thoughts. He'd understand that it wasn't only for him. But to keep Jacob in my life, if not forever than a little bit longer…that was all I needed.
I was torn in half. Between my love for the beautiful, unselfish, understanding Edward Cullen, and my love for Jacob Black; my savor, my protector.
"Stop it!" I screamed. "You're hurting him!!!" I looked around helplessly;
I didn't even know who it was that the vampire was beating to a bloody pulp.
My heart ached in my chest as I heard a light whimper escape from the creature lying mangled on the ground.
"No…" I whispered. I didn't have the slightest hint of fear in me.
I didn't care that a vampire stood no more than four feet away. I didn't care that he could attack me in any second.
Not my Jacob. I thought.
The vampire hissed enthusiasm resting over his face.
He picked up the mutilated wolfs head gently. I cried out in horror as I heard the sickening snap of his neck.
"My Jacob…" I mumbled falling to my knees in defeat. I clutched my chest hoping to stop the ripping at my heart.
My Jacob Black was----dead.
I woke up in a cold sweat screaming at the top of my lungs.
"No, no, no, no" I said between choking sobs. I felt cold fingers graze my cheek.
I threw my arms around him sobbing into his chest. "What happened?" He asked, worried.
"I saw….I saw it…it was so…real…Oh Edward…he broke his..." My words came out as mush.
I couldn't bear to speak the words. It was bad enough that the tragic dream was still replaying in my head time and time again.
I swallowed trying to remove the gigantic lump in my throat. It hurt considering how dry my mouth was.
Edward kissed me softly. "It was only a dream."
I shook my head mechanically. "No, it wasn't…" I whispered.
"It was Jacob." I muttered.
Edwards face stayed smooth. He never really reacted when I mentioned Jacob anymore.
I got up and grabbed my suitcase.
"What are you doing?" He asked surprise in his voice.
I smiled wryly. "I need to go make sure he's okay." I answered in a little more than a whisper.
"Okay. We'll leave tomorrow." He said, his soft velvet voice soothing me. I sighed heavily.
How was I supposed to say this? I'm sorry Edward but I'm going to go see my boyfriend without my fiancé? Ouch. When I put it like that it sounded terrible. Not to mention trashy.
"I…Edward…" I began. I closed my eyes exhaling. "I'm going to be staying in La Push so I'm going-alone." I told him firmly.
I noticed his right hand clench into a fist. "No." He objected. I walked over to him sitting on his lap;
I unclenched his fist and intertwined our fingers. "He needs me…" I said in a pleading voice.
"The Quiletes will be there, with me. You know they'll protect me." Edward was silent for almost 3 minutes.
"Breathe." I reminded him. Sometimes he forgot to when he was aggravated.
He smiled my favorite crooked smile but I saw the hurt in his eyes.
I looked away, I couldn't look at him when his pain shown through his eyes.
"I do trust the wolves. So…you can go. I won't interfere." He said the last part through clenched teeth.
"Thank you." I whispered kissing him deeply.
He grabbed me around my waist pulling me closer to him.
I broke the kiss quickly alarmed.
That was how Jacob had kissed me….and I didn't want to be reminded of it…..not by Edward…
He crinkled his brow. "I'm sorry." I smiled kissing him again sweetly.
I got up once again and went to my closet tossing anything and everything I had in the suitcase.
Edward stood behind me hands wrapped around my waist.
Firmly, but not enough to make me wonder…
I gasped as I felt the sudden trembling in his arms…his hands.
He did not want me to leave.
"I swear if you have one more thought of that vampire lover. I'm going to shoot you." Leah spat harshly.
Jacob ignored her. "Sorry…" He murmured.
All of Leah's cruel opinions didn't matter, nothing mattered-anymore.
Not since he'd lost his Bella. She was gone for good, a vampire now.
"There's no room for me in her heart…" He thought.
Leah snorted obnoxiously. "Jake…get a grip." She rolled her eyes.
"Shut the hell up Leah!" He shouted clenching his fists.
She folded her arms across her chest, raising an eyebrow. "You gonna hit me?" She asked amused.
Jacob stormed off in the other direction. "I'm going home." He said.
I sighed as I tossed my suitcase in the back seat. I now drove a black Ford fusion, mint-condition.
I did miss my old truck though. I had so many memories…I got in putting the keys in the ignition.
What the hell was I doing? I thought.
"I have to…just to see if he's alright." It wasn't that long of a drive back to forks, 3, 4 hours tops.
Edward stood outside my door. He ducked his head in my window giving me a million kisses.
"I'll miss you." He said smiling sadly.
"I'll miss you more. I'll be back…soon." What had gotten into me?
For the longest time I couldn't stand going an hour without being with Edward now I was leaving him for a completely different state?
When did things begin to change so much? When did my feelings begin to change so much?
I loved Edward more than life itself, it was true. But it wasn't quite the feeling of need anymore…it was…
I shook my head trying to clear my thoughts.
Stress over my soon to be husband was not what I wanted to think about right now.
I started the engine and drove off, heading back to the little town of La Push, Washington, back to my lonely wolf.
"Get your ass up. No more moping. We need to go to Seattle. Now." Sam's voice was stern in Jacobs head.
He turned over on his stomach digging his face in his pillow. "Leave me alone…" He responded
"Look man, we're sorry about Bells. But it's over with. Maybe you should focus on finding your imprint." Embry's voice was in his head now.
Focus on his imprint? Yeah right, what if his human side already interfered with that?
As far as Jake was concerned, his imprint did not exist
"Please, Jake?" Seth asked, begging.
Jacob rolled his eyes. He got up off the bed "Where should I meet you guys?"
"The Forest." Sam said.
The streets were darker than usual in Seattle the four wolves walked cautiously through the streets.
"What happened?" Jake asked not filled in on the whole story.
"Leah was…attacked." Sam said closing his eyes.
It was so painful for him to think of her, let alone look at her.
He made Leah so many promises, they had so many dreams, and then, he broke her heart
"What if…I do that to Bella?…what if I do find an imprint…but why do my instincts tell me that it's Bella?" Sam turned his gaze to Jacob as they walked.
"You're in love with her Jake; the irrational part of your mind won't accept anything. She's…She's not coming back."
Sam tried to tell him in the nicest way possible but it still made his blood boil.
That was a blow to the chest. It felt as if someone was taking a knife and tearing his heart to shreds.
"Where are these stupid mutts?!" Jake shouted.
He growled under his breath before transforming. The others did the same.
Jake howled at the moon. A sad, heart wrenching howl. All the pain and agony he felt was heard when he howled.
The pain he felt was unbearable.
Bella slammed on her breaks as her heart broke. She heard a faint howl, she knew the howl, and it was the same agonizing howl she heard when she and Edward were at the campsite.
She held her breath as she stepped on the gas. "Jake…" she muttered.
The pack stopped in front of the alley.
They saw the eyes of there enemies, seven wolves stared back at them in the darkness.
Jacob growled, ready to pounce.
Jacob walked to the head of the pack snapping his teeth and growling.
The Alpha male of the other pack stepped forward. He pounced on Jacob tearing gigantic pieces of fur and skin from his body.
"NO! JAKE!" Embry said through his thoughts.
"Don't….go…" Jake told them.
Jacob twisted his body so that his razor sharp teeth were near at least a part of the Alpha.
Jacob took a quick chunk out of the alphas leg.
The Alpha growled deeply. He took his gigantic paw, crushing Jacobs' chest and took a bite out of Jakes neck.
He was quick and swift about it.
Jacob whimpered as his vision blurred.
The last thing he saw was another wolf smashing into the Alpha.
"Take him home." Sam ordered, Embry was one of the biggest and it was trouble getting Jacob on him when he was in his werewolf form.
The pack helped nudge Jacob onto Embry's back.
"Hurry." Sam said. And with that, Embry disappeared.
My heart accelerated as I entered the tiny town of La Push.
I wondered what time it was. "6:30…" I said instinctively looking at my stereo clock.
"I'm not too early or late…they should all be at home or hanging out, La Push isn't big…I'll find them no problem." It began to rain as I sped down the wet slick roads.
I'd forgotten the rain situation in this part of Washington.
I swallowed. Exhaling slowly.
There it was Jacobs little house…his garage…him.
I closed my eyes as my heart tightened in my chest, as if it were about to explode.
What if he found someone else? What if?.…I shook my head.
"It doesn't matter." I lied to myself. So it was true, I really was a bad liar.
I pulled up in the Blacks' driveway slamming my car door and running through the rain.
I rang the door bell once…twice…nothing. For some odd reason I began to worry, fear crept into me.
I banged on the door loudly.
After waiting for at least 5 minutes standing in the pouring rain getting completely soaked, I gave up.
"Sam's…" I told myself, running back to my car.
I jumped out of the car the second I pulled into the driveway.
I was desperately in need-I needed to know Jacob was okay, that he was alive. I needed to touch him…hug him…feels his strong hands around my waist.
I rang the door bell and was relieved when Emily answered the door almost immediately.
"Hi, Bella." She greeted me, surprised.
She laughed happily, "It's like seeing a ghost!" She said cheerfully.
I smiled as she opened her arms to hug me. I accepted the offer.
"Come in." She said. I walked in and sat down impatiently.
"Sam!" Emily shouted up the stairs.
He came running down and I noticed his reaction to seeing me. His jaw dropped in surprise.
"I never thought I'd see you again." He straightened up his expression trying to seem casual.
I didn't respond.
"Where's Jacob?" I asked the impatience seeping through my voice.
Sam cringed at my question. I knew that look. I knew it.
The tears welled up in my eyes uncontrollably.
"No Bells, no…he's…not…" Sam said coming to my aid and running a comforting hand up and down my back.
"Why are you here?" He asked curiously.
"I needed to see him…" I whispered.
Sam took a step back. He closed his eyes. He's at home…but…it's not pretty Bella." He told me, sadness drifting in those beautiful pools of blue.
"I need to see him." I said. I didn't care how terrible he looked; I didn't care if I couldn't handle it.
I needed to touch him…to hear his voice and see his smile.
"Where's Edward?" Emily asked curiosity and amazement in her voice.
I swallowed which seemed harder than usually. "I left…him." I said.
The words came out all wrong I hadn't left him…I just left him for a while, just to see if Jacob was okay.
"You did, did you?" Sam asked seeming a little pleased.
"Not exactly left him, but he won't be joining me." Sam nodded a grin still imprinted on his face.
"Hang on…I'm going to get Jake." Sam said.
He reached into Jacobs mind "Jake wake up." I stared at him casually.
I knew what he was doing. Sam huffed. "He's impossible to wake." I giggled. "Tell me about it." I agreed under my breath.
"There he is." Sam said smiling.
"mmm…what?"
"How you feeling?" Sam laughed looking at me, He's grouchy.
I shrugged still smiling. God, how I missed this. I missed the pack…and I missed my wolf.
"Go over there and surprise him." Sam said grinning from ear to ear.
"Doesn't he already know I'm here? I mean you guys can read each others thoughts."
Sam shook his head in disagreement. "We have the power to tap into each others mind while in our human form the only time we can see each others thoughts full time is when we're in our wolf form."
I stood up and took a deep breath.
Why was I so nervous? This was Jacob.
Emily and Sam about pushed me out of the house before I could even say bye.
"How long are you going to stay for Bells?" Sam asked.
I smiled happily.
"A while." I said as I got into my car and drove off to Jakes.
This time, I didn't bother knocking.
Obviously Billy was out fishing with my dad or he was over at Sues.
I opened the door quietly trying not to make to much noise.
I found my way up the stairs and peaked into Jakes room.
I gasped horrified at his condition. He had cuts and bruises all over him and some pieces of skin were missing… in certain spots, as if they were bitten off.
"Oh my god…" I whispered. Silent tears poured from my eyes.
I opened it just enough to squeeze my body through.
Jacob stirred in his sleep.
From the time I was gone, he got a much larger bed.
King sized. It took up most of his room.
Well, all of it actually, but he was a werewolf.
He didn't need anything but a bed. All his fun was outside of this house.
I couldn't stop the tears from coming as I looked down at his face.
Pain shown in every line…it was written all over his gorgeous face.
I noticed the gaping wound in his neck. I
thought I was going to be sick the second I saw muscle tissue and a little bone. But I was wrong.
At this moment, nothing bothered me. Not the smell of the blood or the mess of Jacob.
I wiped my tears and crawled into bed quietly my body facing his.
I looked at his facial features.
He was so extraordinary, beautiful in so many ways.
I grazed his cheek with the back of my hand…gently fondling him. "Wake up…Jake..." I whispered softly.
Our lips were no more than a breath apart.
"It's me." I breathed.
His eyes fluttered open at the sound of my voice. "Bella?" He questioned.
"I must be dreaming." He told himself sitting up.
He gritted his teeth in pain. Why wasn't he healing?
"Jake..." I said once again. Sitting up as well,
"No, you're only a dream." I smiled sadly; Did he really think I forgot about him that easily?
"Touch me. Hug me." I told him.
He shook his head.
"No, I don't want this dream to destroy me. It can't be real." He tried to convince himself.
I moved in closer to him. His face inches from mine.
"It's me." I said once again.
I placed my palm against his cheek stroking his jaw line with my thumb.
Shock struck his eyes as he placed his warm hand over mine.
"Bella." He whispered. I smiled nodding.
He removed his hand from mine and quickly in a rough yet gently manner grabbed me by my waist pulling him into his chest.
His hands tightened around my waist.
Not tight enough to hurt me. He embraced me.
I smiled through my tears.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"I needed to see you." I confessed.
He pulled me away, hands still on my waist smiling his obnoxious grin.
"Don't start." He shook his head. "I wasn't gonna say a word." He said.
I sighed. "I knew you'd miss me." He said finally.
I rolled my eyes, knowing it was coming. "Lay down your injured. You shouldn't talk when you're hurt." I said irritated.
He looked at me, his face more serious than I have ever seen it in my life.
The way he looked at me made my entire body shiver;
he looked at me with so much love in his eyes that I forgot how to breathe.
It was an intense, fiery look.
I'd never seen anything like it and it pleased me but at the same time made me tremble. "I missed you, too." He whispered.
A/N: Okay, so im no Stephanie Meyer but I guess i'm okay. and NO i dont hate Edward at all. I know it may seem like it in this story but that's misleading lol. I love Edward but its time for Jacob to shine. Edward gets all the lovin in the actual series lol you gotta kinda look at Jacob and say "poor guy, he just cant win" lol so i decided to write a fanfic about him n Bella.