Kakashi Hatake. He's so.…Lost. So far gone that he can't be saved. It's been a long time since the 'incident'. The horrible torture incident that made him lose his mind. It was as if he'd had his brain cut away, and there was only enough left to keep him living.
I remember him lying in the hospital bed, nothing but a vegetable. Had it been anyone else, they would have gone to extremes to help them. But for Kakashi they simply diagnosed him with severe brain damage, and said that it was incurable, that there was nothing they could do. They didn't even try, and I hate them for that.
He eventually came out of his vegetative state, but I can't say it was much of an improvement. Sure, he can walk and smile, and pretend like he's okay. But he's not. He doesn't speak at all, and he's completely lost all logic ability. He's not a genius anymore, and I can tell that it hurts him. It's painful for me to watch, and I can't even imagine how painful it is for him.
Doesn't it make a difference that he did it for Konoha? That he let himself be tortured to insanity just to protect valuable information? They tortured him until they broke him, broke his mind. Doesn't that make him a hero? He lost his intelligence and his mind for the sake of Konoha. He lost his sanity. And they didn't do a thing to help him regain it.
Surely there was some kind of medicine, some kind of operation. Surely they could FIX him! Change him back to how he was before lost himself! "No" they said. "He's better this way. He's….Less dangerous. To us and to himself." Better. Better having an empty head and no free will what so ever. In truth, they were just scared of him. They'd feared him from the beginning. They feared that he would become to powerful for them to control. And leaving him this way was the perfect way to make sure they never lost control.
No one deserved to have brain damage, not even the worst of the worst. And Kakashi was one of the best. So what if he was less dangerous? That doesn't make it right to force him to live without remembering. Without remembering that he was once a genius, once a famed and feared ninja. Without remembering that he's Kakashi Hatake.
People have tried to cheer me up, tried to make it better. "Look at him! He's happier this way. He's happier now that he can't remember all the hardships he's suffered." But he isn't happier. He's worse than before. He's even emptier inside, and even though he seems to be happy, I can tell that he's becoming a mere shell of what he once was. Am I the only one that notices? No, many others notice. But I'm the only one who cares.