Disclaimer: I obviously am not J.K. Rowling, so therefore I did not invent any of her charactersand I'd be pretty pathetic if I said I had.
Note: This takes place after "The Egg and the Eye" in the Goblet of Fire-see what Snape is thinking when 'mad eye' Moody refers to Snape's old days as a death eateroh, there is most likely horrible speling, bad grammer, and lots of moping as well flashbacks, and gory stuff like that, Enjoy.
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"What, will these hands never be clean? No more of that, my lord, no more of that! You mar all with this starting" ~Lady Macbeth, act five
"He shall not live. Look, with a spot I damn him"~Mark Antony, act four
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Snape hurried up the stairs, shaken. Something was deffinitly going on. First, someone had broken into his office,now, Moody seemed to think something was up, too, however, that in itself said very little, yet there was also another issue: The Dark Mark. Ever since the summer it had been becoming more and more pronouced, whatever it meant, it wasn't good.
Snape shut the door to his room, wearily, he sank down onto his bed. "Some spots never come off," Snape gave an involintary shudder and clapsed down onto his matteress.
All around him the darkness closed in, the silence almost stifling. Snape turned over, dreading sleep, tonight, he knew there would be dreams.
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"HUNH!" Snape woke to compleate silence. He was breathing hard and his heart was beating like a drum. Moonlight was streaming into his room, it's cold, pale light making strange shapes on the wall. "In a world of darkness, there are no shadows to fear" Suddenly Snape felt very vunerable, and very, very, helpless. Oh god, why did I do it? What on earth made me do it? And then again, and again? Snape thought, vividly recalling the three deaths he'd caused. The first one, he hadn't known the man, just blew him to smitherines at a word. Dirinian, a fellow death eater turned spy, the same thing he was now, would poetic justice take hand and give him the same fate? And, Alosha, oh sweet Alosha, how could I have done that to you? HOW? What made me so stupid? What made me so cold? He han't used magic that time either. He could still see the blood, her blood all over his hands. "Please be sorry." Were her last words. Snape choked and pushed down a sob.
Snape shut his eyes. Stop thinking. "Severus, you can't believe this isn't happening"
Go away! Snape begged.
It's all going to come crashing down
.STOP IT! JUST STOP IT!
Snape squeezed his eyes shut even tighter.I try so hard, so-so hard.
Ohplease, Alosha, I am sorry, so very sorry now.
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'We all crumble under pressure."~Jon Davies of KoRn
"I just want to live again!"~Jon Davies of KoRn
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Soooooo, was that boring, or what? I don't know, I'm just really sick right now. Please review. Oh, and thanks for reading it, I was going for something a little bit shorter this time ;0)