Plot Summarry: She loves him so much. Yet, she never had the courage to tell him how she feels because she knew he never really cared about her. It has been a year since she left Japan, will she learn to move on?

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Flame of Recca. I'm just a fan who is expressing into writing the colorful pigments of my imagination.

I THOUGHT HE NEVER REALLY CARED

Fuuko Kirisawa is now a 2nd year medical student at University of Pennsylvania. It became a big buzz in the university when the most popular girl in the campus wrote a heartbreaking feature article in the school newspaper.

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He Never Really Cared

By: Fuuko Kirisawa

I've known him for years now. I love him, yes. But I know he doesn't feel the same way. He never treated me as a lady actually. He often calls me 'monkey'. He even calls me a dimwit. I'm sure he never admired me or anything. There has been only one girl for him. It's Yanagi, the sweet, innocent and caring healer. Yanagi is like an exact replica of his beloved sister. Maybe that's why he is attracted to her. Yanagi and I are very different. She is lovely, sweet, polite, and poised unlike me. I don't have her beautiful eyes or her long silky hair. She is fond of young children that she even volunteers as a day care teacher. As, for me, I'd rather be practicing martial arts than taking care of annoying brats. She is definitely an achiever in school, a class A student I must say. I'm just an ordinary student who hates studying. I would rather sleep in class than listen to that old math teacher of mine. It's not that I'm a moron. It's just that I don't feel like I wanna be one of the class A students. I just wanted to enjoy my highschool life. I enjoyed beating the crap out of any guy who'd try to woo me.

He listens to whatever Yanagi says. When it comes to me, he would just ignore me and tell me that I'm just wasting his time. Why can't he accept the fact that Yanagi already has Recca? Why won't he dare to look at me in the way that he looks at her? I know I'm just being pathetic. I'm a pathetic fool. I hate myself for falling for someone who doesn't even care about me.

When we are hanging out at any of our friends' house he would just sit in a corner and read a book. Whenever I try to distract him by pulling his silver mane, he yells at me and hits me slightly in the head. He'll even yell how a dimwit and monkey I was. He always had this emotionless tone of voice when he talks to me. I know, I mustn't waste my life waiting for him to love me. But, I love him still. Ganko, once told me, "why don't you tell him that you like him, Fuuko?" I just couldn't tell him that because I know what he's gonna say. He'll just dump me like the way he does to every single fan of his. He never really cared of what other people will feel.

I remember when I passed the qualifying exams for medical school. I was so happy then. I really wanted to become a doctor. I promised my mom that when I become a college student, I will do the best I can to make her proud. When I told our friends about it, they were so happy for me. When I told him, he just looked at me with his usual unsmiling face and said, "That's good then. You'll go away and I'll have my peace."

"What are you trying to imply?" I asked confused.

He gave out a chuckle and said, " You'll be heading to med school in Pennsylvania, that means I only have 2 monkeys who will annoy me and pester me everyday."

Tears started to fall from my eyes. I tried to suppress my tears but I couldn't. "Am I really just a monkey to you?" I could hear my voice shake as I spoke.

"Yes, you are. I will do anything to get rid of you." He spoke as he started to walk away. "A dimwit like you who hates studying will never become a doctor. I'm sure you'll fail." Those words were like a daggers piercing into my heart and soul.

The day of my departure for Pennsylvania came. Recca, Yanagi, Domon, Koganei and Ganko were at the airport except for him. I asked Yanagi if she knew if he'll be coming to say goodbye, but Yanagi shook her head and hugged me. I cried in her arms then. Yanagi knew how much I love him. I was heartbroken and devastated then. But what am I to expect? I never really mattered to him. But I have to admit, up to the moment before the plane took off, I was still expecting that he'll suddenly be there. He'll plead that I mustn't go and say that he loves me. But when the plane took off, I knew, that what I thought of just happens in movies, not in reality. He never really love me nor even liked me.

It has been a year since I arrived here in Pennsylvania. Though it has been a year, I still love him. I think I love him even more than before. It's kinda stupid I know. But what can I do? I love him still even though he can't love me back.

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It was a sunny summer afternoon at the picnic area of Penn park. Two girls sat under a sycamore tree.

"Fuuko, is this your real story? It really happened to you?" Cicily asked Fuuko after she read the article that Fuuko wrote on the school newspaper.

"Yup." Fuuko answered as she flipped through the pages of her pharmacology textbook. Studying has been her most loved task since she decided to become a doctor.

"You are in love with him still." Cicily spoke sadly. "How can he be so cruel?"

"Cicily, he's not cruel. He just didn't love me nor even liked me at all. It has been me who has been a fool." Fuuko smiled at her friend as she spoke. She tried to hide the pain she felt.

Cicily noticed how Fuuko faked her smile. 'She loved him so much', she thought.

"What made you fall for him in the first place?"

She saw Fuuko's eyes bright eyes began to water.

"I love him. That's all I know." Fuuko bursted out crying as she spoke.

Cicily hugged her friend to comfort her. "Shh.. Fuuko, go ahead cry. Let it all out."

"Cici, I can't believe this. Back in highschool, I just beat up guys who try to get near me. Now, I'm crying like a baby coz I'm still in love with the guy who never liked me."

At a tree nearby, unseen by the 2 girls, a man watched them and heard their conversation.

"I won't be here watching over you, if I didn't love you, dimwit, you monkey." He smiled bitterly as he whispered to himself. "You even published it in the school paper! Fuuko, you are really annoying!"

TO BE CONTINUED….

****Author's Notes:

Everyone, I hope you all liked it. I'll be glad to receive your reviews. It's my first time to write and publish a fanfic. Please bear with me. I need your constructive criticisms and suggestions so I can improve on my writing. Next chapter will be up soon. I hope. Lol.