Love is more than a word, it can mean more than what it seems regardless of the countless odds around me; something is just blocking my path to win her heart these days. It was like any other ordinary day, the usual schedule, practice my music at school all over and over with my undoubted passion for music that's been more than anyone else at practice. After practice, I'll go all the way back of school and hang out with my friends there as I wait for my tutor; I'm just so good in Filipino! As always, I always get there first and the others follow after a few minutes or so, including the girl that I like… moreover, the girl I love.

The school bell rang, like most of the time, I never felt so happy to hear that eerie sound after a long day of non-stop lectures, sometimes even boring. The teacher dismissed our class early this time, it was natural though, he always dismissed us on time or ahead, of course, I automatically got my bag and hurried to the tutor… the hang out. Upon opening the door, I knew that someone got there before me… and I was in for a surprise to see that "she" was there… waiting.

"Hi Fayt…" she said,

"Hey, you're here early..?" I replied,

"Yeah… no practice today… besides, I've got nothin' to do anyway." She answered me,

"Right, so, what's up with ya'?"

The time passed on as quickly as we talked more and more about things happening at school, burning our frustrations about the teachers by actually talking about them, how they are, and how they treated all of us. Finally, at the verge of our conversation we talked about… us. I noticed that it's been an hour since we had out little talk, wasn't that long, but, in reality, it was. I have to admit it though; I had a great time with her and our little chat eventually had to stop since her mom got there and to fetch her. Her mom looked at me with a very sharp look and it was very troublesome, made me wonder why all the time, but nonetheless, i can't do a thing about it. Since it's been an hour, obviously, we didn't have any tutor that time, but it was an advantage in my part because I had a long talk with her for the very first time. In any case, it all ended with well, she went on ahead with her mom... and her mom gave me the keen look again, as she was glancing at me secretly from her mom, as if she was closely observing me for a reason which I don't know. So there I was... alone, waiting for my driver to fetch me and I do hope that he's on time, or else he'll be receiving a sermon from my mom, being strict with the time and everything.

As I wait for him, I had this thought in my head… why is she giving me that look every time..? She wasn't like that to me before but now she is. I mean, she's one of the nicest mothers that I ever knew and she loved her daughters very much, and it's rare to have a mom as kind as her too, I consider her children to be lucky, i even envy them at times, but it just doesn't make any sense why she's like that to me all the time… what the heck is happening?! As time passed by, her daughter told me about it in time…

"Fayt… we have to be careful… my mom suspects something about us…" she said,

"Jen, what are you talking about?" I asked her with a puzzled look,

"My mom… she thinks that we have a relationship and she's trying to avoid me from getting any nearer from you… and thing goes for my sis too..." she stopped,

"…it's... just so frustrating…"

"I… heard her talking about me with the teachers here in tutor." I said,

"…what?"

"She said something about watching our every move… and to tell her what's happening here during her absence…"

"I think it went on like that… not until they saw me coming, they refrained from talking any further about it."

"WHAT?!" she shouted,

"Hey, keep it down!" I whispered, covering her mouth…

"She said them to do what?!" Jen said with such a shock,

"You heard me…" I said,

"This is so not getting any better..."

"I think it's best if we both avoid each other a little bit starting today…" I said,

She wanted to say something… but she didn't. Her lips stopped her from saying anything else; at least that's what I thought. I really don't know what she had in mind, but her eyes…they were clear as water… and i knew that feeling inside of her with those expressions in her eyes. She was uneasy inside and I was stupid enough not to care, well, i didn't show that i care, but that doesn't make any difference. I left that problem out of the case as I saw her mom parked her car outside…

"We have to split… your mom will be here in a moment…" I said, as i go to the other side of the table.

"…wait-" she stopped, looking at me straightly,

"We can't talk now… your mom's gonna be here any second…" I said with a serious tone with my heart sinking into such pain,

"…fine!" she shouted out angrily…

"Like... like I care!"

Shocked to hear her say that nonetheless, we have to be away from each other for awhile, knowing with her mom going strict at us. I know that she's not happy about us being away just because of her mom, even if we don't have a relationship… although I want to, but my hearts desires will remain hidden… until the right time comes. It's just a matter of time though to answer that question.

I saw her glancing at me with a worried face that I knew well just like her sister would. Strangely, her sister wasn't around and that made the tutor very quiet this time, it's a bit uneasy without her talking about stuff that will surely make some noise, screams and even shouts. But that's the least of my problems… it's Jen that I'm worried… and I know that she's hiding her true feelings inside. She was acting as if she didn't care a damn thing, her eyes were telling a different story otherwise; fear, pain, and frustration.

"Bye Jen… see you tomorrow then…" I whispered while her mom's not in the room.

"…yeah… you too…" she whispered back,

"…you take care…" I said faintly,

"…what..?"

"N-Nothing…" I lied,

"…whatever…" and she went out in a hurry, in a bad mood. She turned around at me, paused for a second or so, and went on with her mom, saving me from her mom from seeing us together.