A/N: A song-fic/one shot about Alucrad's life before the Hellsing Organization.Thanks for reading and please review!
Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing or "My Immortal" by Evanescence; I am simply borrowing them for my evil purposes.
He shot up in his bed; unfortunately since his bed was a coffin his head connected with the hard stone above him.
Damn it all to hell! , he yelled out in his mind.
His frustration over the whole matter evident by the way he kept half-heartedly pounding his fist against the wall of the coffin.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
He was so sure that he'd finally forgotten about her. He should have by now it had been centuries ago.
But if he was honest with himself he knew that she would always be there at the in the back of his mind, lurking in the shadows to strike when he least expected it.
He knew that he would never forget his angel.
It was after-all an old saying that you never forgot your first love.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Flashback Start.
His fangs pierced the soft flesh of the woman under him.The control that had kept her safe for all these years had finally snapped in one moment of lust. The hundreds he had drained dry didn't matter because now he'd lost it.
She screamed out.
Her terrified scream broke the spell he was under. He pulled back slowly, shocked at what he'd done.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
She took this moment to run. She looked back only once.
He was there, arms outstretched as if asking her to forgive him and stay.
But the blood that dripped from his lips they said something entirely different to her. They screamed out to her that he had liked what he tasted and would do it again.
She loved him but she could not handle this… this monster in front of her.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
His heart shattered inside his chest as she turned from him to run again.
His knees crashed to the floor, he couldn't handle this either.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
He heard her faint whisper of, "I'm sorry." Her voice was so sweet, angelic almost.
Then he heard her bones break, flesh tear and the blood leave her body.
He felt sick.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
The tears came now. He realized what they had made him. He was a monster and would always be one. All he wanted was to protect his sweet angel from the monsters, but now he was the one that killed her.
Hunched over on the floor he sobbed and screamed out for the one he lost.
The sobs slowly gave way to laughter, as his sanity broke.
If they wanted a monster then they would get one.
His cruel laughter echoed through the countryside.
Flashback End.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Tears slowly trailed down his face.
He would always miss his angel and the heaven she provided, if only for a few short years.
But know was not the time to think on that he had work to do.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me