Disclaimer: I do not own the boys. Neither DBSK nor affilated (JYJ) nor anyone in SM. If I did, this fic wouldn't be necessary.
Oh. It's that choco-banana muffin. I guess it was time to throw it away. Not surprised he did it today. Been acting distracted the whole of yesterday and surly today. *sigh*
It's been years now. Wonder how they're doing. I guess they're doing ok. I hope they're doing ok.
Maybe I should have eaten that muffin, I mean, no point leaving it to waste since I knew he's not gonna eat it but… Yeah. Leaving it alone is best.
I knew he wasn't gonna eat it when I saw it in the fridge anyway. … Should just leave it be. We all have our ways of coping. At least he's not drinking like he did the first time.
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Great, now I miss them.
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Jaejoong's favourite. That one time when he decided to make his own choco-banana muffins, that was fun. *heheh* Only thing he failed to make, all these years cooking for us. Man, I miss his cooking.
Man, I miss him.
I'm not as bad as Yunho. That guy just … poor guy. But I miss him too.
That day he wanted to make those muffins and made us all help him because he said we won't get any if we didn't help. We made a mess and he was so annoyed. Then the hilarious part when we realized we didn't have an oven. Geniuses Yunho suggested we use the rice cooker, Yoochun said a pot over the stove, and Junsu wanted the microwave. Impatient. None of them worked, but we had fun. Yunho stole away when we were cleaning up and went out to buy a box of choco-banana muffins, came back to surprise his Jaejoong, and got a kiss and a hug and out of cleaning. I should have thought of that.
But then again maybe I'd still have to clean up if that was me. They were such a married couple then.
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It's like they've died or something. We can't see them, we can't call them, we can't even be the same place with them. How is this "necessary for a peaceful negotiation" or whatever it is they told us? I missed them so much. We had to move out, change our phone numbers and emails, close all online accounts. How is that necessary? We've already had arguments ourselves. I guess they didn't want us to leave too. Sometimes I wonder if I should have. Yunho would have had to leave too and we could all be together and…
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Sometimes I wish Jaejoong will just call. Yunho's been looking at his phone every chance he had yesterday. He secretly bought back his old number and put it into an old phone, just hoping anyone would call. Or rather, Jaejoong. Heard they've never spent a birthday apart since they were 14. He goes crazy each year now. After he's sobered up from all that drinking, he gets into his funk again on his birthday just waiting for a call and it just drives me so mad. We've moved on now so just stop haunting him already.
Sometimes, I wish he'd never call.
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"He buys you a choco-banana muffin every year, hyung. He buys and he looks at it like he's gonna cry again but he doesn't because you don't like it when he cries. He buys you one for your birthday. I think he's waiting for you to come back to eat it. With us."
With him.