"Hey Moony, I'm bored," Sirius whined, dropping onto the couch Remus was sitting on in the common room.

Remus didn't look away from the common room fireplace. He didn't even answer Sirius. The full moon was one day away and he didn't think he could take any of Sirius' usual annoying behaviour. It also didn't help that he was hopelessly and madly in love with him, either.

Remus' emotions were always strained around the full moon, he would lash out at his friends and it only made hiding his true feelings for Sirius harder.

"Leave me alone, Sirius," he replied eventually, none of his usual warmth in his voice as he was so tired.

Sirius noticed the coldness of his voice and the fact he's used his real name and not his nickname, and it stung a little, "but, I thought we could do something," he said.

"No."

"But you're not even doing anything!" Sirius exclaimed, famous Black temper getting the better of him, "you're not even reading your stupid book, just staring into the fire!"

Remus turned to face him, "I said leave me alone, Sirius."

"You always get so grumpy around the full…"

"SHUT UP!" Remus yelled, not noticing the other students now staring at them. He stood up, walking away to the dormitories, hoping Sirius wouldn't follow.

No such luck.

Sirius followed him up the stairs, the door was slammed shut in his face; but he wrenched it open. He hated how angry Remus got around the full moon. He hated how he took it out on everyone else, for some reason Sirius seemed to get the most of it. It wasn't fair, he never did anything wrong to Remus, except the incident in fifth year but all was forgiven now, he didn't deserve all this anger from Remus. He loved Remus. The real, "I can't bear to be without you" kind of love. And it almost physically hurt him each time Remus was like this. His coping method, Blacks don't get upset or cry, they just get angry, so he'd yell right back at him.

"Go away," Remus said with his back to Sirius.

"No."

"Sirius, you almost shouted that I "get grumpy around the full moon" for the whole common room to hear," Remus said, trying to keep his voice steady and calm as he turned to face him, "don't you think that would have made people suspicious? Didn't you think some of the others would have figured it out, figured out what I am if I had let you finish that sentence?"

"Remus, I…" Sirius realised his mistake and felt instantly guilty.

"No, Sirius, I don't want to hear it, you almost betrayed my trust again," he sighed, running a hand through the hair he usually kept perfectly neat, making it stick up at one side, "just please, leave me alone."

Sirius didn't say anything as Remus turned away and got into bed. He stood there for a few moments, before he too went to his own bed.

He slept restlessly that night. He didn't like it when Remus was angry at him.

He got up the next morning with the full intention of apologising to him, he only wished he could say that he loved him, but he just couldn't.

Remus wasn't in any of that day's lessons, so after they were over he, James and Peter went down to the hospital wing like they usually did before a full, to keep Remus company.

When they got there Sirius opened his mouth to say how sorry he was immediately, but Remus stopped him, "Sirius, please, I don't think you should be there tonight."

Sirius stared at him; he had to go with him. As much as he hated to admit it, Sirius almost liked the few minutes after the moon had disappeared and Remus was back to himself, weak and scared. He liked these moments because, even for just five minutes a month, he can hold Remus, stoke his hair, tell him it's going to be alright, tell him he loves him. For a few moments, he can pretend that Remus is his, and he is Remus' and the latter doesn't remember anything the next day. He lived for those bittersweet moments, where his love and happiness at being close with Remus contradicts the guilt and pain at seeing the one he loves in a state like this.

"No, Moony," he said, "I'm going, I have to go."

"I don't want you to go," Remus said, he hated Sirius seeing him like this, he hated putting Sirius in danger, he was sure this was going to be a bad night, Sirius being there could only make it worse.

"Fine," Sirius said, trying not to let the hurt show in his voice, "fine, if you don't want me there, I won't be there," he said and he walked out.

Remus turned away from the others to hide the tears in his eyes, he had had to lie and Sirius seemed hurt.