Shattered

How could you?

We'd done so much together, been through so much together, and in an instant all that was broken, destroyed.

How could you ruin what we had? I knew about the pain you felt, I felt it too. But in my wildest dreams, I could never have known you would do this.

After everything you'd done for your friends, after all they'd done for you…you threw it all away for power and a second wing. I knew your sense of being incomplete, but how could I know it would drive you this far?

Trust is a funny thing. It takes so long to be built up, but it can be shattered in an instant. Just like this.

I knew there was something up when you gave the girl the Magnus. Melodia, the one who convinced you to do all this. Funny how such an innocent appearance can mask such evil intent.

I knew you were up to something, but you wouldn't let me know. You said it was unimportant. I'm amazed that I believed you.

You cast me aside, like an old toy. Like something that's fun for a few minutes, but inevitably ends up as trash. Is that what I was to you?

Did I ever matter to you? Did you ever truly think of me as a companion? Or was I just a tool, a means for you to make it this far.

Did I know, once? Did I know you were going to do this? I must have, when you were planning it, before I forgot everything. Could I possibly have agreed with you? Or did you just ignore my opinions like you did just now?

I'm with the girl now. Xelha. The girl you were only beginning to let yourself love. I know that she meant something to you. How could you ignore that, reject that love for something so clearly wrong?

I always knew you were selfish. It was simply the way you were. But I was sure you were beginning to change! I thought you were starting to open up, to let other people mean something to you! I suppose I was wrong.

Does anything matter anymore? Anything but your needs, what you want? Do you even care?

Everyone, the whole group, trusted you. But that trust was shattered the instant you decided they meant nothing. Couldn't you see that they didn't care that you only had one wing? To them, you weren't a freak. You were a friend. Too bad you didn't feel the same way about them.

I should have known. I should have tried harder to stop you. I tried. I begged you not to do it. But you didn't care. You just broke the connection, and cast me aside.

I would've thought you were better than this! That you would be able to see past those desires, that lust for power. I thought you'd be able to see what really mattered. Guess not.

It's funny, isn't it? How a second, a few actions, a few words, can change everything.

You know what's amazing? Xelha still believes in you. She still cares about you, even after all you've done. She knows that you're better than this.

She's going after you, now. Everyone is. They, at least, know that this is the wrong path for you to take. Even if you don't. They, at least, believe in you.

That's what hurts the most. You're not evil. As horrible as your actions may be, I know you. And I know that you are capable of good. So much of the way that you were to the group was likely a front, but I know at least some of it was genuine. And the truth is…I believe in you too. Somehow.

Kalas. As much as your actions and your betrayal disgust me, as much as my faith in you has been shattered, I know you. And I know that you're not meant to be this way. I hope with all my heart that when we find you, you'll listen. And that you'll realize that even after all you've done, we're still willing to take you back.

If you're only willing to come.