I'm Scared

I'm scared.
The elders take the lead.
Supposed to be so strong.
I'm scared
But we are failing
This war cannot be won
I'm scared

How can I hold anyone
When my heart is fit to break
I'm scared
And the foundations rattle
And our foundations shake.
I'm scared

And people come to me
For comfort in the blue
I'm scared
And I can't help them
When I need saving too
I'm scared

Why do I whisper platitudes?
Why do I smile when I cry?
I'm scared
Why do they look to me?
And how can I let them die?
I'm scared

It's dark outside and dark within
But people still have hope
I'm scared
And in the wrack and ruin
They can see me through the smoke
I'm scared

They see me and they smile
They know that I will win
I'm scared
But my body is nearly broken
And my comfort's wearing thin
I'm scared

They look at me, but I can't smile
Just close my eyes in pain
Their hope is turned to ashes
The ashes turn to rain.
I'm scared.

Don't look at me But still they do
And do so thus again,
I see their tears fall clearly
Even through the heavy rain.
I'm scared.

I'm meant to be a saviour
But saviours have no fear
I'm scared.

And they'll just have to face that:
I'm scared.