(AN: I was feeling sad and so this happened)
I watch as the life leaves his eyes. I know there is nothing I can do, but that doesn't stop me from screaming his name until my voice goes hoarse. I will see him soon, I'm sure of it. Any second, he'll materialize before me. James, Lily, and I found eachother in the afterlife, we will find Remus. I'm convinced. It's been two years too long since I've seen him, touched him, kissed him. My body yearns for his, to curl around his in the warm embrace I've missed. The image of him and Tonks will forever be burned into my memory, but I don't blame him for it. I know he still loves me. I saw how he cried at night, sobbing my name into his pillow. How he'd wake from nightmares of my death, sweaty and pale. His transformations have been so bad lately, the only thing salvaging his body has been the Wolfsbane potions. I know he needs me as much as I need him.
Lily comes to my side and pulls me into a tight hug. James is right behind her, arms open, waiting for his turn. When I extract myself from him and turn, my jaw drops. There he is. With brilliant, tawny hair and glowing gold eyes. His Gryffindor uniform is very clean and proper, though his scars and disheveled hair keeps the goody-two-shoes vibe at bay. Our theory is that when you die, you take the form of yourself from when you were happiest. For us four, it's 6th year at Hogwarts.
We lock eyes for a moment, neither of us moving any closer, and then both of us stumble forward in a mess of anticipation and longing. Both of us are holding on so tight, like we'll fly away if we let go. I'm vaguely aware of James and Lily's eyes on us, but they can wait their goddamn turn. I feel something warm drip onto my shoulder and pull back from him to look at his face. Tears are flowing freely down his cheek, his eyes are radiating love, disbelief, and sadness. I pull his face to mine and kiss him with everything I have. Our faces become a mess of snot and salty tears, but I couldn't care less. We break apart and embrace once more. He breathes a shaky sigh into my ear.
"You always were such a bloody ponce." I say after several moments of silence. I reach up to his face and clean it up with my sleeve.
"Sirius, I-" He starts, and I know he's trying to explain the last two years.
"Remus, do you love me?" I ask.
"With every centimeter of my being." He replies.
"That's all I care about. We can talk later. For now, just let me hold you." I bring him into my chest.
"I thought I'd lost you again." He murmurs into my shirt.
"No way are you getting rid of me that easily." I kiss the top of his head.
"I love you, Sirius Black. I always have, and I always will." He burrows further into my arms.
"You are the air I breathe, Remus Lupin. I love you more than I thought possible to love anyone."
Everything is quiet for a few minutes before Remus says, "Now who's the bloody ponce, eh?"
Then, of course, James's loud guffawing breaks up our beautiful moment, and Lily and James make their way over for a very corny and long group hug. I think of all of the moments in time that led to this one, all of the pain and guilt and sorrow. This chocolate loving bookworm has gotten me through all of it. Forgiven me when no one else would. I don't deserve him, and yet here he is. We're together even after death. He makes the beatings, being exiled, azkaban, the loss all worth it. Here in this moment, I am happy again. I am complete.