Hi

I know some might read this and think that this is totally not Melinda May but I still hope you enjoy it.

please R&R

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xx

Letter Goodbye

Coulson went around the bunker searching for Ward, Skye or May to find out of either of them knew what had happened to the Bus. Looking in the kitchen area he found an envelope with him name written on the front. He recognised the handing writing to be May's. In that second his heart dropped to his stomach. He had a feeling that it wasn't going to be good. Sitting down, he ran his fingers over the neatly written name before turning it over and opening the envelope. Taking out the paper inside, his heart start to beat faster from within his chest. There were so many thoughts running through his head as he took a deep breath and began to read the letter.

Philip,

I really don't know where to start. Maybe is should start with I'm sorry because I really am. When I heard that you had died, the world stopped turning for a moment. I thought I had lost my best friend, Phil. So when Fury came to me and told me you were alive and going to have you own team, I wanted to be on our team not because it was an order but because I wanted to make sure you were ok. I was telling you the truth when I told you I didn't know everything. The truth was I didn't want to know everything because what I already knew kept me awake every night. I know I should had told you that I was feeding everything back to Fury. However, I knew I moment I did that you would shut me out and I couldn't let you do that. We've been though so much together in the past 25 years that we've knew each other, I had to make sure you didn't fall down the rabbit whole.

Your probably reading this and thinking, why isn't she telling me all this herself? The reason for that is, I'm gone. I didn't know where I'm going but I'm sure I'll find the right place some day. Don't try to find me because you won't be able to. It's the right thing to do. I never thought I would ever walk away from SHIELD let alone you. But I have to do this. You and I both know there is no going back for us and for a brief moment I thought maybe, just maybe, we could get back to being us. Again I'm sorry for everything that I have done for you to lost your trust in me. This is really the best option for us though. If I was to have stayed then one of you might have said something we would have regretted.

One last thing I have to say and that is I've never stopped loving you. I don't thing I ever will but I have to, need to, let you go. My wedding rings are in the envelope, I think you should have them. Well defiantly the engagement one since it was your grandmothers. But No matter what happens from here on out, you will alway have a place in my heart.

Always yours

Mel x

Coulson wiped his tears and reached inside the envelope to take out his ex wife's rings. Holding them tightly in the palm of his hand. He wished he could just see her one last time, even if it was for just one moment, to tell her he was sorry for everything he had said and to also tell her- he had also never stopped loving her.