It's funny that after not hearing my name for so many years it would finally pass someone's lips as an insult. They cursed my name as they brought up the defeat of Lelouch and his knight. Our defeat they called it Lulu. They would never see our victory, our sacrifice. You would never have let them. You never wanted to be seen for what you really were Lulu. You were our savior Lelouch. Even if it is never known.
I do not feel the pain the curse would have once brought me. Your mask has made me strong Lulu. No, you made me strong Lelouch. I won't deny that anymore. I was meant to be your knight the moment we met.
We were just children playing a child's game, but it foretold our future. You asked me to be your knight and protect you from Nunnally's wrath after you had eaten her last cupcake. I had laughed as I agreed. Of course I would be my Prince's knight. We pretended to run from her slow pace and I ended up falling on you as we ran down hill. I landed with my toy sword jammed into your side and you gasping to regain your breath. I had wept fake tears and muttered I had killed my prince.
You looked up at me with distant eyes Lulu. Did you see the moment the wood in your side was replaced by steel and the instant when your gasping for breath would be too hard for your lungs to continue? I'll never know Lulu.
The man curses the name Suzaku Kururugi not realizing that although Suzaku Kururugi is not dead, no one bears that name anymore. Not since the night before your death Lulu. You had called me into your chambers and told me to sit on the edge of your bed. I had obeyed without question. We had been together so long I had thought you intended to make love to me one last time. I never expected you to drop on one knee and hold out a ring. Not just any ring either, you were giving me a wedding ring. I had never been so shocked, not even the day you made me promise to kill you. You said the words I'd never thought I'd hear come from your lips. I never dreamed you'd get the chance after I made my promise. I was no better then a girl right then, pulling you into a bone crushing hug and screaming yes over and over again. Though we were never acknowledged by any church or law I considered you my husband from that moment on Lulu.
So now when people curse my old name I don't feel any resentment or pain. Because from that night on I was no longer Suzaku Kururugi. I was Suzaku Vi Britannia, the proud husband of Lelouch Vi Britannia.
Even if you were the only one to ever call me that.
Any comments on this? This is my first Code Geass story and I'm so nervous! Please review and tell me what you think!
Yours truly,
Jessica499499