To Love Someone, Easy. To Forgive

Who Jacob?

What

Who holds your heart? Who keeps you from loving me?

Her chocolate brown eyes filled with tears. They became frantic when I didn't answer.

Jacob answer me ANSWER ME she began to scream pounding on my chest with her small fist. I couldn't help but feel bad. She loved me. She wanted me to love her. The pounding stopped her face pressed against my chest. She whispered "Who?"

Bella

Her name rung in my ears like a thousand church bells. I shut my eyes waiting for the ringing to stop.

"Do you love her?" Her voice was muffled and soft. Was she crying?

She continued speaking but the words didn't make since her voice so low I could barely hear. It's like being in a silent movie but without subtitles. I began to think of her. Old memories flooding back into my head all at once. I'm no longer in my house, Nia was no longer in my arms. I could feel the wind against my skin. I clenched my fist. This place is familiar I knew it all to well. This memory always came back. In my dreams, thoughts, whenever I closed my eyes or whenever I said her name " I love you, Bella" A new emotion took over my body. I felt like a mood a moodring always changing. I turned and saw her, she looked a mess. In anyone else's eyes she would have been average even normal but in my eyes she was a princess a diamond in the rough. Most importantly she was Isabella Swan.

"I love you, Jacob," she whispered. She sounded so far away. I could barely hear.

"I know that better than you do"

I was ready to fight. I began to walk away.

"Anything," she chocked

"Anything you want, Jacob. Just don't do this!"

I paused this was a trick! She didn't mean it when this was over she would run back to him. Curiosity got the best of me.

"I don't really think you mean that."

"Stay," she's begging. Did she mean it? Does she want me to stay? I didn't have time for her games. I won't let her. She can't hurt me anymore!

I shook my head. "No I'm going." I decided to test her. I wanted to see if she meant what she said.

"But I could leave it to fate."

"What do you mean?" She demanded

" I don't have anything to deliberate… I could just do my best for my pack and let what happens happen. If you could convince me you really did want me to come back… more than you wanted to do the selfless thing."

"How?"

"You could ask me,"

"Come back," Her voice soft and angelic it made me weak. I kept going though. I shook my head smiling. " That's not what I'm talking about." It took her a while to grasp what I meant. I wanted her to show me that she loved me. Actions speak louder than words.

"Will you kiss me, Jacob" What a liar she didn't mean it.

"You're bluffing."

"Kiss me, Jacob. Kiss me and then come back." She wasn't lying. She meant it. I was nervous, no one likes regection. My lips wanted desperatly to kiss her, but my mind screamed no! My lips seemed to win that fight. In three big steps my lips on hers demanding entrance. I knew she would be stubborn, but I wasn't going to let her ruin this she had to know to realize how much she loved me. I twisted my fingers through her hair. Grabbed her shoulders pushing her closer. She was getting upset. I decided to ignore her. I couldn't understand why she was trying so hard… fighting me.

"You can do better than this, bella. You're overthinking it." She began to relax.

"That's right. For once, just let yourself feel what you feel."

She began to shake her.

"Are you sure you want me to come back? O did you really want me to die?" Sounds outragious but I wondered was this all an act.

She's finally responding. I brought my mouth back to hers my fingers at her waist. She began to kiss me her body was relaxed more than ever. Her lips move with mine. I pulled her closer to my body. I kissed her one final time before telling her I had to leave. This time I wasn't going to fight the newborns. I would be home, back in Nia's arms. Trying to explain why I couldn't be with her. She wanted my heart, my love and my protection.

"Jacob… will you stay?"

"Yes, I won't leave you."

"Could you do something for me, Jacob?"

"Anything you want." I would climb the tallest tree, jump off the nearest clff. If that meant I could be with her. If theat meant she would stay.

"Open your eyes!"

I knew this line oh too well. When I opened my eyes she'd be gone. No matter how much I tried. My eyes would open and she would be gone.

"Jacob, I love you."

"I love you to," and she was gone.

"Do you mean that, Jacob. Do you love me?"

Did she hear me? She thought I was talking to her. How did this happen? She was my friend, someone I could talk to. She was there to pick up the pieces.

"I don't know?"

"She left you Jacob! How could you love someone who leaves you?"

"I don't know ask her. Bella would know, she forgave him so easily. After everything he had done to her. You should have seen her she looked…."

"Shut up dammit! Enough all you do is talk about her. Bella this Bella that the hell with her! All I ever done was love you and this is what I get you might as well spit on me!" she shrieked

"Jacob," Her voice was hushed and quiet as if the world was listening.

"She's been gone for two years, Why can't you let her go?"

"It's not that easy, to forget someone you love. Things could have been different I could have done something to stop her."

"You did everything you could. Have you ever considerd maybe just maybe that she wanted to become a vampire. To be with Edward for eternity."

"How could anyone want that?"

" I dunno ask her." She said with a grin the size of Texas

"Trust me I would if only I knew where she is."

"Why can't you just appreciate what's in front of you?"

"Oh you mean you." I managed to cough up between laughs

"Yes Me! What's wrong with me? I think I'm pretty. I know I'm smart. I could cook a good meal you know that better than anyone. I'm a good listener, easy to talk to and I…"

"Shhh! You talk to much"

" I know a way you could shut me up."

"Oh really and how?"

"Kiss me!"

"What!"

"You heard me." She puckered her lips and leaned forward waiting for my lips to meet hers.

I was hesitant. Bella was the first and only girl I ever kissed and she wasn't a willing participant. I mean there were other girls who thought I was cute and giggled everytime I walked bye but nothing this serious. I decided to give it a shot. I angled my head and took one step forward and meet her lips. Her lips were so soft. I put my hands around her waist and pulled her close. Her hands slowly made there way to my neck. Holding me making sure I didn't break the kiss. Her hands as soft as her lips, felt like cool pillows against the back of my neck.

OH Yea I don't OWN Stephanie Meyer's Characters nor her Books, although I wish I did. Good Job SM