Hi guys! This is my first individual Fanfic. so it will probably be really bad. *sigh*. So just be nice and no flames, please.
If I owned Vampire Academy, Dimitri wouldn't have turned Strigoi, and I wouldn't be writing this on Fan Fiction.
RPOV
I looked at the clock on my bedside, ugh. It was time for training, and I really wasn't ready to get up. Then my mood brightened, even though it was way to early for any sane person to be awake I was still going to see Dimitri. That almost made getting up at three in the morning bearable. again, I got out of bed and threw on some jogging pants and a sweatshirt. and ran down to the gym.
"You're late."Observed Dimitri as I walked in, even though we had just gotten back from the ski lodge yesterday.
"Sorry Comrade,"I said as I started to do my stretching "I slept in, after all, I'm used to getting up at seven like normal people. Vacation is cool that way." I expected Dimitri to laugh but instead he just walked out to the jogging track. After a short pause I followed him, wondering what was wrong.
"Are you okay?" I asked him but he just ignored me.
After that we didn't talk for the rest of the fifteen laps which were over surprisingly quickly. Looking at the clock I noticed that I had taken five minutes off of my best time. This time, I was used to Dimitri ignoring me, so I wasn't shocked when he went to the sparring mat without even acknowledging me. Oh well...
DPOV
"Your late." I said trying to keep the emotion from my face and voice, what Roza called my 'guardian face'.
"Sorry Comrade, I slept in, after all, I'm used to getting up at seven like normal people. Vacation is cool that way."
This was harder than I thought, but I couldn't love her, I just couldn't. It was not right for so many reasons, like our age difference, and that we were not allowed to like each other, but most importantly, we were both going to be Lissa's guardians and I needed to protect her, not my Roza. I knew I should have accepted Tasha's offer and become her guardian, to move away from Rose, but I hadn't. But Tasha would be coming back in a month in case I changed my mind and I could go with her then, escape from this madness that was my life.
"Are you okay?" Rose asked, sensing my discomfort, but I just quickened my pace on the track, avoiding her question.
The fifteen laps we ran seemed to last en eternity, so of course, I was shocked to see that Roza had shaved five minutes off her time. I was filled with pride for my Roza, but, with great effort, I kept it hidden, only allowing myself a smile when I had turned away and was getting ready to spar, my back to her so that she wouldn't be able to read my expression. When I faced her again, her face showed how hurt she was, almost causing me to change my plan from this morning- I had been up all night thinking about it- and stay here with her. But of course, I couldn't do that.
To keep my mind off leaving Roza, I launched at her, spinning and kicking her stomach, knocking her down. Or at least in theory i kicked her. In reality, he dodged, ducking under my leg and giving a kick of her own to my ankles, which ofcourse, I jumped over. So it went on for about an hour, Kick, block, punch, block, ex cetera, until finally, I managed to punch her in the gut. she stumbled back and I took advantage of it, leaping forward pinning her down. With one hand I reached and got my stake, pushing it against her skin where her heart was.
"You win." She conceded
Then, she reached up to kiss me. Crap. I knew I couldn't let her kiss me, because if I did my resolve would shatter, and I would forget about going with Tasha at the end of the month. Crap. I did the only thing I could, mustering up all of my will, I stood up.
"Don't kiss me Rose." I said, trying to sound Dangerous. Her face showed how shocked she was.
"why not?" making it harder to leave. Why couldn't life be simple? Oh yeah right, because this is MY life.
"Because..." What should I tell her? That we can't be together? No, that wouln't work. The truth? No way. "Because I don't love you. Not anymore" It was a complete lie. I would always love her, but I had to go, I couldn't stay here, Shouldn't stay.
And so, without another word, I strolled out of the gym, not looking back, Leaving my only reason to live.
RPOV
Shock. Shock and pain. I felt numb. Numb and empty. I felt like half of my self- the part of me that held my heart and my soul had just ripped it's self away from my body and walked out the door, leaving gaping holes. I distantly head the Bell ring, signalizing the start of the school day. I got up, feeling empty and waled to my firt period, unable to think about Anything. Dimitri left me. I was left by Dimitri. Left me, Dimitri did. no matter how I put it, I still couldn't believe it. And the second part hurt even more. He left me because he no longer loved me, he had gotten tired of me and threw me out, like- like I didn't even know. all I knew was that he left, and he wasn't coming back. the day passed by without me even noticing it, surprising me when the school day ended. It was only three o' clock, but all Iwanted to do was go to my room and curl up in a ball. I wasn't sure how long I stayed there, but I saw the sun rise, showing that everyone would be going to sleep. Unable to, I decided to go to the gym, So I grabbed my iPod and climbed out the window.
No one stopped me on the way to the gym, and I broke the lock on the door easily. I found my way to a punching bag and started punching it. Hard.
You, Change your mind
Like a girl, Changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS,
Like a bitch, I would Know
And you over think
Always speak
Cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me
Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring
I should know that
You're not gonna change
Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride
You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down, down...
The song reminded me so much of my life it was astounding- well as astounding as something can be when you just got your heart cut out and shredded into a million peices. I couldn't believe Dimitri would leave me here, but he did, and he took my life with him. I felt the skin on my knuckles crack, but I didn't care. I tried to focus on the physical pain, instead of my total heart break, collapsing on the punching bag crying I let the unbearable sea of sadness I had been fighting all day take over, huge sobs shaking my chest, making it hard to breathe, I felt myself shaking as I let the pain take control of me.
APOV (Alberta)
I walked into the gym only to find Rose, crying her heart out, Beating up on the punching bag, listening to an ipod. I could barely make out the words she was muttering to herself.
"...stupid ... Leaving...Kill him... why ...suicide...pain...love...no..." I wondered what had gotten her this worked up, I had never seen her like this before and it scared me. I noticed something red on her hands, Blood? all of a sudden, she fell onto the punching bag, shaking her sobs echoing throughout the gym. I would never have admitted it but I really liked Rose. Not in a love relationship way, but I admired her, and she was my favorite of all the students, so I walked over to her and gave her a hug. I wasn't really sure if this was the right thing to do- never having been good at the whole mothering thing, but she turned and cried on my shoulder so I guess it was the right thing.
"It'll be okay, shhh. shhh. everything will be okay." I told her, trying to sound comforting I murmured other things to her quietly, not knowing how long we stood there, but eventually, her shaking ceased and she stepped away.
My sweater was soaked with her tears, showing that she had been crying for a LONG time. She smiled weakly at me."Thanks, Alberta"
"No problem, if you want to tell me, I'm right here to talk to, but if not, that's fine too. It's your business. Now come on, lets bandage your hands."
"I-" she looked unsure weather or not to tell me "The only person I ever cared about- I mean REALLY cared about s-said that h-he was leaving and th-that he hated me" she said, busting into tears again.
"Well then that guy must be really stupid to leave you."
"W-we weren't supposed to be together anyway- it it was against all th-the rules" Who the heck was this guy?
"P-promise not to tell anyone? And to not f-fire h-him?" So it was a guardian.
"I promise."
"D-Dimitri Belikov"
Oh. I already knew that. "I already knew about you two a month ago."
"R-really?"
"Yes. And of course I won't tell Kirova. I couldn't care less if you two are together."
This gave me another hug from Rose. WOW. She was really broken up over this. I went to the cabnet and brought out some antiseptic, cream, and gause and started wrapping her hands. For some reason this brought on another wave of sobs.
"What is it?"
"I-It's this. It reminds me of h-him. He did this for me a while a-a-ago."Another sob.
"You know what I think?"
"What?"
"You need to make him pay."
"What do you mean?"
"Find a way to get back at him for doing this to you. make him regret it."
"I don't know..."
":Well, think about it, Oh, and you didn't hear that from me." I said, pulling her up. "Now go back to your dorm and thry to get some sleep."
RPOV
I wondered about what Alberta said, as I lay in my bed, hmm. This of course made me think about Dimitri and I started crying again. I was surprised I could still cry after all the crying I had done this morning, but the tears kept coming. Eventually I cried my self to sleep. And saw Adrian.
"What do you want Adrian?"
"Lissa was worried, but that's not why I'm here. I'll cut straight to the point. Dimitri is leaving you. you want him to love you again. I know how to make it happen."
"How"
"By going out with me."
"WHAT???"
"Not actually going out, but pretending. We would only go as far as you want." He assured me.
"Let me think about it, Okay? Visit my dreams tomorrow, and I'll tell you then."
"See you Little Dhampir."
And with that my dream faded to be replaced with one of my own.