MISSING HIM

All I wanted to do was talk to him. But after all those months of being cruel and cold to him, he refused. I don't blame him for refusing either. I just don't know how to express my feelings towards him, I've never felt this way about another person before. If only he'd talk to me.

What the hell was he thinking, asking me to talk to him. After all those times he was rude and degrading to me. I still can't believe he even had the audacity to approach me like that. Well he doesn't know anything about me. And that's the way it's going to stay.

It was another day at school and Joey was headed to class when he bumped into Kaiba. He glared at the brunette before continuing on. He had avoided Kaiba ever since the blue eyed boy had asked to talk to him.

Joey walked into first period and took his seat. He sat next to Kaiba, which didn't help when he was trying to avoid the said person. He was glad that Kaiba wasn't in the classroom though.

Kaiba entered the classroom a couple minutes after Wheeler. He still really wanted to talk to Joey. He took his seat and stared at the blond.

"Do you need something? Is my hair out of place?" growled Joey.

"Will you talk to me like a civilized human being?" asked Kaiba.

"Oh my god, did Kaiba just call me human and to think I was going to be a dog my entire life," said Joey.

"I'm serious Wheeler," said Kaiba.

"And why in the world would you want to talk to me?"

"Well if you'd listen to me, I'd tell you."

"And why should I listen. For all I know you could be lying and just want to put me down like always."

"Okay fine, let's deal. We play a round of dice and whoever wins gets to do as they please. I win you listen to me talk. You win I don't talk to you ever again."

"I'm not dealing with the likes of you," said Joey.

"Damnit Wheeler! I need to tell you something, and it's hard enough thinking about telling you and if I don't tell you soon, I'll going to kill myself," growled Kaiba.

"The great Seto Kaiba killing himself, that would be interesting. And when exactly did you decide to graduate from calling me a dog to calling me by my last name?"

"Fine forget everything I just said," snarled Kaiba.

Joey thought it was odd that Kaiba had been so persistent about talking to him and was now giving up.

"Fine," said Joey, "What is it that you want to tell me?"

Seto didn't answer. He wanted to see how Joey liked being ignored, probably didn't bother the blond any, since he had ignored Joey in the past.

"Kaiba..." said Joey staring at the brunette.

"You want to know," said Kaiba, "Then come with me."

Kaiba got out of his seat and walked out into the hallway. Joey got up and followed. Class wasn't going to start for another twenty minutes so he had time. Once out in the hallway, Kaiba grabbed Joey's chin and kissed him. Joey's eyes widened and he pulled away.

"What in the fuck!" Joey snarled.

"That's what I wanted to tell you," said Kaiba, "I love you."

Joey just stared at Kaiba momentarily before bursting into laughter.

"You're kidding?" laughed Joey, "Kaiba loves a guy, Kaiba's gay!"

Kaiba felt everyone's eyes on him. He grit his teeth to hold back the onslaught of tears. He didn't know what to do.

"Well I'm sorry Kaiba, but I'm not gay, and I don't like guys," said Joey.

"I should have never told you," said Kaiba as a tear rolled down his face, hitting the floor. He turned and left the school. He couldn't be there after that scene in the hallway.

"Joey that wasn't very nice," said Te'a at the lunch table later that day.

"Hey Kaiba brought it upon himself," said Joey.

"You're more like Kaiba than you think," said Yami, sitting across from Joey.

"Are you comparing me to him?" asked Joey.

"You assume to know Kaiba and you don't. He cares about you and that's why he's mean to you. He doesn't know how to express his feelings for people and when he did today, you crushed all his hope of expressing his feelings ever again," said Yami.

"And?" said Joey.

"As much as Kaiba insults you and degrades you, you don't have the right to treat him like that. I believe you should apologize to him," said Yami.

"You're crazy," said Joey as he got up and left the table, he didn't have to listen to that.

Kaiba lay on his bed face down. His tears soaking his pillow. It wasn't fair, the one time he expresses his feelings and that happens. It wasn't fair, none of it. The phone rang but he ignored it. He didn't want to talk to anyone.

There was a knock on his door before it opened. In walked his father. Everyone thought that his father was gone, dead, disappeared. But he wasn't. He was alive, well, and kicking. And Kaiba knew exactly why he was in here.

"Aren't you a little old to be crying boy," said Gozaboro (spelling?).

"Yes," answered Seto as he sat up, wiping the tears off of his face and from his eyes.

"You know why I'm in here?"

"Yes."

"Well then?" said Gozaboro as he approached Seto and pinned the boy to the bed.

"Please, not tonight," begged Seto.

"I've been leniant the past few days, but I'm not going to be tonight. I think I've waited long enough," said Gozaboro.

"Don't...please..." said Seto struggling to get away.

Gozaboro rolled Seto onto his stomach and yanked down his pants.

"Father..." begged Seto, trying hard not to cry.

"Shut up," said Gozaboro as he pulled down his own pants and slammed harshly into his son.

Seto cried out in pain and his hands gripped the covers of the bed. Tears streamed down his face.

"Stop..." begged Seto, "Please..."

"I said be quiet," growled Gozaboro as he reached around to harshly stroke Seto.

Seto's body shook from the sobs he was holding back as he was forced to enjoy yet another abusive night.

"Doesn't it feel good?" said Gozaboro.

"Father..."

"Answer me!"

"Yes, sir," Seto forced the words out of his mouth.

"Good," said Gozaboro as he stroked Seto harder and sped up his pace.

Seto cried out yet again as he was forced to come. He could feel his father's seed spilling inside him and he once again felt dirty and violated. Gozaboro pulled out of his son, pulled up his pants and left. Seto pulled his pants back on and crawled into the bed. He tried to stop his tears, but failed, they just continued to fall...endlessly.

Joey touched the side of his face tenderly. His father definantly packed one hell of a punch when he was drunk. Joey was just glad he had gotten off with just a punch instead of the normal abuse. He looked in the mirror, now he had to tell his friends again that he was fine and that his father had just lost his temper. Only Yami knew the whole truth about Joey and the situation with his father.

"At least Kaiba doesn't know, he'd probably laugh at me," said Joey to the mirror.

He changed his clothes and climbed into bed, he yawned before turning off the light and going to sleep.