Notes: I started writing this straight after the release of Chapter 520, but haven't completed it until now. It was such a beautiful chapter which caused such a stir in the fandom and prompted me to start writing this as a chaptered fic, rather then just a one shot. I hope you enjoy :-)
Nanao was exhausted, returning to her quarters at the Eighth Squad Barracks, she paused as she slid open the door. This would probably be her final night in this room. Tears began welling in her eyes, sliding the door shut quickly, she fell onto her futon, sobbing into her pillow. It was all happening too fast, the invasion, the Captain Commander's death, her Captain's promotion, her promotion! Her head started to ache as she removed her glasses to push her face deeper into the pillow. It was all too much to handle.
"There there Nanao-chan, it's alright" Jolting up right with a start Nanao looked to the doorway where her Captain stood. Shoulders slumped, hair in disarray, the single remaining eye shadowed by heavy dark circles. Her poor Captain, he was suffering horribly, the of loss Yamamoto was hard enough, but the sudden burden of unwanted responsibility was weighing heavy on him.
Nanao rubbed her eyes, sitting back on her heels, she took a deep breath and looked her Captain in the eye.
"I'm sorry Captain Kyōraku-" she paused "Captain Commander Kyōraku." A tired smile broke across his features.
"It's going to take some getting used to isn't it?" he said, making his way inside the room and shutting the door. Nanao watched him sit, stiff as if he was in pain, she supposed he still would be after his battle. Shunsui looked around her room slowly, books were stack in tidy piles and on overflowing shelves, dried up flowers drooped over a vase by the window, he looked away sighing.
"I'll have to get you some new flowers when we move into the First Squad headquarters." Something about the sentence made her eyes water again, looking away, she cleared her throat, trying to keep the sobs from her voice.
"Thank you sir, but I think flowers will be the least of our concern." Shunsui leant back, removing his hat as he watched his lieutenant.
"I suppose you're right, but it'll be something to look forward to. Something to help us settle into our new home."
He kept using the terms; us and our as they were the couple. Nanao would have scolded him for the implication, but now in her grief it felt comforting. Rubbing her eyes hard, she tried to will away the tears, but couldn't. Her everything hurt, both physically and emotional and she wasn't sure she could keep it together for much longer.
"Was there something you needed Captain?" she muttered, not looking him in the eye.
"Nanao" he spoke softly and it was like someone was crushing her heart "it's alright to cry you know, there's no shame in that."
She wasn't sure why she did it and even how it happened. One moment she was stiffly kneeling on her futon, the next she was in his lap, arms wrapped around his neck. Her face wet with tears, she couldn't make the words to apologise, she just dug her face into the soft nook between his neck and shoulder, sobbing uncontrollably.
"Oh Nanao-chan" large, strong hands rubbed her back, gently cupping the back of her head as he embraced her.
"I'm so sorry" she slurred, eyes stinging with salty tears "I'm sorry, I know you don't want this, I'm sorry I can't help more, I'm sorry for your loss and sorry for everything" she hiccuped. She wasn't even being quiet any more, she was practical screaming, muffled only by his kimono. Squeezing her eyes shut, Nanao continued crying for what felt like a lifetime, pausing only to breath, she finally pulled back, looking into Shunsui's face. Her breath caught as she noticed the red in his eye, as tears leaked down his handsome face. Reaching out she wiped them from his cheeks, sniffing hard she swallowed her own sorrow and pressed her hand to his chest, her trembling making them shake. Biting her lip, she rubbed her palms against his clothed chest in a continual motion, feeling the heat increase at her finger tips.
"Are you going to be alright?" she quietly asked, watching him with concern. The redness had eased from his eyes, but his body was still taunt, tense, in pain. Nanao could feel the hard muscle bunch under her hands as she massaged his chest. Large hands covered hers, pushing them harder under his collarbone.
"Like that Nanao-chan" he said softly "more."
Nanao blinked, unsure how to processed. Keeping her hands moving, she watched her Captain slowly closed his eye. The tense lines in his face easing as he went limp under her attentions. Laying down he tugged her along with him, forcing her to kneel above him. Hands still on his chest, she licked her lips, slowly pushing her hands under the robes at his shoulders, removing his pink kimono, and flattening it to the floor, a small smile grew on his face as he watched her. His Nanao-chan looked so cute, she looked torn between her usual strict hands off policy and her desire to make him happy, he helped make the decision for her. Leaning up Shunsui cupped her face, brushing his lips against hers. Pulling away suddenly fear dancing in her eyes, Nanao inhaled quickly, watching him sit up stiffly and covered her hands with his own, keeping her from moving further away. She looked at him unsure, he was looking to her for help, as he always did, and he needed her now, possibly more then he ever had.
Kissing him back she shivered as his tongue flicked out and ran along her lips. Darting her own out against the hot, wet flesh she felt her Captain chuckle, the sound vibrating through his chest where her hands had stilled.
"Like this Nanao-chan" he murmured against her lips, and slid his tongue against hers, coaxing open her lips, lapping the soft places at her mouth.
Nanao inhaled sharply, trust her captain to make something as harmless as kissing into something so carnal.
The heavy bulk of chest beneath her hands shifted, pushing against them as he bid her to continue. Head spinning from the kiss, Nanao slowly pulled away, closing her eyes for a moment as she nudged Shunsui back to the floor. Opening her eyes she focused on his sash, belted at his waist, and not taking a second to pause she swiftly undid the knot as he arched his hips up, she slid it out from underneath him. Moving back above him, she glanced at his face, only to let her gaze linger as she realised he had his eye closed. Reaching up, she brush the single strand of hair away from his forehead, he looked so content, almost peaceful, it was a welcome change. Catching her hand as she withdrew it, he spoke without opening his eye
"Don't do anything you're not comfortable with, I'm just pleased to be here," She kept the tears from her voice at his noble request, after years of chasing her, he finally had her and then decides to be all honourable.
"I'm fine" she said as she peeled his uniform back, black and white fabric parting to reveal tanned skin laced with a heavy sprinkling of hair. Smiling Nanao ran a finger from his Adam's apple down to his navel watching him shiver, shrugging his shoulders back to completely remove his white captain haori and standard black shinigami uniform.
Taking a deep breath Nanao spanned her hands along his chest, rubbing them down along his ribcage, to the hard muscle of his stomach, pausing at the side of his lean hips as she went to sweep back up to his shoulders. He tensed as she touched the small slope at the beginning of the V at his waist. Gently smoothing over the skin, she watched his reaction, if he was in pain she could probably ease it with her limited healing kido knowledge.
But laughter not pain danced on his features, and it took Nanao no time to realise she wasn't hurting him, she was trickling him. Grinning wickedly she frantically stroked her fingers over his hips, gleefully watching as he twisted and bucked under her touch. Breathless he lay back, laughing hard.
"Nanao-chan, please, have pity!" Smiling she leant down and pressed a little kiss to the area she'd so cruel assaulted. He stilled suddenly, laughter dying on his lips.
"Again Nanao-chan" Shunsui moaned.
Nanao looked up, hands either side of his body as she leant down again, puckering her lips to a very define kiss, she kissed his side, sucking as she did, hard enough that when she pulled back he had a near perfect red oval on his right hip. Tracing patterns over his sun bathed skin, she noticed his pelvic line was remarkably tan, boldly teasing a finger under the belted pants, she frowned as the tan continued. Glancing at him, a frown on her face, Nanao tapped her finger just below his navel.
"Have you been sunbathing naked again?" A grin spread across Shunsui's face, sitting up on his elbows the tall man shrugged.
"Little compares to having the sun warm you, everywhere" he winked at her, Nanao wasn't impressed.
"I thought I specifically asked that you not to do that please, especially after I caught you the first time." She suddenly blushed at the memory, worse had been his lay back, casual approach to his nudity.
"But I did honour your request Nanao-chan, I always paid extra attention to your spirit pressure, I always knew where you were, if you came close I always put my clothes back on." She scoffed, sitting up she looked down at his relaxed form. How far was she planning to take this? Far enough for them both to forget their responsibility for a little while? Far enough for her to feel she was helping him, comforting him - tough love only got you so far, sometimes people needed a tender touch. Placing her face to the sensitive flesh of his stomach she breathed in his scent, allowing the simple mix of expensive sake and floral fragrance to engulf her in a sensory security blanket. Licking her lips as her mouth watered, she nuzzled his treasure trail affectionately, rewarded with a chuckle from above her, Nanao focused on loosening the sash at his waist. Successfully looping the light blue silk, Nanao held her breath as she followed that inciting trail of hair further down. The distinct budge in his pants confirmed that regardless of his current relaxed manner, he was as willing a participate as she was. Smoothing down the dark fabric which highlighted his muscular thighs she slowly touched a careful finger to the tented pants before her. A quiet moaned reached her ears as she applied a little more pressure.
"You're such a tease Nanao-chan" His lower back tensing Shunsui pushed up into Nanao's warmth, feeling her tiny, delicate hands wrap around his straining cock. The harsh fabric was so uncomfortable, all thoughts and concerns fled as he focused on the single overwhelming desire to feel skin on skin with his lieutenant. Hands which had previously been held at his side, covered Nanao's, squeezing hard around the fist she'd made, the tight throb intensifying near painfully. Untangling her hand, Shunsui held it for a moment, rubbing circles upon her soft palm, causing a change of pace in her breathing. Smiling lazily he continued to keep her distracted with his hand play as he pulled at the front of his pants to release his cock. Nanao gasped and for a moment he had the urged to cover himself for fear of frightening her off from any future experiences like this. But it wasn't fear in her eyes that he recognised but pure unadulterated desire.
The new Captain Commander watched as Nanao dipped her face level with his member, she breathed in his scent musky and with a distinct hint of rose. Of course it did, she always prepared his baths with rose water and petals. She licked her lips and paused in her descent to give a fleeting glance at Shunsui who stared back, smile tight with anticipation.
"Take your time Nanao-chan, I'm not going anywhere." A warm blush flooded her cheeks as Nanao suddenly thought over her situation. Kneeling over his knees she braced her upper body over his groin. Bringing her lips closer she nervously licked the tip of his cock, feeling him twitch. Proud she'd provoked some kind of reaction Nanao trailed her tongue down from the tip to the base, feeling the soft bush of pubic hair tickle her chin as she moved along with a long lick which ended with her lips slowly wrapping around the swollen head. A moan reached her ears as she shifted downwards, mouthing as much of him as she could. Pausing as she realised he was much larger then any man she'd ever previously been with, although that number was very limited. She was barely half way down the shaft as it hit the back of her throat. Her eyes snapped open, as she assessed the situation, bobbing up and down as far as she could.
Making a noise of frustration, a frown pitching her forehead as she increased her pace and suction, feeling her jaw begin to ache. As she pulled back a thin line of saliva bridging between her lips and the throbbing trudged flesh, Shunsui stopped her, with a hand to her chin.
"Relax, I want you to enjoy this as much as I will" She shook her head away from his body, the red in her cheeks rising in anger.
"I'm sorry I'm not well practised, I will endeavour to try harder in the future." Shunsui looked down at her with tired eyes, his poor Nanao-chan was getting upset with her lack of experience, something he was personally very thankful for. Greedy of him as it was, he wanted the raven haired beauty all to himself, and only himself, not tainted by any others. She was loyal to her Captain and it showed, with her constantly willingness, support and frustration with him. As she dropped her head to take him again, he sat up, cupping her face in his hands, pulling her closer for her to sit in his lap. She attempted to protest only to be silenced by a set of hungry lips, diving past her own swollen lips to tease and taste her mouth. Large hands ran down her body, pausing to palm the supple flesh of her breasts. Moaning, Nanao pulled away, her version faded without her glasses.
"Captain, I'm sorry I couldn't" she paused "indulge you properly" Shunsui chuckled, touching a finger tip to the end of her nose.
"Oh my beautiful Nanao-chan, it's not like you to give up so easily on a challenge." Her hands gripping his shoulders balled into fists.
"I did not give up, you stopped me!" Pulling her close, Shunsui pressed her head to his exposed chest, relishing the feeling of skin on skin.
"I only stopped you to help Nanao-chan" He ran a hand through her hair, feeling her lean into his touch.
"Help how?" she sounded almost timid, her breath warming his skin, her hand running along his broad chest. Brushing a kiss to her forehead, the tall captain deliberately rubbed the stubble of his chin, along the hair line of her forehead, pleased that she shivered at the contact.
"Help you to learn Nanao-chan, do you want to learn how to... Indulge me better?" Her head jerked up, nearly missing his chin, a light burning in her dark blue eyes.
"If you're willing to teach me, I am very willing to learn." Grinning at her usual efficiency, Shunsui stroked a hand along her slender neck, feeling her tremble under his touch.
"Alright Nanao-chan, I'll teach you" She moved to sit away from his lap, only to be drawn back into his embrace. Her back to his naked chest, as strong hands caressed the front of her body. Lips pressed to her neck, with a cheeky nip of teeth causing an almost squeak to pass her lips.
"First" a deep tone resonated from somewhere near her right ear. "I need you to relax" She immediately stiffened, but took a deep breath, loosening her muscles, so her body went limp as a rag doll against him.
"Perfect Nanao-chan, now I need you to breath" Closing her eyes, Nanao took a deep breath, exhaling slowly as heavy hands massaged her breasts as they rose and fell then continued to moved up along her neck, slowly stroking her face, brushing his fingers against her lips as she opened her mouth slightly to breath.
"Lick them" he whispered quietly, feeling the hot heat of her tongue lap out at the fingers posed to her lips. "Keep going" he said, shifting slightly to allow his other arm to loop around her middle.
Nanao knew indistinctly what he wanted her to do, and following his order to lick, she progressed further and popped the now wet digit in her mouth. Grinning at her confidence Shunsui allowed her to suck and lap at his fingers, losing himself in a moment of sensor bliss.
"Stick out your tongue" Nanao paused, heart beating hard in her chest.
"Pardon me" she said, removing his hand from her face, she was panting as if she'd run a marathon and she wasn't quite sure why.
"Stick your tongue out," he repeated "like you're going to lick something" he emphasised his point with a lick to her neck, "Like that."
Gulping Nanao opened her mouth wider, sticking her tongue out as if expecting a delicious treat or to catch snow flakes. Sliding his fingers along the soft palate of flesh, Shunsui gently pushed two fingers past her lips.
"That's it, keep them nice and wet" licking down her neck he felt her mirror the motion on his fingers, her mouth tight and wet, absolutely perfect. Taking a deep breath, Shunsui attempted to settle his inflamed arousal as Nanao took his fingers deeper, rubbing them against the back of her throat.
"Breath through your nose" Curving his fingers slightly as she took his fingers straight up to the knuckle, he chuckled at her desperate attempt not to gag.
"Relax Nanao-chan, just hold them. Don't move, let them sit there"
Nanao breathed deep through her nose, trying to relax her throat as her captain's two fingers settled at the back of her mouth, close enough that he could have tickled her tonsils.
Shunsui couldn't remember the last time he'd been so turned on just from a woman sucking his fingers, but he wasn't surprised, it was his Nanao after all. As she overcame her urge to choke, her Captain gently slid his fingers from her oral sheath, his other hand turning her face to plant a series of loving small kisses all over her face and neck. She appeared in a daze, her dark eyes starry and unfocused, it was intoxicating. Kissing her gently to wake her from her trance, Shunsui watched her shiver to life and lean into his kiss, her body twisting almost painfully to reach his face.
"I want to try again" she said breathlessly as they pulled apart, raising an eyebrow over his remaining eye Shunsui smiled, turning fully Nanao watched his smile and felt herself blush. Moving down his body again, she grasped his cock tightly, watching him inhale sharply from the sudden contact. Licking up and down the shaft, the wet velvet of her tongue sliding easily along his grand length, she moved from the base to the tip, slicking up his hardened flesh as she did. Lips catching the swollen head as she pushed herself down over his cock, pausing as it hit the back of her throat. Stopping, she felt him tense, waiting for her reaction. Breathing hard, Nanao paused, enjoying the sensation of him being so close. She pushed forward again, deeper, no gagging sensation occurred, triumphant in her newly discovered ability, Nanao slowly pulled back, then plunged down, feeling her Captain shudder as she did.
"Nanao-chan" he moaned, his hands trailing down her face, resting just under her chin, finger tips ghosting the soft flesh of her collarbone. "Oh more Nanao-chan, that's so good." She'd never heard him moan like that, he certainly made a lot of sensual noise at her before, but there was no acting or coyness in his tone, it was simply pleasure.
Increasing her pace and tightening her gasp, she couldn't help the cough that rose from her chest as Shunsui rocked his hips to meet her in a thrust. Struggling for breath, she placed hands on his thighs to still him for a moment as she caught her breath. He stopped immediately, the muscles of his upper thighs taunt in anticipation, waiting for her signal to move, she wasn't even sure if he was breathing. Comfortable once again, she began again, hearing Shunsui exhale harshly above her as she sped up the pace, hands smoothing along his thighs and stomach, feeling the muscle contract under her fingers tips.
"Nanao-chan" the hands at her neck sunk into her loose hair as Shunsui's moved his hips in shallow thrusts past her lips. Humming in pleasure Nanao leant her head back further into his palms, feeling a sudden jolt pulse through her lover. Pushing into Nanao as deep as he dared Shunsui went limp, spilling his seed deep beyond her lips. Struggling over words and moans, eye closed, he felt Nanao release his cock with a soft pop and move away. Fearing for a moment that she'd leave him completely, he reached out and made contact with her soft body, as she moved up the futon to met him.
"I'm sorry Nanao-chan" Shunsui said, cheeks pink as his lieutenant pressed a small kiss his face.
"For what?" she asked, curling herself comfortably around him. Smiling he leant back against the pillow, arm tucked around her waist bring her closer.
"I should have pulled out before-"
"Don't be vulgar" she scolded him promptly, then added in a smaller voice "was it good?" Leaning up on his elbows to watch her properly Shunsui smiled at his scandalised red faced lieutenant.
"It was amazing, perfect! But I expect nothing less from my beautiful Nanao-chan" showering her face with soft kisses, he pressed his nose against hers "So willing to learn as well." Giving him a soft smack against the chest, Nanao shook her head as he collapsed beside to her. Snuggling closer, Nanao rolled into his warmth, staring at his face for a moment, now still in almost sleep, dark hair draped loosely across his face, the small wrinkles at the corner of his eyes eased, eye closed, he finally looked peaceful. Leaning up slowly, with as little movement as possible, Nanao unhooked his eye patch and set it beside her glasses.
"Thank you Nanao-chan, I'm still getting used to it" she lay back down sighing.
"You would forget to take it off and then complain about it all tomorrow and tomorrow we have more important things to focus on."
"Hmm" Shunsui agreed, "like getting some new flowers for your new quarters" Rolling her eyes, Nanao pushed her face into the pillow.
"Yes, like new flowers," pulling the covers up and around her shoulders, making sure it covered her Captain's chest, Nanao yawned "Good night Captain Commander." She felt his smile as he leant in closer and kissed her one last time.
"Good night my sweet Nanao-chan"