Ma'Harel, Ma'Vhenan,
It has been weeks since I last saw you even in dreams. Before this would have hurt me deeply, like a betrayal, but that has ebbed. I know your plan in part and give you your space.
For myself I am undone.
I have done things Solas. Terrible things, to one even more ancient than your own time. I cannot wash my hands of the act even for all it was in defense. It hurts my heart and keeps me up nights wondering if I was right.
I know you would talk to me, console me, but you cannot know how hard it was.
If you have a moment sometime can I see you in the Fade at least? If I can get I to sleep a familiar face would be welcome, and yours above all others.
Please finish quickly my wolf. Come back to me.
Love always,
Your heart